Thursday, October 27, 2016

thurs

Grateful that

- made a decision re health that i will do at earliest (in)convenience
- progress that has been made re move
- things submitted
- dreamt about the Bad Man again and grateful i don't have/need that nonsense in my life anymore
- the logistical nightmares (including a constantly failing septic) that we will leave behind when we move in less than a week
- sense of having made progresss in life re writing pursuits, etc
- whatever of health i actualLY DO possess (not so sure anymore)

things

- further teacher draft (if possible; if it doesn't happen, oh well, am still doing the cats/tornado thing) oct 30
- begin Glamoiur draft (once again, if possible, have not 'felt' this theme, really) nov 1
 - cancel wp
- dl
- donations
- draft ma blog

moving list

get boxes from pod/storage
build boxes as appropriate
take trash to truck
take food things down to wash

order of things

  1. off walls & move dwst
  2. alcove area 

  3. - pack all up
    - undo wire shelves
    - toss the unneeded
    - move/rearrange standalone stuff & clear out of area
  1.  by JH area pack all up

  2. - put art supplies away
    - stuff behind wall
    -put all in milk crate
  3. art studio go pack up & bring to garage
  4. move filled boxes dwst as appropriate/possible
  5. clothes in bags etc
  6. dry good pantry
  7. dry goods in garage (box & out of there)
  8. AA art project: box few ones that didn't 
  9. books (c. 20 boxes)
  10. box up AA desk area
  11. box up jh desk area
  12. clean out fridge

  13. - by me
    - by jh
    - by back
  14. furniture etc of ours
  15. - ladders
    - coffeetable
    - 3 little shelves
    - pill stand
    - weights, exercise, etc
    - aa desk
    - jh desk
    - wire shelving
    - standalone shelves (aa, alcove, jh)
    - 2 wood stoools
    - 3 chairs
    - 1 folding chair
    - 2 office chairs
    - jh night stand 3 legged thing
    - 2 our nighstands
    - giraffe
    - 2 fans
    13. technology and boxes 
    14. wash last clothes
    15. last stuff boxes

Tuesday, October 25, 2016

Tuesday 10.25

been gone! for one whole day couldn't log on here and then got sick then busy etc etc

we also had a blackout where the lights were off for close to 24 hours cumulatively, which was intretesting

and of course general busyness


GRATEFUL THAT


- in spite of my beliefs i was not badly sick and if i did have cold/flu it was the shortest cold/flu in the history of life, lasting less than 24 hours
- having the sweet kitty around for as long as we have him
- new town :D
- i think i have been feeling better past 2 days off malaise that has afflicted me in summer
- a new income opp/gift
- having talked to the lady who bought art from us in the past and how she's ready to see some more
- having got paid to do more colouring pages
- seeing J again and the house, that was lovely, i hope we have further opp to
- pretty fall this time of year
- walks, when i can
- that I go to say 'goodbye' to things that needed to be said goodbye to, in this house, things i've been dragging around for YEARS
- that new neighbour is happy re our going there
- TO BE IN OWN HOUSE AGAIN! What a big deal
- health of family, etc
- mother liked the gift
- feeling mroe focues and with it than last week

TO DO


the main thing today is pack but i need to plan it our or else it will flounder

so, general list

sub AA haloween thing (afte last drraft)
clean up a JH Dkos thing
one TF sub
clean email 1 hour
change dental appt
check balance
draft teacher essay AA very small


moving list

get boxes from pod
build boxes as appropriate
take trash to truck
take food things down to wash

order of things

  1. off walls & move dwst
  2. alcove area 

  3. - pack all up
    - undo wire shelves
    - toss the unneeded
    - move/rearrange standalone stuff
  1.  by JH area pack all up

  2. - put art supplies away
    - stuff behind wall
    -put all in milk crate
  3. art studio go pack up & bring to garage
  4. move filled boxes dwst as appropriate/possible
  5. clothes in bags etc
  6. dry good pantry
  7. dry goods in garage (box & out of there)
  8. AA art project: box few ones that didn't 
  9. books (c. 20 boxes)
  10. box up AA desk area
  11. box up jh desk area
  12. clean out fridge

  13. - by me
    - by jh
    - by back
  14. furniture etc of ours
  15. - ladders
    - coffeetable
    - 3 little shelves
    - pill stand
    - weights, exercise, etc
    - aa desk
    - jh desk
    - wire shelving
    - standalone shelves (aa, alcove, jh)
    - 2 wood stoools
    - 3 chairs
    - 1 folding chair
    - 2 office chairs
    - jh night stand 3 legged thing
    - 2 our nighstands
    - giraffe
    - 2 fans
    13. technology and boxes 
    14. wash last clothes
    15. last stuff boxes



Monday, October 24, 2016

REFLECTIONS: 10 day stretch between this and last post!  Didn't fee like 10 days! 2 more kid ailments made time fly.  Enough with fevers and garbage... bleh!  Looking forward to Spring when no one catches anymore colds!  My goals, and "me" have been a pretty low priority.  I started a bit last week returning to prioritizing what things make me tick and make me feel good.

I burned my hand this morning.  Poured boiling hot water on it.  I'm in a lot of pain and my first thought was, how is this going to get in the way of my week?  How is this going to keep me from achieving my goals??? How is this going to hold me back??  I hate pain from burns and this one is pretty bad... it's the entire top surface of my left fingers... it's throbbing.  I think if I can stay focused, and not fall into the excuse making mentality I always seem to fall into, I will get through this.  

So I finished one of my 2016 goals this past weekend!  I ran the 5K!  It went well!  It was a fun run so it wasn't times but I still got it done!! :) 

Things I will do differently this week:  I don't really need to change anything below.  I'm still working towards these things. 

This week, I'm just focusing on being present and making the right choices for myself in each moment.  I don't need to write out a long list of do's and don'ts or have some list of things to live by.... I know what those are.  I just need to take each choice in the moment, as it comes and do the right thing. 

GRATITUDES:
-I am so grateful for my strong and healthy body- I am free of chronic ailments and serious disease
-I am so very grateful for the home I have- so many people don't even have something as simple as a home- shelter, a place to sleep, away from the elements
-I am so very grateful to be able to watch the sunrise while I reflect about life this morning instead of having to run off to an 8-6 job that rules my life
-I am so very grateful for my dedication and determination when it comes to accomplishing my goals!
-I am so very grateful that I have some incredibly motivating and cool people in my life! 

WHAT I'M DOING TODAY TO WIN AT LIFE: 

Daily Non-Negotiables 
-take supplements
-stretch and meditate 
-30 minute 21 Day Fix workout 
-use meal plan tracker
-shower/look beautiful/wear one piece of jewelry

New/Carry-Over To Do Today

-mail
-bills
-organize desk
-hang up picture in back room
-print out lyrics
-split out harmonies for Thursday
-vocal rehearsal
-do something creative
-start clearing out the gym again
-hang up shelf in office 
-clean the picture frames and put some pics in and possibly hang up
-start floating out ideas for promoting benefit show- 6 emails between now and the show
-make one or 2 more promo videos? if time allows


GOALS FOR THE REST OF 2016:

-Run 5K:   I actually did it! It wasn't fast, nor was it timed, but I did it!! 
-Size 4 or 125: Not on target for this by try try again! 
-Put on another phenomenal charity event: Have lots of work to do still! 
-Make a vision board: Need to get ink for my printer got it! Now need to do it! 
-Figure out a work situation that works for me AND pays! Meh... 
-Throw my kids an art birthday party: Need to make a decision about this...  
-Host a killer Thanksgiving: Stated watching on streaming food network, thanksgiving recipes- jotted them down in the notes section of my phone.  
-Wake up between 4:30-6:00 a.m. every week day-  I'm waking up more days before 6:00 than I had in the past, so that's good! 

Wednesday, October 19, 2016

TUEsday (for oct 19th)

for some reason this had stayed in draft mode from last week

pretty useless day yesterday, not to put too fine a point on it. I slept a lot for some reason but i don't question that because I've not been feeling 100% for a while now, all summer, probably. Not even worth being annoyed at failing at tasks, goals, etc so spectacularly again, really. It is what it is. The way things are now everything is a hoped for and there's no worth putting emotional energy in its achievement because clearly the energy/drive/force required to make things happen is ABSENT, whether that's bc of my permanent personal failings, or outside circumstances, it doesn't matter. Maybe one day it will be better, maybe someday I'll find what I'm missing, even if it's just drugs haha. But for now I am surrendering attachment to what i can or cannot achieve because at the end of the day it clearly doesn't make anything better at all and does not address the fact that i am seriously missing something. It would make more sense to find out what i am missing so i can function at a more optimal level than to expect that i can do more than i can.

anyhooo, same old stuff:

potato juice
food
paypal button projectDL today
10 dwgs: comit to ONLY 3

If time: 
test paypal buttons
paypal for fb
4 octo (push to groups)
DL for week
- formatting
- opps
- links
clean up shelf area by JH
collect more art sub places (in post)
pc update
DIH for week
other art
see this - https://buffer.com/journey

grateful for
felt better this morning 
potato juice made me feel good

Monday, October 17, 2016

MOnday

1. The main thing to be grateful about is, my stepdad's health crisis was averted!! Thru some miracle his artery was messed up and he had found a way to, unbeknownst to him, have a physical the day before he would've probalby had a terrible heart attack or heart damage. There was no blood going to the heart muscle.
so yea, somehow he made an opportune dr's appointment and the rest is history.
very glad about that
2. nice moonlight last nite
3. felt good yesterday and this morning
4. even though it's probably a terible thing for the viability of human life, i am grateful that it's still unseasonably warm bc i pretty much dislike being cold
5. still getting up in AM early even if now am doing that weird thing where i go back to bed around 8 and don't get up agin till 10am (why? simply bc i don't go to bed early enough, of course)
6. i submitted a bunch of stuff over the weekend after all even though at one pt was feeling very NOT on top of it
7. got another drawing commission :D Thanks Lashae :D :D
8. going to a meetup weds which is always fun and new, as well as finalize moving process
9. new $$ opp for Le Jimbo
10. coming to terms with past mistakes in healthy way

To DO



call bloke no need to anymore
DL today
10 dwgs ONLY 3

If time: 
4 octo (push to groups)
DL for week
- formatting
- opps
- links
clean up shelf area by JH
collect more art sub places (in post)
pc update

Saturday, October 15, 2016

Art subs

spent this weekend readying and submitting art to various magazines. Non paying but just wanted the experience

one left for tomorrow: stonecoast review

good articles on how to have useful art statements: http://bmoreart.com/2009/04/best-professional-practices-for-artists-2.html

http://www.gyst-ink.com/artist-statement-guidelines/

also, apparently this is a good submission tracker, so far using SUBMITTABLE and excel sheet but this might be good: http://spacejock.com/Sonar3.html

- emailed woman, write her back

- sugard water https://sugaredwatermagazine.wordpress.com/submission-guidelines/ ONLY ONE MORE DAY till april

in general - https://www.submishmash.com/tagged/visual-art

also - https://www.freedomwithwriting.com/freedom/wp-content/uploads/2016/10/The-Freelance-Writers-Success-Formula-%E2%80%93%E2%80%93-Final.pdf

Silk Road art submissions https://silkroadreview.submittable.com/submit/44524/artwork

Please send up to 5 images of your original artwork in one document as a .jpeg, .png, or .pdf. We are not accepting audio or video at this time. 

Track 4 'women of colour' If you would like to donate to TRACK//FOUR, please submit here. All funds will be used to fund the website and the Submittable. Funds will also be used to fund the 2017 TRACK//FOUR Prizes, which will open on October 1 and close on December 1.  Please submit all work in one document. If you are submitting in multiple categories, please send work in different submissions - i.e., one submission for prose, one submission for poetry, etc.    https://trackfour.submittable.com/submit


Friday, October 14, 2016

Long Time No Write!

REFLECTIONS: It's been weeks since my last blog post and I realized I never published my last one!  I notice such a difference in my life when I take time for reflection and gratitude.

I feel such a drive to keep reinventing myself and revamping my life.  Sometimes I think that's a poor quality- just settle on something already.  Stop changing things around! But actually- I think it's a really great quality.  I won't give up on the life I want until it is exactly how I hoped it would be.

And what am I hoping for?  What's missing?  A little more daily joy.  Doing things that make me joyous.  Filling my cup.  And that's my focus for the rest of 2016.  Maybe even figuring out what exactly does fill my cup!

The election, the state of our country... I'm just dying inside.  It's so hard to focus when I'm so distracted by this.  I feel like I need to do something but I don't know what I could be doing... other than speaking up and trying to get people to be less racist, and gross... beyond that... I don't know.  

Things I will do differently this week:  I don't really need to change anything below.  I'm still working towards these things. 

Create and follow a schedule- (update: printed calendars and started updating) 
Be prepared for the day, before my family wakes up (update: hasn't happened yet) 
Take all of my supplements (update: keep forgetting)
Focus on 4 meals, 100 grams of protein and lots of nutrition veggies (have a commitment buddy!) 
Exercise daily (update: been doing great with daily exercise) 
Do fun (hopefully free) activities with my daughter while my son is at school(have one planned) 
Get out and do 2 things for myself that are fulfilling both spiritually and emotionally - things that bring JOY
 (I need to make this a daily thing) 

GRATITUDES:
-I am so grateful for the community of amazing women I am surrounded by.  They are so supportive and cool.
-I am so grateful that I can design my life exactly how I want to live it
-I am so grateful that I can always seem to muster up a flurry of hope even when I can't quite find the motivation
-I am so grateful for my cute husband
-I am so grateful that my kids LOVE each other SO MUCH
-I am so grateful that my friends are encouraging me to get out an play music more!

WHAT I'M DOING TODAY TO WIN AT LIFE: I'm not doing much right now to "win" at life.  I've been kind of just doing the minimum every day to get by.  It's such a low place to be.  I don't feel bad or depressed... I'm just no vibrating very high.  

Daily Non-Negotiables 
-take supplements
-stretch and meditate 
-30 minute 21 Day Fix workout  or 5K prep
-use meal plan tracker
-is this 5K prep day?
-shower/look beautiful/wear one piece of jewelry

New/Carry-Over To Do Today
I've done a ton on my last here.  Need to rewrite and add the new stuff in tomorrow's post.

-organize the desk
-organize my work stuff
-organize my yoga stuff
-check in on CRCD balance and pay off
-review finances 
-mail out S4S benefit cards
-make a weekly schedule again
-do monthly calendars for October, November, December  
-do something creative
-deep clean bedrooms, vacuum behind beds, under the furniture and clean the baseboard heater
-get laundry away
-clean and put back Teeny Tiny's carpet
-change sheets on the beds
-finish cleaning the bathroom
-start decorating the downstair playroom
-start clearing out the gym again
-hang up shelf in office 
*Bonus- clean the picture frames and put some pics in and possibly hang up


GOALS FOR THE REST OF 2016:

-Run 5K: Comments: OMG- this is next week... I better at least try to run.  
-Size 4 or 125: I'm back on target for this. 
-Put on another phenomenal charity event: Coming along!
-Make a vision board: Need to get ink for my printer
-Figure out a work situation that works for me AND pays! I got a raise and I am still working on it  
-Throw my kids an art birthday party: Need to make a decision about this...  
-Host a killer Thanksgiving: Stated watching on streaming food network, thanksgiving recipes- jotted them down in the notes section of my phone.  
-Wake up between 4:30-6:00 a.m. every week day-  I wish I could make this a habit... 
REFLECTIONS: Back to school night last night.  Since we had a babysitter, we went out for drinks afterwards with other parents- making some social connections!  I'm exhausted today.  Woke up as late as I could WITH the kids... never a good start to the day.  Always much better when I'm up and awake and ready to go when they wake up.  Still that struggle of getting back on track with sleep.  I REALLY wanted to watch Mr. Robot last night when I got home... so... I stayed up too late.  Was that a need?  I don't know... maybe... It certainly doesn't help me with my cause, but is staying up and watching a show satisfying to me in a way that rivals accomplishing my goals?  I think it might be.  I derive satisfaction from escaping into fantasy and maybe on seem level I need that more than I need waking up early and being productive.  Although a case could be made that I wouldn't need to feel the need to escape into fantasy TV world if I felt more balanced and accomplished... chickens, eggs, whatevs.  The MOST important thing I think I need to remember is to be OK with whatever choice I make.  If I choose to stay up- relish in it, enjoy it, and above all, no guilt and rehashing of "shoulds".  It's just no way to live.  Because once you start rehashing in the "I should have" "so terrible that I didn't" it's really hard to get out of the negative space- and what kind of life is that, right? 


Things I will do differently this week: TODAY: just get the house, life, bills organized again today

Create and follow a schedule- (update: got as far as printing out calendars 
Be prepared for the day, before my family wakes up (update: hasn't happened yet) 
Take all of my supplements (update: forgot to yesterday)
Focus on 4 meals, 100 grams of protein and lots of nutrition veggies (update:really not happening) 
Exercise daily (update: also no success as of yet) 
Do fun (hopefully free) activities with my daughter while my son is at school(update:again... as above) 
Get out and do 2 things for myself that are fulfilling spiritually and emotionally(update: 2 fun things on the calendar from Friday and Saturday!  Want to get out for yoga at some point this weekend) 

GRATITUDES:
-I am so grateful for this place to reflect on life and gratuities 
-I am so grateful that I can design my life exactly how I want to live it
-I am so grateful that I can always seem to muster up a flurry of hope even when I can't quite find the motivation
-I am so grateful that I have good friends to hang out with 
-I am so grateful for a full social calendar
-I am so grateful for my talents- I just want to use them more. 

WHAT I'M DOING TODAY TO WIN AT LIFE: I'm staying organized and on schedule and on top of my game.

Daily Non-Negotiables 
-take supplements
-stretch and meditate 
-30 minute 21 Day Fix workout  or 5K prep
-use meal plan tracker
-is this 5K prep day?
-shower/look beautiful/wear one piece of jewelry

New/Carry-Over To Do Today
-organize the desk
-organize my work stuff
-organize my yoga stuff
-check in on CRCD balance and pay off
-review finances 
-mail out S4S benefit cards
-make a weekly schedule again
-do monthly calendars for October, November, December  
-do something creative
-deep clean bedrooms, vacuum behind beds, under the furniture and clean the baseboard heater
-get laundry away
-clean and put back Teeny Tiny's carpet
-change sheets on the beds
-finish cleaning the bathroom
-start decorating the downstair playroom
-start clearing out the gym again
-hang up shelf in office 
*Bonus- clean the picture frames and put some pics in and possibly hang up


GOALS FOR THE REST OF 2016:

-Run 5K: Comments: Need to make a running schedule 
-Size 4 or 125: I'm drifting further and further... joining a heath and fitness accountability group on 10/5
-Put on another phenomenal charity event: First meeting with my partner today 
-Make a vision board: Need to get ink for my printer
-Figure out a work situation that works for me AND pays! Still need to talk with boss.  
-Throw my kids an art birthday party: Working on this.  Found a mobile art truck.  Kind of expensive though. 
-Host a killer Thanksgiving: Stated watching on streaming food network, thanksgiving recipes- jotted them down in the notes section of my phone.  


-Wake up between 4:30-6:00 a.m. every week day- Got up at 6:00 today!  It's a start.  (1/30) 

Wednesday, October 12, 2016

wednesday / thursday / friday

Gratitudes


1) got up early again and went on walk though i hadn't managed it past 4 days (I thought I'd lost it but guess not :) )
2) rooster is fun
3) actually made $5 with TF entry, not really great but a good start
4) re above: if I can do that for every instagram I do, I' m in business ! I just love photoing and instagram
5) GOING TO SEE NEW HOME TODAY!!!!!
6) emptying the storage unit o the property today
7) green tea
8) general everyday blessings
9) general progress that didn't exist before
10) did make it to post office finally
11) remaining time with Best Kitty Ever
12) diet way better than before
13) (thurs) did well in terms of actually having a good time at BG event yesterday
14) actually SHARED re what i do to a new person v/ blowing it off like i usually do. This was a big step in the right direction for me for sure
15) that I have lived past few months in a truly wonderful idyllic place with chickens, cats, gorgeous gardens, fresh produce, etc. What a gift
16) that in general Ihave had good luck in places I've lived in - every place has had much in terms of character, charm, history, comfort, personality, etc
17) made ice cream for ppl and it worked out
18) still have 2 weeks before needing to move seriously



To Do

UPDATE: Thursday

Have not done very well this week v last week, re being up early, finishing all tasks, etc. But no matter I at least know what's possible and am not bothered that things cannot be perfect 100% of the time or else worthy of being chucked.

Will finish off the rest of this today and also go work on an art piece.

UPDATE:  Friday

DEFINITELY not had a stellar week for completing things. There are still things on this list.
Got caught up with crazy food production yesterday as well didn't really get up early for some reason.

So, clearly I finish what's here and if any time left over either paint or pack.

Sometimes you just have to keep it simple

.

-write ppl JS
- DL
- order the thing
- renew the thing
- list camera fb
- octo 4
- finish TF recipe
- sub 4 TF photos
- sub 2 things
- prep 4 for sub
- sub AA art
- rserch AA art show poss local MCAC, etc (email?)
- clean inbox ISO opps
 - read email HASTAC (anything there?)
- blog art

Monday, October 10, 2016

Another fun market

 http://www.theestablishment.co/pitchus/


The Establishment is looking to unearth overlooked stories, produce original reporting, and provide a platform for voices that have been marginalized by the mainstream media. And yes, we want your humor, wit, and good old-fashioned satire, too. We publish originally reported features, interviews, long-form journalism, personal essays, and multimedia of all shapes, sizes, and creeds.

The Nitty Gritty

We pay $125 for feature stories, op-eds, and personal essays (800-1,500 words), and $500 for a select few long-form investigative pieces that involve original reporting and at least five interviews (3,000 words). All multimedia submissions are paid for on a case-by-case basis, but we pay everyone an egalitarian rate for every contribution they make.
How to pitch:
  • To submit a pitch, email us at getestablished@theestablishment.co, including the word “pitch” in the subject line. If the pitch is time-sensitive, please note this in the subject line as well.
  • Your pitch should be 2-3 paragraphs in length and as specific as possible. Please include when applicable:
    • A thesis
    • The historical or cultural context of the piece you’re looking to write
    • Why your proposed piece is important
    • Existing research you’re looking to draw from
    • Potential interview subjects
    • Relevant information on a news hook
    • Expected word length 
  • You’re also welcome to submit full-length, previously unpublished articles. When submitting, please include information on the piece in the body of the email.
  • If you’ve never written for us, include three links to previously published work. Do not send us zip files or Dropbox links—we won’t open them. We of course love publishing first-time writers, but in these cases, any example of writing is appreciated.
  • We aim to respond to pitches within two weeks. If you do not hear back in this timeframe, we’ve decided not to move forward with your story. We do read all the pitches we receive—honest!—but due to volume, we’re unable to respond to each one.

Sunday, October 9, 2016

Sunday / Monday

before filters

Gratitudes


1- sealed the deal on new crib :D :D :D now come the fun part haha
2 - the kitchari thing i've been doing this week has helped me overcome that terrible binge cycle i was in since the beginning of fall. That in itself is worth the price of admission
3 - good convo with house ppl here
4 - deal on my face product (sale + coupon)
5 - taking fun and awesome pics of random stuff on instagram - it's just so fun to do with all the filters
6 - found a way i can and could make $ thru instagram photos thru thrifty fun tips site
7 - did pretty well in meeting posting/opp following/submitting goals, better than i have all year. If i can keep momentum going i will definitely make good progress in money things
8 - even though 'took time off' over weekend, super grateful for having had opp to get up early 6:30am to get and see how easy it is to get things done

after Instagram filters

To Do (some tonite though was wanting to go to bed soon)

- IMPORTANT: CALL student loan thing
- POST OFFICE: mail NC thing
mail poem thing IT WAS CLOSED

- all DIH next week
- al DL next week
- some octo (4)
- write art woman re titles
- pack (just some each day- 1st trip on Weds)
- clean up room is a sty again
- print 2nd NC thing
- make title pg for above
- print, pack, title page, etc poems entries
- harvest new Instagram for TF posts
- laundry finish
- new TF post (recipe pie) stasrted it
 - DL Today
- list camera



Saturday, October 8, 2016

For Saturday

After snafu yesterday, I ended up having a surprisingly good day.

I was able to broach the moving subject with landlady, and had a succesful outcome, something which I didn't think I would have.

As well decided to push myself and attend a spiritual event hosted by an old friend and also post roomie/landlady and it was remarkable and posibly life-changing (I say 'possibly' because you don't know that it's going to be life-changing till further on).

Opted NOT to get up hyper early today though I did wake up normally at 6am. Didn't feel that good waking up at 9 and obviously got late start and set myself up for staying up too late again. Did, though, go to bed fairly late yesterday. We'll see. Am more committed after this week than ever before to switching my allegiance to night-owl-ness though understandibly 38-year-old habits take a hit and miss approach to break.

So,,,


1) good conversation and ability to remain in a space of honesty with people with whom rapport exists/has existed in spite of fear of risk of playing an open hand in what is essentially in the end a business transaction anyway
2) daring myself to go to the event - I've been wanting to go to these things for at elast a year and i just don't really have it in me, but this time I did and it paid off
3) the sense that i can rely on my intuition or whatnot as in, "it is good to go" even if I don't know what for or if there's a risk. That's what it's all about in the end
4) we find out tomorrow. Good because it's no fun to live not knowing
5) from the look of it, good outcome regardless of outcome (I've no great desire to move though it's hard to pass up opp that is being presented here)

To Do


Today I want to be about the submission process thing.

1) excel for subs (art v. wtg) - this is a process where every day we submit one thing, I had this going 6 years ago and it really worked
2) sub at least one thing today
3) prep 5 things for sub depending on JH
4) 2 drafts for AA sub things (chicken thing & woman thing) actually was cat thing and tornado thing
5) two TF entries http://www.thriftyfun.com/
6) another fiverr gig
7) JH fiction NC thing - look thru hard drives for suitable thing printed one, waiting on other one
8) clean inbox

if time: - clean up room
- do laundry
- write book
- food/smoothie
- check hard drive back up (titanium, stubb a dub) for old titanium data


Tomorrow


1) from JH Lit Mag non fiction
2) prepare NC sub thing to mail monday (depends on JH)
3) meet bloke re house

Friday, October 7, 2016

For Friday

Started off day on wrong note. Was angry and hateful at roomate person - not thru saying anything but thru hateful silence that i have come to see does affect others negatively, including my own self, for certain things they were doing that really irk me

Now, I am not really the type to want to dictate how others live or do their thang, and I am not attached to being 'right' bc it's all relative in the end, so I opt to say nothing, but I still can't get really past feeling hateful judging towards having to be in the same room (IE kitchen.. forced) as someone who treats the world like a frat house.

at one level i feel like you have it coming to you if you are that careless as to not realize that your casual attitude can offend others, but the more important thing is that i allowed myself to get into a negative an hateful space and now it's tainting everything

But am glad I managed to fix it by having a different conversation that needed to be had with another roomate.

There's a bizarre chance we won't be here for long anyway, rather unexpectedly, so we see how it goes



Grateful for:


1) got to see groovy house yesterday in Hot Springs
2) good chance or at least fair chance that we WILL in fact have a way to move in there
3) gave myself opp to discuss this possibility with current home landlady/roomate, something whihc i thought would be very hard, impossible, BAD. Turned out it was the right thing to do, to not be all silent and spring it on someone at the last minute but instead makes things better for everyone. It's not often i take initiative to do things like this bc i am too a'scaird nmost of the time of making mistakes/making things worse so it's great I did this - and it seemed to work out OK
4) IF we move grateful that we will have opp to be on our own again instead of sharing which has its good pts but mainly annoyances insofar as above paragraphs
5) IF we move grateful to be in a town/place i have always wanted to be in
6) IF we move then chance to deal with storage unit stuff in an easier way
7) more cool morning walks - managed to get up early for 6th time in a row
8) got more sleep last nite

Today:


already late today and yesterday sort of fell off the productivity wagon but still can do things today

1) clean up room, looks crappy again
2) DL
3) sub things to mags (at least one and prep 4, or do 5, at some pt need to make organized excel or sthg)
4) share photos of book with mom
5) event
6) clean email inbox
7) TF entry - 2


IF TIME: video finish, art o/s, new fiverr gig, start sub excel, find JH Dkos teacher entry

Thursday, October 6, 2016

New Possibilities

  1. http://thefuriousgazelle.com/2016/09/04/halloween-contest-2016-announcement/ 

    We accept all forms of writing for this contest, including essay, fiction, humor and poetry. Please follow our normal submission guidelines for entries, and look at our last year’s finalists for an idea of what we are looking for. The only rule is that this is a Halloween contest so your piece(s) should reflect that in whatever way you deem Halloween-ish. 
    That’s right, piece(s)! We will accept up to five submissions from each contestant. There is no fee to enter. Please send your submissions to submit@thefuriousgazelle.com with Halloween Contest Submission in the subject line of your email. The Deadline is Wednesday October 26, 201
  2. Glamour Magazine is currently hosting an essay contest. The theme: “Every woman has a moment in life that changes everything. What’s that moment for you?” Essays should be no more than 3,500 words. The deadline is November 1st. Learn more here.  THRU UNBELIEVABLE WILL SUBBED SOME SHITE. It really WAS shite, not even appropriate word count, not even about the essay subject, but a classic FOR THE PRINCIPLE OF THE THING thing. And you know what, it felt  GOOD. I was in the midst of moving and had a reject 1/2 written thing and I waited till literally 20 minutes b4 deadline to sub but was like 'what the hell we have to show up like we said' and i fucking did! Go fucking ME, man.
  3. Writers & Illustrators of the Future has a regular writing contest with prizes of $1,00, $750 and, $500, plus an annual grand prize of $5,000. They accept submissions of science fiction, fantasy, and dark fantasy. The word limit is 17,000 words. It is not open to professionally published writers. Learn more here.
  4. The Amy Lowell Traveling Poet Scholarship offers $54,000 to the winning writer. Upon acceptance of the prize, the writer is required to travel outside the United States for the entire year. The entry deadline is October 15th. Learn morehere. (bc why the fuck not)
  5. New York Encounter is sponsoring a poetry contest on the theme “Reality as Never Betrayed Me.”  The theme is inspired by Pope Benedict’s claim that “the intelligence of faith has to become the intelligence of reality.” The prizes are $300, $200, and $100. The deadline is November 1st, 2016. Learn more here. Somehow got 4 sonnets subbed to this thing under the wire too. WHOA.
  6. Drake University is hosting a $500 essay contest on the topic of “change and changes.” Essays are limited to 3,500 words. The winner will be brought to Drake University to read from the winning essay. Learn more here. NOV 21 MIDNITE DUE (so... 11:59p on Nov 20th or 21st???)
  7. The James Hurst Fiction Prize is open to residents of North Carolina. They offer a $500 prize for a max 5,000 word short story, and a $250 prize for a max 1,200 word short story.  The deadline is October 11th. Learn more here.
  8. The Binge Watching Cure, by Dec 31, a forthcoming anthology to be published in 2017, is currently seeking submissions of short stories. They pay $200 for short stories under 5,000 words, and $500 for stories that are longer. http://bingewatchingcure.com/submissions/

    SENT 8000, maybe send a small one or 2 b4 December (as me too)

    They want stories of nearly every length, from 100 words, to 25,000 words.
  9. https://www.freedomwithwriting.com/freedom/uncategorized/the-binge-watching-cure-500-for-short-stories/
  10. more links to sort later: https://www.freedomwithwriting.com/freedom/uncategorized/11-short-story-publishers-that-pay-200-per-short-story/, https://www.freedomwithwriting.com/freedom/uncategorized/2000-feminist-writing-fellowships-from-bitch-media/, http://www.aerogrammestudio.com/, http://www.freedomwithwriting.com/freedom/uncategorized/300-for-essays-about-modern-love/ , https://writeon-community.amazon.com/community/thread.jspa?threadID=6656&tstart=30 , https://writeon-community.amazon.com/community/thread.jspa?messageID=71355&tstart=0 , 
  11. Mountain West Writers’ Contest NOV 18 Western Humanities Review invites writers currently living in Arizona, Colorado, Idaho, Montana, Nevada, New Mexico, Utah, or Wyoming to submit to our 2016 contest. Prizes will be awarded in poetry and prose. Winners will receive cash awards of $500 and publication in the Winter 2017 issue of Western Humanities Review. All entrants will receive one copy of the prize issue.



Per NC thing: DUE MONDAY



Here are the CATEGORIES you may enter:

  1. An unpublished SHORT STORY of no more than 20 double-spaced pages; limit 5000 words. The James Hurst Fiction Prize for the winning story is $500. There will also be some Honorable Mention awards.
  2. A unpublished SHORT-SHORT FICTION story of no more than 5 double-spaced typed pages; limit 1200 words. Top prize $250.
You may enter one story in each of the two categories.

Here are the RULES:

  1. The contest is open to all North Carolina residents except 
    1. tenured/tenure-track professors in the University of North Carolina system; 
    2. writers with a published book;
    3. previous winners.
  2. Your entry may not have been published in either printed form or online.
  3. All entries must be double-spaced and typed
  4. Include a word count on the first page. 
  5. Do NOT put your name on the story, so it may be judged anonymously. Put your name, email address and phone number on a separate cover sheet.
  6. Previous finalists should submit new work.
  7. No email submissions acceptedDue to volume, we cannot contact each contestant or return stories afterwards.

DEADLINE OCTOBER 11th, 2016
(the day after Columbus Day...)

Contestants should submit their entries to:

NCSU Short Story Contest
Campus Box 8105
English Department
NC State University
Raleigh, NC 27695-8105

ready, just need to mail

Per Travel Poem thing DUE MONDAY

ready, just need to mail

mail to APPLICATION FOR AMY LOWELL POETRY TRAVELLING SCHOLARSHIP To: Thomas H.P. Whitney and William A. Lowell Trustees under the Will of Amy Lowell Choate, Hall & Stewart, LLP 2 International Place Boston, MA 02110

2 copies poems up to 40 pgs

Wood art + sonnets

http://www.amylowell.org/faq.htm


(from https://www.freedomwithwriting.com/freedom/uncategorized/17-free-writing-contests-with-cash-prizes/)

10/06 Grats & Stats

Grateful for


1. Walking in the morning again, something like 5 nights in a row! The only thing that makes it iffy is being unable to continue to do this if I can't manage to fall asleep by 10pm. For now I am liking the productivity boost
2. going to Hot Springs to see something; always fun
3. new fun realizations and things to think about
4. submission process happening
5. yesterday did 90% of all the things, and didnt get to the one thing in favour of other things done
6. still had moment to nip out to art studio
7. health
8. wealth (or at least roof over head/food)
9. love :)
10. fiverr progress though no obvious payoff yet


Things to do


Big Thing: don't know if Big Thing today. Going to Hot Spring to check on a lead which will takeup lots of afternoon

planning kitchari cleanse, 3 days or more of kitchari rice and beans meal, so made big pot today, will make more as it becomes necessary. No coffee will be :( but it must be done

i may transition after this to master cleanse again (10 days, the whole thing). I just really think it's time for that again

make kitchari
bills
DL
sub things to mags (at least one and prep 4, or do 5, at some pt need to make organized excel or sthg)
share photos of book with mom
hot springs
clean email inbox
TF entry


IF TIME: video finish, art o/s, new fiverr gig, start sub excel, find JH Dkos teacher entry