tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-44113734002598780922024-03-05T11:22:39.791-08:00Daily Gratitudes and Other ThingsAlicia Chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06768830482405879216noreply@blogger.comBlogger80125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4411373400259878092.post-70534389570398876172020-01-16T19:08:00.000-08:002020-01-21T20:14:45.962-08:00Data Clean upMust finally...........<br />
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General<br />
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<ol>
<li><span style="background-color: yellow;">what will go where? list of projects/interests</span></li>
<li>what is ASUS for & what to leave on there?</li>
<li>what is Mac for & what to leave on there?</li>
<li>can Big Mac be salvaged or just to use as overglorified HD?</li>
<li>where to duplicate/back up the back ups?</li>
<li>Clean out Google Drive</li>
<li>Google accounts/passwords</li>
<li>Clean Out Gmail (empty/archive on <span style="background-color: yellow;">HD somewhere)</span></li>
</ol>
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Chromebook -<br />
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<ol>
<li>empty</li>
<li>some will not be emptied but put in folders (images that i know will be reused, maybe memes)</li>
<li>put all a/v into thumb audio drive</li>
</ol>
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Asus<br />
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<ol>
<li>org 'random images' folders into photos</li>
<li>eliminate all dupes of all things (esp off thumb drives and across computers)</li>
<li>move stuff onto My Computer HD (MCHD)</li>
<li>move stuff off blue & silver thumb drives to MCHD or Asus <span style="background-color: cyan;">WHERE THE MUSIC OFF SILVER DRIVE?</span></li>
<li>a workable MA folder with relevant stuff on Asus & rest on MCDH (incl recent audios, pics, etc)</li>
<li>a workable Azule folder with only 2019 on it (rest in MCHD or other) </li>
<li>a workable AA Arts folder</li>
<li>dropbox clean</li>
<li>run some sort of cclean/defrag</li>
</ol>
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Big Mac</div>
<div>
<ol>
<li>needs new OS</li>
<li>can we install software ever???</li>
<li>music/old iPod can talk to this?</li>
</ol>
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Other Mac</div>
</div>
<div>
<ol>
<li>Azule photos process on there (iPhoto)</li>
<li><span style="background-color: yellow;">what else here? </span></li>
</ol>
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Toshiba</div>
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<ol>
<li>get rid of all files i want to keep</li>
<li>do the defrag/wipe thing</li>
<li>clean factory reset</li>
<li><span style="background-color: yellow;">sell or?</span></li>
<li>weird red HD - is that a thing?</li>
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TBC...........</div>
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Alicia Chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06768830482405879216noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4411373400259878092.post-22741269125057444072019-06-16T09:35:00.001-07:002019-06-17T23:13:34.824-07:00reviving thistoday Sunday:<br />
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<strike>- food for that thing (potatoes)</strike><br />
<strike>- go to that thing</strike><br />
<strike>- find that info (if avail.)</strike> was NOT avail<br />
- Job: newsletter<br />
<strike>- Job: cleanup list </strike>in process<br />
- Job: enter email addresses<br />
- Job: sort stuff<br />
<strike>- Amazon app thing</strike><br />
<strike>- receipts</strike><br />
<strike>- music (?) write about; practice</strike><br />
<strike>- min clean-up:</strike><br />
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<ul>
<li><strike>kitchen</strike></li>
<li><strike>couch</strike></li>
<li><strike>clothes</strike></li>
<li><strike>etc</strike></li>
<li><strike>BONUS: swept floor</strike></li>
<li><strike>bed</strike></li>
</ul>
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Monday:</div>
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Job: newsletter<br />
- Job: cleanup list<br />
- Job: enter email addresses<br />
<strike>- Job: sort stuff</strike> cust svc thing<br />
- draft letter to wild goose<br />
- <strike>bake</strike><br />
<strike>- make art</strike><br />
<strike>- min clean-up:</strike><br />
<br />
<ul>
<li><strike>kitchen</strike></li>
<li><strike>couch</strike></li>
<li><strike>clothes</strike></li>
<li><strike>etc</strike></li>
<li><strike>BONUS: swept floor , kitchen table</strike></li>
<li><strike>bed</strike></li>
</ul>
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Alicia Chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06768830482405879216noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4411373400259878092.post-24486966567891614462019-04-03T05:59:00.001-07:002019-04-12T21:51:51.853-07:00Week April 8th + weekly goals + monthly goals AprilTo get 'caught up':<br />
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-<strike> 25min wtg sub process (either wtg or sub calendar)</strike> <br />
<strike>- 52 week project 1hr++</strike><br />
<strike>- MA newsletter 25min</strike><br />
-<strike> chores</strike><br />
- family mtg<br />
- mouse trap<br />
<br />
Other things:<br />
- psy rdgs<br />
- law thing<br />
- online sales<br />
- Trailfest donations<br />
- revive TF<br />
- 2018 income/outgo spreadsheet<br />
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<br />
Weekly Goals March 17 week -<br />
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<ul style="line-height: 1.4; margin: 0.5em 0px; padding: 0px 2.5em;">
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>52 weeks item: PR opps gather data AND contact (so both since didn't do last week + </strike>contact Hot Springs Spa chick re thing and go talk to Karen M.</li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">chore lists </li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish 2 woods </li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">post 25 things online (ebay, amazon, etc) !!! </li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"> training (PHP, Joomla, routers, networking, VPN's)</li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"> computer general reading </li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish one book (or 1/2 a big one) !!!</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><span style="background-color: white;"><strike>sub one wtg </strike> - Opossum</span></li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>view next deadline :</strike></li>
</ul>
<ol>
<li><span style="background-color: white;">1. FLASH fri by 15th!! </span><span style="background-color: white;"><a href="https://tinhouseonline.submittable.com/submit/45869/flash-fridays-fiction1500-words-or-fewer">https://tinhouseonline.submittable.com/submit/45869/flash-fridays-fiction1500-words-or-fewer</a>'' </span></li>
<li><span style="background-color: white;">2. pitch to buzzfeed </span><a href="https://www.buzzfeednews.com/article/rachelysanders/how-to-pitch-essays-to-buzzfeed-reader#.uyPZ4Loqj">https://www.buzzfeednews.com/article/rachelysanders/how-to-pitch-essays-to-buzzfeed-reader#.uyPZ4Loqj</a><span style="background-color: white;"> wrote it</span></li>
<li><span style="background-color: white;">3. (also women's thing: https://www.bitchmedia.org/writers-guidelines)</span></li>
<li><span style="background-color: white;"><a href="https://boulevardmagazine.org/guidelines">https://boulevardmagazine.org/guidelines</a></span></li>
<li><a href="https://westbranchsubmissions.bucknell.edu/">https://westbranchsubmissions.bucknell.edu/</a></li>
<li><a href="https://thefiddlehead.ca/submit">https://thefiddlehead.ca/submit</a> THRU APR 30</li>
</ol>
<ul style="line-height: 1.4; margin: 0.5em 0px; padding: 0px 2.5em;">
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">go to one event/party </li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><span style="background-color: white;">meet one new person (convo) </span><span style="background-color: white;"> </span></li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><span style="background-color: white;">family mtg </span></li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><span style="background-color: white;">radio show</span></li>
</ul>
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<div style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: small;">
Monthly goals March - </div>
<div style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: small;">
<ul style="line-height: 1.4; margin: 0.5em 0px; padding: 0px 2.5em;">
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">clean/clear one area (take to Goodwill, massive clean, throw out trash - can be living room, office, back office, bedroom, etc back room</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">send MA newsletter - </li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">Azule newsletter <strike>grant</strike></li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish one piece well of music</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">review emails and populate pub calendar and upcoming deadlines</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">host an event/party (even if just casual/few ppl) </li>
</ul>
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<div>
<div>
<b>Failing in:</b></div>
<div>
<b>AA:</b></div>
<div>
- reading books</div>
<div>
- post online sales</div>
<div>
- learinign/playing music</div>
<div>
- consistent chores list</div>
</div>
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Alicia Chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06768830482405879216noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4411373400259878092.post-53201382089462487602019-03-25T11:26:00.001-07:002019-03-29T20:24:54.313-07:00Weekly March 24 + Weekly + March MOnthly goals<br />
Monday<br />
<strike><br /></strike>
<strike>- appt</strike><br />
<strike>- water</strike><br />
<strike>- mini lit</strike><br />
- AZULE 1 hr (newsletter, rez re home)<br />
<strike>- Azule FB/insta</strike><br />
<strike>- veg juice</strike><br />
<strike>- wtg sub process 25 min</strike><br />
-<strike> altar v vases</strike><br />
<strike>- move cab to bathroom</strike><br />
-<strike> ext cord</strike><br />
<strike>- chores</strike><br />
-<strike> this thing</strike><br />
<strike>- email rebecca</strike><br />
<br />
Tuesday<br />
- AZULE newsletter 2 hr<br />
- 25min wtg sub process<br />
- 25min 52 week project<br />
<strike>- bring black cab inside</strike>/clean out papers inside<br />
<strike>- chores</strike><br />
<strike>- make food</strike><br />
<br />
Weds<br />
<strike>- bake</strike><br />
-<strike> see rez</strike><br />
<strike>- REbecca thing</strike><br />
<br />
Thurs<br />
<strike>- Wendy?</strike><br />
<strike>- newsleetter 1h</strike><br />
<strike>- CLEAN UP</strike><br />
<strike>- 5:30 rez/home</strike><br />
<strike>- <b>cc pmt/call to move pmt date 700 (634 = there + 60mmkt)</b></strike><br />
<strike>- cook</strike><br />
<strike>- 52 weeks PR proj</strike><br />
<strike>- Jim thing</strike><br />
<strike><br /></strike>
Friday<br />
<strike>- AZULE deal with video</strike><br />
<strike>- A newsletter 2 hr++</strike><br />
- 25min wtg sub process<br />
- 52 week project 1hr++<br />
- MA newsletter 25min<br />
- sub social anx thing<br />
<strike>- porch org</strike><br />
- chores/<strike>clothes</strike><br />
<br />
Sat<br />
- above<br />
- bro?<br />
<br />
Sun<br />
<b>- send newsletters (if nto done already)</b><br />
- family mtg<br />
- law link<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
(moved - porch clean up bc shoulder)<br />
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Weekly Goals March 17 week -<br />
<div style="color: #222222; font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: small;">
<ul style="line-height: 1.4; margin: 0.5em 0px; padding: 0px 2.5em;">
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">52 weeks item: PR opps gather data</li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">chore lists </li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish 2 woods </li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">post 25 things online (ebay, amazon, etc) !!! </li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"> training (PHP, Joomla, routers, networking, VPN's)</li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"> computer general reading </li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish one book (or 1/2 a big one) !!!</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><span style="background-color: white;">sub one wtg </span></li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>view next deadline </strike> Canthius http://www.canthius.com/submissions 3,500 words (social anxiety one? women/persons of colour/etc) "include a header on each page of your submission that states your name, address and email address"</li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">personal essay to these ppl <a href="https://www.freedomwithwriting.com/freedom/uncategorized/get-paid-to-write-personal-essays-for-buzzfeed/">https://www.freedomwithwriting.com/freedom/uncategorized/get-paid-to-write-personal-essays-for-buzzfeed/</a> (women's thing: https://www.bitchmedia.org/writers-guidelines)</li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>go to one event/party</strike> Rebecca </li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><span style="background-color: white;"><strike>meet one new person (convo) </strike></span><span style="background-color: white;"> rez, Gwen</span></li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><span style="background-color: white;">family mtg </span></li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><span style="background-color: white;">radio show</span></li>
</ul>
</div>
<div style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: small;">
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<div style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: small;">
Monthly goals March - </div>
<div style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: small;">
<ul style="line-height: 1.4; margin: 0.5em 0px; padding: 0px 2.5em;">
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">clean/clear one area (take to Goodwill, massive clean, throw out trash - can be living room, office, back office, bedroom, etc back room</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">send MA newsletter - </li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">Azule newsletter <strike>grant</strike></li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish one piece well of music</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">review emails and populate pub calendar and upcoming deadlines</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">host an event/party (even if just casual/few ppl) </li>
</ul>
<div>
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<div>
<b>Failing in:</b></div>
<div>
<b>AA:</b></div>
<div>
- reading books</div>
<div>
- post online sales</div>
<div>
- learinign/playing music</div>
<div>
- consistent chores list</div>
</div>
Alicia Chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06768830482405879216noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4411373400259878092.post-54589231702854033092019-03-17T21:28:00.000-07:002019-03-24T19:04:02.975-07:00Week March 17 + monthly March goals + family Meeting<br />
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<br />
Do Monday<br />
<strike>- JH Paperwork</strike><br />
<strike>lease copy</strike><br />
<strike>Azule annual income form</strike><br />
<strike>2018 summary bank statements (?) WF or 12 monthly statements</strike><br />
<strike>4 social security statements (sent in the email to Carla Smith)</strike><br />
- Azule:<br />
<strike>FB</strike><br />
<strike>Barbara thing + ask re tax ID #</strike><br />
<strike>Camille download</strike><br />
<strike>potluck newsletter</strike>/<strike>FB event</strike><br />
<strike>- acu</strike><br />
<br />
Tuesday<br />
<strike><br /></strike>
<strike>- Azule: write past rez (website), newsletter, current rez re Fri; Barbara thing 2h+</strike><br />
<strike>- clean up for reals, kitchen, couch, etc</strike><br />
<strike>- clothes put away</strike><br />
<strike>- veg cook, and other</strike><br />
<strike>- sub wtg (scum? June...) </strike>25 min+ scheduled June 3rd, boomerang<br />
<strike>- send emails re venues (project) 25 min+</strike><br />
<strike>- mini lit 25 in+</strike><br />
<strike>- radio show</strike><br />
<strike>- wood art 3hr+</strike><br />
<br />
Friday<br />
-<strike> Azule go</strike><br />
<strike>- Azule newsletter</strike><br />
<strike>- dat backup</strike><br />
<strike>- xfer $</strike><br />
<strike>- cancel subs</strike><br />
<strike>- redo radio show</strike><br />
<strike>- go to food</strike><br />
-<br />
Saturday<br />
<br />
<strike>- put food away</strike><br />
<strike>- make b bread</strike><br />
<strike>- make other dish</strike><br />
<strike>-<b> org back room more</b></strike><br />
<strike>- make salad</strike><br />
- pay HUECU & call to chg pmt<br />
-<strike> family mtg</strike><br />
<br />
<h3>
-<b> family mtg:</b></h3>
<b><br /></b>
JH:<br />
<br />
- finish Mod Love<br />
- Identity essay<br />
<strike>- faith bad faith Irish pub</strike><br />
<strike>- novel in progress reject shenandoah</strike><br />
- wood art<br />
- radio show<br />
- get in black file cabinet/go thru papers<br />
<br />
AA:<br />
<strike>- MOnday nite: WART radio compose email </strike> he will be in contact in April sometime<br />
<strike>- Tuesday nite: Alt ROOTS thing <b>deadline Feb 15 https://alternateroots.org/roots-week-2019-call-for-proposals/ </b></strike><br />
-<strike> $ thing 2019</strike><br />
<strike>- cc transfers one left?</strike><br />
- Azule newsletter<br />
- ask Wnedy for ID of person: Comm Conv re 5G (Wendy) <b>APR 3 mtg</b><br />
-<strike> for AA: immigrant writers grant <span style="background-color: yellow;">https://restlessbooks.org/prize-for-new-immigrant-writing IS THIS still a thing?</span></strike><br />
<span style="background-color: white;">- LAWSUIT: look at complaint, take out all text and put categories </span>https://www.zerohedge.com/news/2018-10-22/paid-protest-firm-crowds-demand-sued-23-million-extortion-plot<br />
put every heading in order, if there's some heading that makes no sense look at the text and see what it means<br />
- wood art<br />
- 52 week thing: <b>gather art media etc PR contacts</b><br />
<br />
Future Goals<br />
<br />
<strike>- send J bro thing</strike><br />
<strike>- after black mtn: set up a blog talk schedule/program Solidarity channel </strike>THursday 11pm 30m<br />
<strike>- for AA: immigrant writers grant <span style="background-color: yellow;">https://restlessbooks.org/prize-for-new-immigrant-writing</span></strike><br />
<strike><b>-</b> pests kitchen</strike> addresed<br />
- $ thing for 2018<br />
<br />
- talk with Gentrys re ?<br />
- JH lawsuit end of FEb<br />
<strike>- print feral mtn</strike><br />
- JH license; <strike>car tag</strike> (May)<br />
- finish one of following by J birthday (May 24):<br />
1) lawsuit<br />
2) <i style="font-weight: bold;">serious</i> Russian analysis historical perspective book proposal (IE - pitch to Haymarket Review re CJR story historical perspective on Russiagate)<br />
3) <i style="font-weight: bold;"> serious </i>novel query somewhere<br />
4) a real grant/funding strategy<br />
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(b bread: 2 bananas 2 cups zucc .5 cup sugar .5 cup fruit salad mashed .5 cup aquafava .5 cup alm milk 4 cups flour 2 Tbs bak powder 1 tsp cinn also based on this recipe https://lovingitvegan.com/vegan-zucchini-bread/)<br />
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Weekly Goals March 17 week -<br />
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<ul style="line-height: 1.4; margin: 0.5em 0px; padding: 0px 2.5em;">
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>52 weeks item: art sales contact opps</strike></li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>chore lists complete </strike>aybe; haven't kept track BUT have cleaned</li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>finish 2 woods </strike> </li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">post 25 things online (ebay, amazon, etc) !!! </li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"> training (PHP, Joomla, routers, networking, VPN's)</li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"> <strike>computer general reading </strike></li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish one book (or 1/2 a big one) !!!</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><span style="background-color: white;"><strike>sub one wtg </strike></span></li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>view next deadline </strike> personal essay to these ppl <a href="https://www.freedomwithwriting.com/freedom/uncategorized/get-paid-to-write-personal-essays-for-buzzfeed/">https://www.freedomwithwriting.com/freedom/uncategorized/get-paid-to-write-personal-essays-for-buzzfeed/</a> (women's thing: https://www.bitchmedia.org/writers-guidelines or SCUM;;Ocean = <a href="https://www.authorspublish.com/scum-now-seeking-submissions/">https://www.authorspublish.com/scum-now-seeking-submissions/</a> SCUM - also <a href="https://www.100daysinappalachia.com/2017/01/18/100-days-appalachia-call-pitches/">https://www.100daysinappalachia.com/2017/01/18/100-days-appalachia-call-pitches/</a>)</li>
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<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">Azule newsletter <strike>grant</strike></li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish one piece well of music</li>
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Alicia Chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06768830482405879216noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4411373400259878092.post-70824739905740790372019-03-12T20:00:00.002-07:002019-03-17T21:24:47.309-07:00Week of March 11 + Monthly March goalsWeekly Goals March 11 week -<br />
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<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>chore lists complete </strike></li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>finish 2 woods </strike> </li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">post 25 things online (ebay, amazon, etc) !!! </li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"> training (PHP, Joomla, routers, networking, VPN's)</li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"> computer general reading </li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish one book (or 1/2 a big one) !!!</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><span style="background-color: white;"><strike>sub one wtg </strike> Lung Meridian to Sun</span></li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>view next deadline </strike> personal essay to these ppl <a href="https://www.freedomwithwriting.com/freedom/uncategorized/get-paid-to-write-personal-essays-for-buzzfeed/">https://www.freedomwithwriting.com/freedom/uncategorized/get-paid-to-write-personal-essays-for-buzzfeed/</a> (women's thing: https://www.bitchmedia.org/writers-guidelines or SCUM;;Ocean = <a href="https://www.authorspublish.com/scum-now-seeking-submissions/">https://www.authorspublish.com/scum-now-seeking-submissions/</a> SCUM - also <a href="https://www.100daysinappalachia.com/2017/01/18/100-days-appalachia-call-pitches/">https://www.100daysinappalachia.com/2017/01/18/100-days-appalachia-call-pitches/</a>)</li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>go to one event/party</strike> Biltmore, music</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><span style="background-color: white;"><strike>meet one new person (convo) </strike></span><span style="background-color: white;"> Flow Gallery</span></li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><span style="background-color: white;">f<strike>amily mtg</strike> helped J wih stuff</span></li>
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<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">clean/clear one area (take to Goodwill, massive clean, throw out trash - can be living room, office, back office, bedroom, etc back room</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">send MA newsletter - </li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">Azule newsletter <strike>grant</strike></li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish one piece well of music</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">review emails and populate pub calendar and upcoming deadlines</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">host an event/party (even if just casual/few ppl) </li>
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Alicia Chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06768830482405879216noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4411373400259878092.post-47013832839565232332019-03-10T19:38:00.002-07:002019-04-11T06:38:24.157-07:0052 weeks 1st update<br />
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Done shockingly well. Hoping to keep forth efforts.</div>
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Was scheduled this week to evaluate efforts and, so far, efforts are good.</div>
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One thing that I had wondered at this stage is housing permanence. Basically, 'no news is good news.' So we will proceed</div>
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As well Jim surgery on Apr 18th, so that was taken into account</div>
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Some cleaning-type things were moved around</div>
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Pest problem was never truly solved because it required investments I didn't feel I had. As soon as that's resolved I get to it.</div>
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Other than that, moving forward, I see this as good. I may have another review end of Spring (I should put that in)</div>
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here I put things that would be good that were left out of original fit, but integrated below (after completing: only things didn't find a home for was writing process things. That's because writing and sub is supposed to be weekly and ongoing and so far have managed to pursue/complete that even within this framework)</div>
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<strike>- get bug stuff</strike></div>
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<strike>- org spare room</strike></div>
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<strike>- <b>pay off cc - </b> a big Fail, the book AMazon method was failing. This has been the only dissappointment this year. I believed Amazon would be more useful than it's ended up being. Maybe add as a weekly item to fix that/establish systems for it. </strike></div>
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- proper writing calendar/schedule of submitted/to submit (submittable and beyond), things I want to write TO, & things I want to write about</div>
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- write-a-thon (IE fulfill above AMAP for a week)<br />
<strike>- redo password stupidity (overhaul, redo, store, etc)</strike></div>
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<strike style="background: transparent; border: 0px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">1. clean, unclutter, reorganize front porch so it looks somewhat less ghetto</strike></div>
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<strike style="background: transparent; border: 0px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">2. really organize and sort thru paperwork, find it a new home and put the important ones in a rational, searchable place (medic and inheritance ones)</strike></div>
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<strike>3. get real system for selling the stuff online going (including where to store)</strike></div>
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<strike>4. finish really old box of receipts (or did I already do that???? if so, freebie :D)</strike></div>
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<strike>5. reinvigorate various art promo newsletters etc campaigns for our wood art (including plan for making it sustainable) - what's needed here is a tutorial on best way to mailchimp</strike></div>
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6. eliminate <span style="color: red;">kitchen pests</span> part 1 (mice) FEB 3</div>
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<strike>7. go thru clothes conveyances in bedroom, clean out, eliminate stuff, etc FEB 10</strike></div>
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8. eliminate <span style="color: red;">kitchen pests</span> BUY THE SHIT!!! FEB17</div>
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<strike>9. serious clean/declutter my desk area (including better usage for storage and eliminate or fix nonworking printer) </strike> FEB 24</div>
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(march 3) NOTE: online sales going throughout</div>
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<strike>10. serious clean/declutter kitchen desk area (possibly eliminate? Have only one desk area WOULD be desirable)e</strike></div>
<strike><span style="background-color: white;">11. </span><span style="background-color: yellow;">EVALUATION</span><span style="background-color: white;">: how things have gone, how things look going fwd (including how life has gone or liable to go) by know I will know if in fact the rest of year doable </span><span style="background-color: white; color: red;"><b>3/10 </b></span></strike><br />
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<strike>12. come up with<a href="https://whyamisoblessed.blogspot.com/2019/03/art-sale-venues.html"> credible list of new art selling prospects</a> (venues, galleries, etc) <b style="color: red;">3/17</b></strike></div>
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<strike>13. actually contact the motherfuckers re item 11 <b style="color: red;">3/24</b></strike></div>
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<strike>14. scour art media and credible list of who to contact (press)</strike> <b style="color: red;">3/31 buy bug stuff</b></div>
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<span style="color: blue;">(apr 7) - NOTE: Poss begin art market at this time and other sale ventures</span></div>
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<strike>15. contact above folks (emails, press releases, etc)</strike> - also with the one bloke <span style="color: red;"><b>4/07</b></span></div>
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16. finally print promo materials Vistaprint etc (poss redesign) <span style="color: red;"><b>4/14 JH Surgery; Blk Mtn at most thru 4/30</b></span></div>
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17. follow up as needed items 13 and 15 <b style="color: red;">4/21</b></div>
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18. plan sthg credible for J & J b-day <b style="color: red;">4/28 Trailfest</b></div>
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<span style="color: blue;">(may 5) NOTE: poss have one or a couple yard sales</span></div>
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19. some sort of J birthday greeting/<b>redo cc payoff strategy (TF, Amazon, Ebay, list lots of stuff, start ebay, etc)</b> <span style="color: red;"><b>5/05</b></span></div>
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20. credible J birthday experience??/<b>continue above (do ebay thing)</b> <span style="color: red;"><b>5/12</b></span></div>
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21. credible J birthday experience??<b>/continue above (do Amazon more)</b> <b style="color: red;">5/19</b></div>
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22. org back bedroom/continue above <b style="color: red;">5/24 Beacon of Hope Yard Sale</b></div>
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<span style="color: blue;">(june 2) NOTE: supposedly have</span> <span style="color: red;">been having $ to pay off cc by now (FAIL)</span></div>
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23. semi aggressive sale push for remaining stuff <span style="color: red;"><b>6/2 yard sale?</b></span></div>
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24. cull stuff from in house (toss, give away, organise, etc PART 1 (INSIDE house: give furniture away) <span style="color: red;"><b>6/09</b></span></div>
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25. cull stuff from in house (toss, give away, organise, etc PART 2 (OUTSIDE house: porch; screened area: give furniture away; carport; in studio move their shit to small shed) <span style="color: red;"><b>6/16</b></span></div>
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26. <span style="background-color: yellow;">EVALUATION</span>: how things have gone, how things look going fwd (including how life has gone or liable to go): <span style="color: red;"><b>6/23</b></span></div>
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27. go thru boxes of papers in screened area PART 1 <span style="color: red;"><b>6/30</b></span></div>
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28. go thru boxes of papers in screened area PART 2 (success in both weeks is predicated on having laid hands on all boxes and seen contents and restored)</div>
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29. get rid of ALL THE CRAP that was not eliminated online or otherwise (a good trip to Goodwill)</div>
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30. revisit long-dead Patreon thing (hopefully grounds have been made already for something like a relaunch)</div>
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31. revisit and rephoto 93 paintings thing; see if any need touching up, fixing, etc</div>
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(aug 4) <span style="color: red;">NOTE: by now supposed to be saving $ in other account (FAIL)</span></div>
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32. some sort of nephew birthday greeting/<b>touch up paintings</b></div>
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33. begin remarketing/reintroducing 93 paintings thing</div>
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34. send postcard to last few patrons of 93 paintings (hilariously late)</div>
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35. some sort of bro birthday greeting/<b>final push </b><b>paintings</b></div>
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36. find or plan xmas/bday gifts</div>
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37. whatever wasn't finished in boxes of paper, or fix art shed, or culling, or any other in-house declutter processes (prob a home for papers that have probably ended up cluttering the art shed)</div>
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38. <span style="background-color: yellow;">EVALUATION</span>: how things have gone, how things look going fwd (including how life has gone or liable to go) </div>
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39. <b>passwords overhaul</b></div>
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40. follow up various art comm things (34, 17)</div>
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41. computery study PART 1 (prob network security shit, or poss PHP)</div>
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42. some sort of mum birthday greeting/computery study PART 2</div>
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43. computery study PART 3: some culmination/task</div>
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44. <b>new HD backup/Azule backup </b></div>
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45. computery study PART 4</div>
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46. some sort of niece birthday greeting/computery study PART 5</div>
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47. computery study PART 6: some culmination/task</div>
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48. plan sthg credible for my b-day</div>
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49. finish whatever gifts</div>
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50. send xmas cards!!!!!</div>
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51. do sthg credible re my b-day</div>
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52. <span style="background-color: yellow;">EVALUATION</span>: big evaluation re year</div>
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Saturnalia: Dec 29 - 31: do whatever the hell</div>
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seeking place and discount<br />
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- the BLOCK off Biltmore <a href="http://theblockoffbiltmore.com/index.php/about-tbob/mission-of-tbob/">http://theblockoffbiltmore.com/index.php/about-tbob/mission-of-tbob/</a><br />
- 1st Fridays off that one biz card - Silver Bird Gallery 144 Biltmore Ave Suite 1 Asheville NC 28801- 1st Fridays, "John"<br />
<strike>-<span style="background-color: yellow;"> wild goose festiva</span>l July 11</strike><br />
<strike> <a href="http://wildgoosefestival.org/">wildgoosefestival.org</a></strike> sent out initial inquiry<br />
<a href="https://www.facebook.com/jeff.clark.5623">Jeff Clark, </a>president/producer<br />
<a href="https://www.facebook.com/susie.prigmore.7">Susie Prigmore</a>, vendor co-coordinator<br />
<a href="https://www.facebook.com/john.prigmore">John Prigmore</a>, vendor co-coordinator (Food) <b style="background-color: yellow;">follow up</b><br />
Cody Burton, Operations & Programming Support<br />
-<strike><span style="background-color: yellow;"> <a href="http://www.frenchbroadriverfestival.com/">french broad festival</a> </span>May 3rd <a href="http://www.frenchbroadriverfestival.com/vending-contact-form/">http://www.frenchbroadriverfestival.com/vending-contact-form/</a></strike><br />
<strike>"</strike><span style="background-color: whitesmoke; color: #424242; font-family: "source sans pro"; font-size: 16px; text-decoration-line: line-through;">The festival, a benefit for </span><a href="https://www.americanwhitewater.org/" rel="noopener" style="background: rgb(245, 245, 245); box-sizing: border-box; color: #428bca; font-family: "source sans pro"; font-size: 16px; text-decoration-line: line-through;" target="_blank">American Whitewater</a><span style="background-color: whitesmoke; color: #424242; font-family: "source sans pro"; font-size: 16px; text-decoration-line: line-through;">, </span><a href="http://www.vernerearlylearning.org/" rel="noopener" style="background: rgb(245, 245, 245); box-sizing: border-box; color: #428bca; font-family: "source sans pro"; font-size: 16px; text-decoration-line: line-through;" target="_blank">The Verner Center for Early Learning </a><span style="background-color: whitesmoke; color: #424242; font-family: "source sans pro"; font-size: 16px; text-decoration-line: line-through;">and </span><a href="http://www.hsclc.org/" rel="noopener" style="background: rgb(245, 245, 245); box-sizing: border-box; color: #428bca; font-family: "source sans pro"; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0px; text-decoration-line: line-through;" target="_blank">Hot Springs Community Learning Center</a><strike>" - so who is in charge? Heather Hot Sp Spa </strike><span style="color: #333333; font-family: "ubuntu" , "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><strike style="background-color: #e0e0c3;">heather@nchotsprings.com </strike><span style="background-color: #e0e0c3;">sent email </span><b style="background-color: yellow;">follow up</b></span><br />
<span style="background-color: yellow;">- trailfest</span><br />
<span style="background-color: yellow;">- 5/24 beacon of hope yard sale</span><br />
- odditorium STARTS APR 27<br />
<a href="https://www.facebook.com/events/346704335922117/">https://www.facebook.com/events/346704335922117/</a><br />
- FLOW gallery flowmarshall.com 14 s main st marshall nc 28753 828 649 1686; talked to Pegi<br />
- Tara Singh (had once approached us at EF re selling soemhting somewhere singhstudio.art@gmail.com, 828 974 2321<br />
- Art Mob 'call for artists' April 6, 11 - 4p 124 4th av East H'ville 828 693 4545 artmobstudios.com<br />
<span style="background-color: yellow;">- Eco Depot Marketplace 2nd Saturday 408 Depot St RAD ecodepotmarketplace.com <b>GO THERE next time Jimbo does art (april 1?)</b></span><br />
<span style="background-color: yellow;">- cigar shop woman: <a href="https://www.facebook.com/bdragonfly">Beth Pedrotti</a> <span style="color: #5f6368; font-family: "roboto" , "robotodraft" , "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 12px; letter-spacing: 0.3px; white-space: nowrap;">tobaccoplus6@gmail.com </span><span style="color: #5f6368; font-family: "roboto" , "robotodraft" , "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 12px; letter-spacing: 0.3px; white-space: nowrap;">https://www.facebook.com/tobaccoplus6/ </span></span><span style="color: #1d2129; font-family: inherit; font-size: 12px;">6 Eagle Street </span></span><br />
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Other<br />
<span style="background-color: yellow;">-<strike> Asheville Gallery of Art ashevillegallery-of-art.com </strike>82 Patton Av 828 251 5796 April 15 framed</span> (Turner)<br />
<strike>- Brevard: Number 7 Arts 2 West Main St Brevard NC 828 883 2294</strike> number7arts.org has application info (pretty hopeless though)<br />
70 - 30 you put in 2 .5 days a month working behind counter $65 month lease 20th anniv 5:30p - 9p tomorrow<br />
-<strike> Seven Sisters Craft Gallery sevensistersgallery.com 828 669 5107 10 minutes</strike> bio photos selection 7 sisters gallery 117 cherry <span style="background-color: yellow;"><b>black mountain</b> nc Andrea McNair; show work</span><br />
- <strike>Miya Art Gallery W'ville - 20 N Main Weaverville 828 658 9655 </strike>miyagallery.nc@gmail.com 50 50 consignment<span style="background-color: yellow;"> send photos and CV to email</span><br />
-<strike> Firefly Craft Gallery Flat Rock 828 231 0764 </strike><br />
fireflycraftgallery@gmail.com <span style="background-color: yellow;">Karen email send photos and CV, etc</span><br />
<strike>- Fine Art & Gifts 124 4th Ave East H'ville 828 693 4545</strike> juried apr 6th 11 to 4p regiter leave artmobstudios.com prob. too posh<br />
<strike>- Momentum Gallery 24 N Lexington 828 505 8550 </strike>momentumgallery.com sub 5 images dimension <span style="background-color: yellow;">email@momentumgallery.com whitney; nice</span><br />
<strike>- Woolworth Walk.com 828 254 9234</strike> 25 haywood st bring in portfolio art stmt curating process month anytime AM M F Erin booth fee $45 - $300 19%<br />
<strike>- American Folk Art amerifolk.com 828 281 2134</strike> Morgan; another bitch<br />
<strike>- Blue Spiral 1 bluespiral1.com </strike>828-251-0202 ongoing gallery 2021 director/curator <span style="background-color: yellow;">http://bluespiral1.com/SlideSubmission.cfm</span><br />
- that place someone told us about near old Chinese restaurant/bus cafe???<br />
<strike>- wand earth thing https://www.facebook.com/events/268658730731749/</strike>Alicia Chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06768830482405879216noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4411373400259878092.post-43829189878549049422019-02-24T21:57:00.000-08:002019-03-12T20:01:31.165-07:00for Monday<strike>kitchen cleanup</strike><br />
<strike>Ford min pmt?</strike><br />
<strike>CC bollocks again</strike> tried, call tomorrow<br />
<strike>call re acupumcture re</strike>scheduled Mon 11:30am<br />
<strike>list weekend income spreadsheet</strike><br />
<strike>reach out to ppl met on Sat (mailchimp or otherwise)</strike><br />
Azule duties <strike>(go get stuff)</strike><br />
<b>write Duarte</b><br />
<strike>c - line?</strike><br />
<strike>52 week project: kitchen/study</strike><br />
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<b>Tuesday</b><br />
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<b>big things</b><br />
- Azule hard drive transfer - <strike>2017</strike>, 2018, get auction pics 2017 off other HD onto it as Nov 2017<br />
-<strike> Azule newsletter begin</strike><br />
<strike>- more progress cleaning desk area;</strike> <strike>kitchen table, take stuff to shed, </strike>stuff in living room, consolidate all stuff<br />
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<b>littler things</b><br />
<strike>- Creative Capital video</strike><br />
<strike>- bleach tub</strike><br />
<strike>- call re CC</strike><br />
- Duarte Email<br />
<strike>- write something short for sub</strike><br />
- State of Franklin? also at place<br />
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<b>Wednesday</b><br />
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<b>big things</b><br />
- Azule hard drive transfer - <strike>2017</strike>, <strike>2018, get auction pics 2017 off other HD onto it as Nov 2017, </strike>Feb 2019<br />
- Azule newsletter<br />
- more progress cleaning desk area; <strike>kitchen table, take stuff to shed, </strike>stuff in living room, consolidate all stuff<br />
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<b>littler things</b><br />
<strike>- TF questions</strike><br />
<strike>- TF pizza post (on phone)</strike><br />
<strike>- food prep</strike><br />
-<strike> Duarte Email</strike><br />
- 2nd edit Grat essay (form)<br />
- Art & Fear for radio<br />
- Calculate hours (4 hours past days)<br />
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<b>Thursday</b><br />
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<strike>- Azule hard drive transfer - Feb 2019</strike><br />
- Azule newsletter FINISH<br />
<b>- pay truck tag</b><br />
<strike>- 2nd edit Grat essay (form)</strike><br />
<strike>- Art & Fear for radio</strike><br />
- Calculate hours (4 hours past days) - TODAY: 1 or 2 hours (talk)<br />
<strike>- radio show</strike><br />
<strike>- Art & Fear for radio</strike><br />
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<b>upcoming</b><br />
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<b><strike>- radio show</strike></b><br />
<b><strike>- Gratitude essay DUE, plus one other writing, plus catch up sell stuff BUT must do Azule 1st</strike></b><br />
<b><strike>- dump (weds?)</strike></b><br />
<b><strike>- fill out CC form/email</strike></b><br />
<b>- update links on http://spindoctorjimbo.com/recent-writings/</b><br />
<b>- sub some other thing by Sunday</b><br />
<br />Alicia Chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06768830482405879216noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4411373400259878092.post-26800409657334751322019-02-20T08:13:00.000-08:002019-03-24T18:18:53.980-07:00This weds + family meeting<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg22k7aziTjdrCsV04zOz1D89C_n7Wlix0GyMZWohxn2qidljFAA4r3ML3uH_MTz0Xywat7A1bLJuC5DxsAdFMY3dNdC92OtbJus39-AXfSwn5au7CjBjz6pMbaKwt-bed6SIDeti9jKmw/s1600/Screenshot+%2528275%2529.png" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">Doing somewhat dopamine fast today. Just no food coffee smokes internet till Jim gets back. Possibly more. They of course with their needs from me sort of killed the 'no internet' thing but after making this list wll be gone. Just wanted to put ideas together.</span></a></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">52 week challenge actually sort of going along. Did epic well last week and the only catch up (pests) is just thhings I have to do in tandem with new week task.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">so for instance tis week transform desk area in living room + build a trap + deep cleaning kitchen + buy the stuff will count. It will be like 3 weeks in one. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">got behind in sales because hopeless. still, considering effort required of me, might as well carry on with that</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">writing caught up . Finish Grat thing (almost there) by end of week. And some dinky thing too</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">lost track of TF. Probably not best idea but still. Will try to do something with that. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><b>FAMILY MEETING:</b></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">TOMORROW(thurs):</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- check WF bank deposit</strike></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- call HUECU balcon??? Ford card</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- DVD, CD, for sale prepared, in car</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- radio show (prep book or continue Laing)</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- continue desk area clean</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- remove the anti water from car</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- gather the things to take; pack</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- old I.P.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- other steamer</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- 2 sprays for mom</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- 1 spray for Jimbo</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- sale stuff (CDs etc)</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- art stool</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- TV trays</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- chairs + poto pillow</span><br />
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JH:<br />
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<strike>- Harper's intention to finish by Sunday</strike> now is a novel!<br />
- <strike>Sub Times of London</strike> Cinci Rev instead<br />
-<strike> wood art</strike><br />
-<strike> JH look at Grat</strike><br />
<strike>- JH look at subway</strike><br />
- Feb 28 deadline speculative fiction working class grant<br />
- Creative Capital<br />
- one more sub<br />
- finish Mod Love<br />
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AA:<br />
<strike>- MOnday nite: WART radio compose email </strike> he will be in contact in April sometime<br />
<strike>- Tuesday nite: Alt ROOTS thing <b>deadline Feb 15 https://alternateroots.org/roots-week-2019-call-for-proposals/ </b></strike><br />
-<strike> $ thing 2019</strike><br />
<strike>- cc transfers</strike> one left?<br />
- Azule newsletter<br />
- for AA: immigrant writers grant <span style="background-color: yellow;">https://restlessbooks.org/prize-for-new-immigrant-writing IS THIS still a thing?</span><br />
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Future Goals<br />
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<strike>- send J bro thing</strike><br />
<strike>- after black mtn: set up a blog talk schedule/program Solidarity channel </strike>THursday 11pm 30m<br />
- for AA: immigrant writers grant <span style="background-color: yellow;">https://restlessbooks.org/prize-for-new-immigrant-writing</span><br />
<strike><b>-</b> pests kitchen</strike> addresed<br />
- $ thing for 2018<br />
- pitch to Haymarket Review re CJR story historical perspective on Russiagate<br />
-Comm Conv re 5G (Wendy)<br />
- talk with Gentrys re<br />
- JH lawsuit end of FEb<br />
- print feral mtn<br />
- JH license; car tag<br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- family meeting (in PM)</strike></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- build trap</strike></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- start cleaning out desk area (daily project)</strike></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">-<strike> clean 2nd desk area (put away paperwork)</strike></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- clean kitchen</strike></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- write/sub $20 thing (in PM)</strike></span><br />
<span style="color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- med.</strike></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- print feral mt </strike> sent but must do later</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- TF push </strike></span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">weekly:</span><br />
<div style="color: #222222; font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: small;">
<ul style="line-height: 1.4; margin: 0.5em 0px; padding: 0px 2.5em;">
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>52 weeks item: clean desk area + pests</strike></li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>chore lists complete </strike></li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>finish 3 woods </strike></li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">post 25 things online (ebay, amazon, etc) !!! </li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">4 hours training (PHP, Joomla, routers, networking, VPN's)</li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>2 hours computer general reading </strike></li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>finish one book (or 1/2 a big one) </strike>!!!</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><span style="background-color: white;"><strike>sub one wtg backlog;</strike> </span><span style="background-color: yellow;">must do Grat </span><span style="background-color: white;">+ 1 more</span></li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>view next deadline </strike> </li>
<li style="background-color: white; margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>go to one event/party </strike></li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike style="background-color: white;">meet one new person (convo) </strike><span style="background-color: white;"> many at event </span><span style="background-color: yellow;">THIS WEEK: camera guy</span></li>
</ul>
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Monthly goals Feb - </div>
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<ul style="line-height: 1.4; margin: 0.5em 0px; padding: 0px 2.5em;">
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>clean/clear one area (take to Goodwill, massive clean, throw out trash - can be living room, office, back office, bedroom, etc front porch </strike>kitchen/living room</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>send MA newsletter - </strike></li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>Azule newsletter </strike> </li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish one piece well of music</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">review emails and populate pub calendar and upcoming deadlines</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>host an event/party (even if just casual/few ppl)</strike> Camille came over</li>
</ul>
</div>
Alicia Chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06768830482405879216noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4411373400259878092.post-1644713821512891062019-02-12T23:49:00.002-08:002019-03-12T20:02:18.845-07:00for weds<strike>- Tuesday nite: Alt ROOTS thing <b>deadline Feb 15 https://alternateroots.org/roots-week-2019-call-for-proposals/</b></strike><br />
<strike>- $ thing 2018 did WF Jan</strike><br />
<b style="background-color: white;"><strike>- write past rez</strike></b><br />
<b style="background-color: white;"><strike>- clean up mailchimp (NOT MERGE LIST however)</strike></b><br />
<b style="background-color: white;"><strike>- update Feb hours</strike></b><br />
<b style="background-color: white;"><strike>- deal with computer backup problem (too many files; slow)</strike></b><br />
<b style="background-color: white;"><strike>- azule archive photos</strike></b><br />
<b style="background-color: white;"><strike>- upload videos (if above completed)</strike></b><br />
<b style="background-color: white;"><strike>- sub Sandwich thing (maybe one last edit)</strike></b><br />
<b style="background-color: white;"><strike>- look at Gratitude thing w new info</strike></b><br />
<strike><b style="background-color: white;">- start this: </b>http://contrarymagazine.com/submissions/ $20, short, 1000 or less </strike>two: house and family<br />
<strike>- sort clothes (finish?)</strike><br />
<strike>- bathroom clean</strike><br />
<strike>- music</strike><br />
<strike>- read</strike><br />
<strike>- new 2k or something memoir piece</strike><br />
<strike>-OPERS</strike><br />
<strike>- sub grat to 3P review</strike><br />
<strike>- sub sandwich to narratively</strike><br />
<br />
forgot this for last week, still wanna do it<br />
<br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">weekly:</span><br />
<div style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: small;">
<ul style="line-height: 1.4; margin: 0.5em 0px; padding: 0px 2.5em;">
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>52 weeks item: sort clothes + pests</strike></li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>chore lists complete </strike></li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>finish 3 woods </strike></li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">post 25 things online (ebay, amazon, etc) !!! </li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">4 hours training (PHP, Joomla, routers, networking, VPN's)</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">2 hours computer general reading 43/PC stuff</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish one book (or 1/2 a big one) !!!</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>sub one wtg backlog; must do 3 by Sunday</strike> 3P twice; narraively once</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>view next deadline </strike> </li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>go to one event/party</strike> DTell's on Fri</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>meet one new person (convo)</strike> chick @ artisun</li>
</ul>
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Monthly goals -</div>
<div style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: small;">
<ul style="line-height: 1.4; margin: 0.5em 0px; padding: 0px 2.5em;">
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>clean/clear one area (take to Goodwill, massive clean, throw out trash - can be living room, office, back office, bedroom, etc</strike> front porch</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>send MA newsletter - good start with novel videos</strike></li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">Azule newsletter and grant stuff</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish one piece well of music</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">review emails and populate pub calendar and upcoming deadlines</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>host an event/party (even if just casual/few ppl) </strike>JBerh and C - line came over (separately) and family</li>
</ul>
</div>
Alicia Chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06768830482405879216noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4411373400259878092.post-3156502031943190582019-02-10T22:33:00.001-08:002019-03-12T20:02:50.886-07:00Family MeetingJH:<br />
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- Harper's intention to finish by Sunday<br />
- Sub Times of London<br />
- wood art<br />
-<strike> JH look at Grat</strike><br />
<strike>- JH look at subway</strike><br />
- Feb 28 deadline speculative fiction working class grant<br />
<br />
AA<br />
<strike>- MOnday nite: WART radio compose email</strike><br />
<strike>- Tuesday nite: Alt ROOTS thing <b>deadline Feb 15 https://alternateroots.org/roots-week-2019-call-for-proposals/</b></strike><br />
<b>1. find gather images of words of art that apply to themes of </b><br />
<b>class conflict</b><br />
<b>working class power in context of imperialism</b><br />
<b>basis for class conflict</b><br />
<b>basis for lack of class power</b><br />
<b>bigger pic of world series of IEs of imperial power and working class oppression puts into perspective think globally act locally thing; art must be able to grapple with that so we want to provide insights into past instances of how soviet art or avant garde art or posters diego rivera </b><br />
<b>emails lou james about art + solidarity, etc - 20 </b><br />
<b>HOW ART CAN SUPPORT EMPOWERMENT OF WORKING PP WHEN IMPERIALISM IS RUNNING RAMPANT AND 60% of American nation budtet is death budget which does not leave much for culture consciousness solidarity etc after you take out hwy expenditures and military and nuke reactors vets hospitals educational programs that don't deal with empowerment and culture </b><br />
<b><br /></b>
<b>125 words</b><br />
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<b><br /></b>
- $ thing 2018<br />
- cc transfers<br />
<br />
<br />
Future Goals<br />
<br />
- send J bro thing<br />
<strike>- after black mtn: set up a blog talk schedule/program Solidarity channel </strike>THursday 11pm 30m<br />
- for AA: immigrant writers grant <span style="background-color: yellow;">https://restlessbooks.org/prize-for-new-immigrant-writing</span><br />
<b>-</b> pests kitchen<br />
<strike>- $ thing for 2018</strike><br />
- pitch to Haymarket Review re CJR story historical perspective on Russiagate<br />
-Comm Conv re 5G (Wendy)<br />
- talk with Gentrys re<br />
- JH lawsuit end of FEb<br />
<br />
<br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">weekly:</span><br />
<div style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: small;">
<ul style="line-height: 1.4; margin: 0.5em 0px; padding: 0px 2.5em;">
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">52 weeks item: real old receipts + analyze expenses</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">chore lists complete </li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish 3 woods </li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">post 25 things online (ebay, amazon, etc)</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">4 hours training (PHP, Joomla, routers, networking, VPN's)</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">2 hours computer general reading 43/PC stuff</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish one book (or 1/2 a big one)</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">sub one wtg </li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">view next deadline Gratitude/N Algren</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>go to one event/party</strike> thing today counts</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">meet one new person (convo) Physics kid</li>
</ul>
</div>
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Monthly goals -</div>
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<ul style="line-height: 1.4; margin: 0.5em 0px; padding: 0px 2.5em;">
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>clean/clear one area (take to Goodwill, massive clean, throw out trash - can be living room, office, back office, bedroom, etc</strike> front porch</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">send MA newsletter - good start with novel videos</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">Azule newsletter and grant stuff</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish one piece well of music</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">review emails and populate pub calendar and upcoming deadlines</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>host an event/party (even if just casual/few ppl) </strike>JBerh and C - line came over (separately) and family</li>
</ul>
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<b style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Vision </b><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">- reality-based</span><br />
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examples:</div>
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<ul>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">successful candidacy for grants</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">successful publication of a written product</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">belonging to a church or organization with a clear social nexus (IE Azule, church, wicca group, writing groups, etc) especially something with a focus (IE an astrology group if astrology is monetized)</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">AA income opps</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">a next level social and income opportunity in art production</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">100 Patreon patrons</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">a book contract</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">art showing up in the Times</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">relationship with a publisher house</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">get an agent</li>
</ul>
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<i>must solidify this more, get more specific workable visions and put im 2019 category</i></div>
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<b>Strategy</b></div>
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the roadmap or idea of how to get there</div>
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<i>must develop this further</i><br />
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<b>Goals </b>- can operate like vision</div>
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<i>need either an online or poster to list the weekly/monthly goals and then a way to check them off</i></div>
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Current deadlines -</div>
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<ul>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;"><strike>Gratitude essay</strike></li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;"><strike>Nelson Algren</strike></li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;"><strike>finish this thing here</strike></li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">create/finish sub calendar prob online</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;"><strike>xmas cards</strike></li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">Azule immediate stuff</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">TF questions catch up before end of month</li>
</ul>
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Daily goals - see Habitica</div>
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Weekly goals - every week do these things</div>
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AA </div>
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<ul>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">chore lists complete</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">finish 3 woods </li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">post 5 things online (ebay, amazon, etc)</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">4 hours training (PHP, Joomla, routers, networking, VPN's)</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">2 hours computer general reading</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">finish one book (or 1/2 a big one)</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">sub one wtg</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">view next deadline</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">go to one event/party</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">meet one new person (convo)</li>
</ul>
</div>
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<br /></div>
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Monthly goals -</div>
<div style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">
<ul>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">clean/clear one area (take to Goodwill, massive clean, throw out trash - can be living room, office, back office, bedroom, etc</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">send MA newsletter</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">Azule newsletter and grant stuff</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">finish one piece well of music</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">review emails and populate pub calendar and upcoming deadlines</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">host an event/party (even if just casual/few ppl)</li>
</ul>
</div>
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VISION for end of year 2019 -</div>
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JH: sell 3+ story projects/narratives in cultural marketplace (win story contest, Harper's, book pub, screenplay, etc)</div>
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- pub sthg in England</div>
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<b>Accountability </b>- </div>
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AA - Habitica</div>
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- daily schedule</div>
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- reward: fuck off</div>
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JH - ?</div>
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<b>Important Projects/Wants</b></div>
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AA </div>
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<ul>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">Azule</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">online sales</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">computer learning</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">read books</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">music (mainly practice)</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">writing for pub</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">social/networking (incl online)</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">help JH case by case basis</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">exercise/walks</li>
</ul>
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JH</div>
</div>
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<ul>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">lawsuit</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">sub to pubs</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">?</li>
</ul>
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JH + AA</div>
</div>
<div style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">
<ul>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">art prod</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">art sales</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">art promo </li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">grant seeking</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">Patreon seek </li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">Patreon populate</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">videos</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">affn</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">housekeeping (mostly AA)</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">$ mgmt (mostly AA)</li>
</ul>
</div>
</div>
</div>
Alicia Chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06768830482405879216noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4411373400259878092.post-44948108494761004852019-02-09T18:43:00.000-08:002019-02-13T18:33:14.650-08:00Weekendstuff I want to this weekend:<br />
<br />
<b>-<span style="background-color: yellow;"> Gratitude (by Sunday)\ finished, just need final edit/send (AFTER MONDAY 2/11/19)</span></b><br />
<span style="background-color: white;"><b>- another look-through</b></span><br />
<b><span style="background-color: yellow;"><br /></span></b>
<span style="background-color: yellow;"><b>- new thing to sub/write/send</b></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white;"><b><strike>- just for fun: betrayal thing</strike></b></span><br />
<strike><span style="background-color: white;"><b>-** write/sub a 1000k or less thing </b></span><b>http://threepennyreview.com/online_submissions/ </b></strike><span style="background-color: white; color: #4d4d4d; font-family: , sans-serif; font-size: 15px;"><strike>$400 per short story</strike></span><strike><span style="background-color: white; color: #4d4d4d; font-family: , sans-serif; font-size: 15px;"> ; </span><span style="background-color: white; color: #4d4d4d; font-family: , sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">before the end of June; </span><span style="background-color: white; color: #4d4d4d; font-family: , sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">under 4,000 words DO SUBWAY THING</span></strike><br />
<b>https://apublicspacedemo.submittable.com/submit/5248/fiction</b><br />
<a href="https://therushmag.submittable.com/submit" style="background-color: white; color: #333388; font-family: proxima-nova, sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">https://therushmag.submittable.com/submit</a><br />
http://www.workerswritejournal.com/ - Subway thing later in year after rejected elsewhere<br />
http://upstreet-mag.org/guidelines/ - maybe subway thing? DEADLINE MARCH<br />
http://contrarymagazine.com/submissions/ $20, short, DEADLINE MARCH<br />
https://thesunmagazine.submittable.com/submit/41131/sun-submissions - subway thing?<br />
https://www.newyorker.com/about/contact (because why TF not)<br />
* https://narratively.submittable.com/submit Many good; like Azule Photo Essay, random memoir, etc<br />
<span style="background-color: white;"><b>-<strike> find sub for next week </strike>($ thing? Masters Review)</b></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white;"><b>- regroup; see if on schedule/write schedule somewhere</b></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: yellow;"><b>- MA Newsletter (52 weeks task)</b></span><br />
<b style="background-color: white;"><strike>- regroup emails</strike></b><br />
<b style="background-color: white;"><strike>- add emails off lists, paper</strike></b><br />
<b style="background-color: white;"><strike> - send sthg (poll)</strike></b><br />
<b style="background-color: white;"><strike>- review tutorial</strike></b><br />
<strike>- add photos to MA of new art, etc</strike><br />
<strike>- write Laurel guy</strike><br />
<strike>- write tobacco lady</strike><br />
<span style="background-color: yellow;"><b><br /></b></span>
<span style="background-color: yellow;"><b>- Job things</b></span><br />
<b style="background-color: white;"><strike>- Job FB posts for week</strike> (incl recent vids)</b><br />
<b style="background-color: white;">- write past rez</b><br />
<b style="background-color: white;">- clean up mailchimp (NOT MERGE LIST however)</b><br />
<b><strike>-<span style="background-color: yellow;"> deal with Duarte thing</span></strike></b><br />
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<b><span style="background-color: yellow;">- housekeeping</span></b><br />
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<span style="background-color: yellow;"><b><br /></b></span>Alicia Chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06768830482405879216noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4411373400259878092.post-55879196691121507762019-01-30T13:32:00.001-08:002019-03-12T20:03:24.109-07:00Family MeetingPart of weekly process/progress meetings at household to make sure stuff is getting done<br />
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<strike>JH:</strike><br />
<strike>- money Stacey thing, posing</strike><br />
<strike>- Nelson Algren</strike><br />
<strike>- Gratitudes</strike><br />
- Harper's intention to finish by Sunday<br />
<strike>- write Marshall radio ppl</strike><br />
<strike>- sub to 3 penny review</strike><br />
<strike>- writing to Columbia Journalism Rev pitch</strike><br />
<strike>- write Brit contest re eligibility (Times of London) again</strike><br />
- wood art<br />
<b><strike>- Pay 2 bills w/Hvd one left</strike></b><br />
<b><strike>- meeting tomorrow with job</strike></b><br />
<strike>- set up Lou James email acct</strike><br />
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AA:<br />
<strike>- can i resub nelson algren? <b>till tomorrow</b></strike><br />
<strike><b>- Grove Park Inn qualify>>>????(emails) </b>15th or so of Feb https://thelaurelofasheville.com/arts/craft-arts/national-arts-crafts-conference-and-shows/</strike><br />
-<strike> <b>renew membership Alt ROOTS Hvd</b></strike><br />
<strike><b>- </b>check USAA balance</strike><br />
-<strike> communicate with NY ppl re outsider art program (or delegate, find contact) https://www.outsiderartfair.com/new-york</strike><br />
-<strike> finished 6 or 8 pieces,</strike> conflicted with other plans<br />
<strike>- demoed BlogTalk</strike><br />
<strike>- reached out to Marshall radio</strike><br />
<strike>- write him back radio person</strike><br />
<strike>- reach out to new rez</strike><br />
- <strike>get URL's for stuff listed on here (immigrant, Nelson Algren, working class, etc)</strike><br />
<strike>- 2015/16 updated </strike><br />
<strike>- $ template </strike><br />
<strike>- chores </strike>ongoing<br />
<strike>- weekly wthg TF</strike><br />
<strike>- all MA videos are on MA youtube</strike><br />
<b>-<span style="background-color: yellow;"><strike> Gratitude (by Sunday)\ finished, just need final edit/send (AFTER MONDAY 2/11/19)</strike></span></b><br />
<span style="background-color: yellow;"><b><strike>- new thing to sub/write/send</strike></b></span><br />
<span style="background-color: yellow;"><b>- Job things</b></span><br />
<span style="background-color: yellow;"><b>- Newsletter (52 weeks task) - send sthg; review tutorial</b></span><br />
<span style="background-color: yellow;"><b><strike>- deal with Duarte thing</strike></b></span><br />
<span style="background-color: yellow;"><b>- Job FB posts</b></span><br />
<strike>- send Duarte email</strike><br />
<b><strike>- sub job hours</strike></b><br />
- posting books online ongoing<br />
- PDF to mom<br />
- sub calendar<br />
- read book (Laing)<br />
- music<br />
<strike>- New Moon thang or other</strike><br />
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Future goals:<br />
- send J bro thing<br />
-<strike> after black mtn: set up a blog talk schedule/program Solidarity channel </strike>Thursays at 11pm30 minutes<br />
- Outline pitch about Marshall arts: an online pub pays 40 cents a word they want essays on topics and one is 'contemporary culture' and we are an expression so a profile about us; mutual process; <b>deadline: by 8th of February https://theoutline.com/about</b><br />
- for AA: immigrant writers grant https://restlessbooks.org/prize-for-new-immigrant-writing<br />
- proposal for program at Alt ROOTS <b>deadline Feb 15 https://alternateroots.org/roots-week-2019-call-for-proposals/</b><br />
<b>-</b> pests kitchen<br />
- $ thing for 2018<br />
- Feb 28 deadline speculative fiction working class grant<br />
- pitch to Haymarket Review re CJR story historical perspective on Russiagate<br />
-Comm Conv re 5G (Wendy)<br />
- talk with Gentrys re<br />
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<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">52 weeks item: real old receipts + analyze expenses</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">chore lists complete </li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish 3 woods </li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">post 25 things online (ebay, amazon, etc)</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">4 hours training (PHP, Joomla, routers, networking, VPN's)</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">2 hours computer general reading 43/PC stuff</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish one book (or 1/2 a big one)</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">sub one wtg </li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">view next deadline Gratitude/N Algren</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>go to one event/party</strike> thing today counts</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">meet one new person (convo) Physics kid</li>
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<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">send MA newsletter - good start with novel videos</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">Azule newsletter and grant stuff</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish one piece well of music</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">review emails and populate pub calendar and upcoming deadlines</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>host an event/party (even if just casual/few ppl) </strike>JBerh and C - line came over (separately) and family</li>
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<b style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Vision </b><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">- reality-based</span><br />
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<li style="margin-left: 15px;">successful candidacy for grants</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">successful publication of a written product</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">belonging to a church or organization with a clear social nexus (IE Azule, church, wicca group, writing groups, etc) especially something with a focus (IE an astrology group if astrology is monetized)</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">AA income opps</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">a next level social and income opportunity in art production</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">100 Patreon patrons</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">a book contract</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">art showing up in the Times</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">relationship with a publisher house</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">get an agent</li>
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<i>must solidify this more, get more specific workable visions and put im 2019 category</i></div>
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<b>Strategy</b></div>
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the roadmap or idea of how to get there</div>
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<i>must develop this further</i></div>
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<b>Goals </b>- can operate like vision</div>
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<i>need either an online or poster to list the weekly/monthly goals and then a way to check them off</i></div>
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Current deadlines -</div>
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<li style="margin-left: 15px;">Gratitude essay</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">Nelson Algren</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">finish this thing here</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">create/finish sub calendar prob online</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">xmas cards</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">Azule immediate stuff</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">TF questions catch up before end of month</li>
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Daily goals - see Habitica</div>
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Weekly goals - every week do these things</div>
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AA </div>
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<li style="margin-left: 15px;">chore lists complete</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">finish 3 woods </li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">post 5 things online (ebay, amazon, etc)</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">4 hours training (PHP, Joomla, routers, networking, VPN's)</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">2 hours computer general reading</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">finish one book (or 1/2 a big one)</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">sub one wtg</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">view next deadline</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">go to one event/party</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">meet one new person (convo)</li>
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<li style="margin-left: 15px;">clean/clear one area (take to Goodwill, massive clean, throw out trash - can be living room, office, back office, bedroom, etc</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">send MA newsletter</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">Azule newsletter and grant stuff</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">finish one piece well of music</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">review emails and populate pub calendar and upcoming deadlines</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">host an event/party (even if just casual/few ppl)</li>
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VISION for end of year 2019 -</div>
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JH: sell 3+ story projects/narratives in cultural marketplace (win story contest, Harper's, book pub, screenplay, etc)</div>
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- pub sthg in England</div>
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<b>Accountability </b>- </div>
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AA - Habitica</div>
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- daily schedule</div>
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- reward: fuck off</div>
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JH - ?</div>
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<b>Important Projects/Wants</b></div>
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AA </div>
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<li style="margin-left: 15px;">Azule</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">online sales</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">computer learning</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">read books</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">music (mainly practice)</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">writing for pub</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">social/networking (incl online)</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">help JH case by case basis</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">exercise/walks</li>
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JH</div>
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<li style="margin-left: 15px;">lawsuit</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">sub to pubs</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">?</li>
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JH + AA</div>
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<li style="margin-left: 15px;">art prod</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">art sales</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">art promo </li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">grant seeking</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">Patreon seek </li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">Patreon populate</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">videos</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">affn</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">housekeeping (mostly AA)</li>
<li style="margin-left: 15px;">$ mgmt (mostly AA)</li>
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Alicia Chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06768830482405879216noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4411373400259878092.post-30122641652914791542019-01-29T16:07:00.001-08:002019-01-29T16:07:28.894-08:00INteresting convo<br />
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How to deal with emotionally injured ppl</h2>
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what do you do with a person who's always feeling sorry for themselves, always processing some trauma or other, a still liable to cry and rend their garments about terrible stuff that happened to them 5 decades ago or more (literally)?<br /><br />In general WTF does a person like that WANT from you? From anyone? From the world? And what will deliver that?</div>
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I don't know. I have a friend who is a good person, but she gets onto these conversations where she talks about people and things that happened 40 years ago, or before she was even born. She'll get rolling, and talk for half an hour about something like some people in her family, but I DON"T CARE!!!<br /><br />It's hard to understand why she thinks I would want to talk that long about people who I've never met.<br /><br />When I used to talk to her on the phone, she would get into this thing of complaining about everyone. Her Mom, her husband, her husband's family, and would bulldoze over me and talk for an hour or more about complaints.<br /><br />After a while, I just quit calling her, and mostly I don't go see her anymore unless my husband is there too, because then we have different conversations.<br /><br />She seems unable to let go of the past too. She talks about sad things that happened, people who died, ex-boyfriends who were jerks, things her Mom said/did to her.<br /><br />It is exhausting.<br /><br />She almost never talks about the present. I imagine some of that is because she's not really doing anything with her life right now. I think she mostly sits in her house and doinks around on the computer, and watches the weather channel. I've tried to get her out of the house to go for walks or to see stuff in town, but she always has some reason why it won't interest her. I know she has a lot of anxiety, and is afraid of being away from home after dark (which comes early in the winter), or "being attacked by coyotes", or having someone break into her house (she is obsessed by the idea that people are going to break into her house).<br /><br />With your friend, I don't imagine there is much you can do to help. S/he is likely suffering from anxiety or PTSD or something, and it will take professional help and their own desire to change to overcome this pattern of thinking.<br /><br />You could TRY to get them out of that pattern by seeing if they want to go for a walk, or see a movie, or play cards or something like that. It might shake them out of their rut for a few minutes.<br /><br />You could ask them about some other interest of theirs, if they have one. People like talking about their interests.<br /><br />Try getting them into more of a group setting. Sometimes they contain their stories for awhile if a group of people does something like goes out for supper together. The dynamics are different.<br /><br />A person like that wants to feel better, and sometimes it's just a pattern of thinking that goes in a loop, over and over again because they don't know how to move on from those persistent thoughts. Like a song getting stuck in your head. They can also find a certain comfort in always being seen as a victim. It's easier than being responsible for themselves.<br /><br />Anyhow, the bigger thing to recognize, is that it isn't your responsibility to fix them. You can try suggesting therapy to this person (bet that won't go over well).<br /><br />You can see if changing the setting (like I said, going out together, or playing cards) will knock them off their loop for a while.<br /><br />Or, if it's possible, just disengage. I felt awful when I decided to spend less time around my friend, because she IS a good person. I had to consider myself too, though. I felt unseen and depressed after visiting with her, and instead, I've gotten myself involved in things that make me feel good about myself. I'm happier. I'm sorry she didn't want to change, but it seems to be what she needs. I don't have to stay there with her.</div>
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Speaking as someone who has BEEN that person, I can attest that pretty much everything Gottawonder says above is true. From my perspective I would also say that the negativity is largely a habit and not intended to depress others, but we may not be fluent in other ways of communicating. We may think this is all that we are.<br /><br />I would hate to lose a friend, though. I've lost many friends over the years, and quite probably this has been part of why. But if she hasn't yet lost you, then you would be doing her a favor by pointing out to her how tired you are of this kind of thing, and how you'd like to change the narrative precisely so that you do not become too burned out to see her any more. It would be a tremendous gift for her to have things spelled out like that, so she can see the potential consequences of this behavior.<br /><br />Then, if she slips into this kind of pattern again when both of you have agreed that it's not what you want to do, you can perhaps break into her awareness with some kind of agreed-upon signal. You might literally wave both hands in the air and say stop. You might use a key phrase like "let's try to lighten the mood a bit, shall we?" But she needs to know that if you do that it's a serious signal that you are approaching burnout and if she wants to keep you as a friend she needs to be respectful of your emotional boundaries and limitations.<br /><br />If she is receptive to these changes, it just might save your friendship. I'm sure you care about her, or you would not have come this far with her. But as Gottawonder said, your first responsibility is to yourself and if your friend won't honor your needs for emotional balance, then you must protect yourself by limiting or eliminating your exposure to her.</div>
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<a alt="gottawonder" data-user-id="1096" href="http://www.popclogs.com/user/1096/gottawonder/" style="background: transparent; border: 0px; color: #2484c6; font-size: 12.96px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-decoration-line: none; vertical-align: baseline;" title="gottawonder">@gottawonder</a><br />your friend is my friend, LOL< and also my aunt, and the scammy cousin we've stopped talking to, etc.<br /><br />that's a big idea there, about not having enough to do in her life that occupies those brain cells, and the habit thing. Engagement in something more interesting/meaningful in the present is probably a good idea<br /><br />the person I know redid her whole life last year, got divorce, etc and has not really replaced any of it with something great yet. Is just sort of renting a house living off retirement and seeing what's next.<br /><br />but I know that it is not just this transition thing but a big part of her personality structure to be thus<br /><br />"You can try suggesting therapy to this person (bet that won't go over well)." literally LOL when I read that. I so wish they would<br /><br /><br /><a alt="Crunchy" data-user-id="1028" href="http://www.popclogs.com/user/1028/crunchy/" style="background: transparent; border: 0px; color: #2484c6; font-size: 12.96px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-decoration-line: none; vertical-align: baseline;" title="Crunchy">@Crunchy</a> that's cool that you say you have been there before. So what was in it for you re that process? what were you looking for from others? And did you ever feel you got it and what did that look like? IE after the interaction was there a moment that you felt somehow cleansed or complete and what had happened to lead to that?<br /><br />like I really wanna know<br /><br />trying to look back in my life at the times I've ranted at ppl and really the only person is with my mom and sometimes J and it's because I'm angry/frustrated at a specific thing and then either it gets resolved or ranting allowed to release steam. Maybe it is the same though? And then what am I looking for when that happens.... I will try to notice next time it happens<br /><br />I wouldn't necesarily say I'm tired of it because I am able to disengage when the time is needed (IE when it all becomes 'too much') but I just want to know <b style="background: transparent; border: 0px; font-size: 12.96px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">what is expected of me</b>but mainly what is the purpose of the interaction. I certainly would hate to request of someone to stop just to please me if their need were not met, if that makes sense. THere is to me <b style="background: transparent; border: 0px; font-size: 12.96px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">an apparent real need</b> and I would love to know what it is and if it can be resolved<br /><br />IE you say you dont' go to those places so much anymore, what helped you lose the need to have that experience?</div>
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oh, wow. those are big questions and I'm not sure i have th answers. I would need to think about it some. Shame we're running out of time here. Maybe we could transfer the convo to Livejournal?</div>
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Sounds like a plan. But from my perspective, frequently what I wanted was just someone who cared enough to listen. I really didn’t know how negative I was until I wa healed enough that I could see it.</div>
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Tru dat.</div>
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that is an excellent idea I will put this there somehow (still have to figure out the most rational way of doing it)<br /><br />i think these questions are useful not just for wondering how to handle that in others but also in yourself IE I think about these interactins and then inev. i start to think about how I deal with my own negativity in terms of others and myself<br /><br />i think my deal is that when I was a kid I didn't have a lot of ppl whom I felt good enough to talk to about things and I begun journalling a lot to compensate so by now I'm someone who rarely talks about myself but do spend hours journalling when in that space (hence my recent goal re cut that out) so for me then I can't relate to "having someone who cared enough to listen" because that was somehow never on the table for me (from my perspective)</div>
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<a alt="nikogda" data-user-id="1853" href="http://www.popclogs.com/user/1853/nikogda/" style="background: transparent; border: 0px; color: #2484c6; font-size: 12.96px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-decoration-line: none; vertical-align: baseline;" title="nikogda">@nikogda</a> : I have gone through phases where I know I have ranted a lot, and been very negative, mostly in conversation with my husband.<br /><br />To some degree, I would agree with what others have said, is that I wanted attention, and someone who cared enough to listen.<br /><br />I also think I was depressed, and frustrated with my life, and felt powerless to change it.<br /><br />Everything can seem negative when stuff builds up, and there's nothing to look forward to, and it's easier to be negative because there's no reason to be positive.<br /><br />One thing that REALLY helped, and I am surprised at how much it helped, was the daily practice of gratitude. I don't know how you can pitch this to the negative people in your life, but taking time each day to be grateful does something to your brain. You reframe everything. You recognize that you ARE fortunate, that there are good things in your life, and that somehow starts to rewire how you view things.<br /><br />The other thing, is to start doing things that make you feel good. This isn't maybe something you can help others with. For me, doing pottery and riding at a barn where I have structure and there are other people around, has given me positive things to look forward to, and getting better at these things is good for my self-esteem. This is not easy to do when you feel like shit, but it's a way out.<br /><br />I think that if you WANT to just listen to people talk, and it isn't killing you inside to be exposed to that, then if you can do so with compassion, that is maybe filling some of those people's needs. It COULD also be seen as enabling them to continue being victims, if they go on being very negative without seeking improvement in their lives.<br /><br />To me, the only cure for this kind of negativity is to move out of the victim role, and start seeing how we often agree to live an unhappy life, usually by not setting good boundaries and allowing others to cause harm to us, or by not imposing boundaries on ourselves and allowing us to cause self harm. That's a bit of an oversimplification, but that's the idea. We have to accept that if we don't make decisions and boundaries when we aren't satisfied, then we are CHOOSING to stay in this negative position. Sometimes even acknowledging that what we are living with was a choice can feel better, because it shows us that we can act, or not act, and either one is a decision.<br /><br />Anyhow, good luck.</div>
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I think sometimes we rant, we are just talking through the problem. Other times, we are hoping to find a solution. Other times, we are hoping to just lay blame for our problems, and say "I'm so pissed off at what someone else is doing to me".<br /><br />This last one is where a person is refusing to take responsibility for their life. Even if their boss is an asshole, the person ranting doesn't want to be forced to make decisions like leaving that job, or re-training, or making a formal complaint. It's this form of negativity that is toxic, because this person needs to start being active in making decisions instead of being shit on by others.<br /><br />If the negativity is more like always talking about death, fear of death, or health stuff, then likely it is more like depression or anxiety.<br /><br />If it's just something like being upset about some short term drama, like someone cutting in line at Walmart, then it's just boredom and attention seeking.</div>
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Segue, segue, segue. When that fails, walk away.<br /><br />In my 30's I had to divest myself of people who spent too much time doing this. Literally. I culled. I left friendships and other relationships behind that felt, to me, to be only about other people "processing". As in, I had become the person to whom they vented, used as either motivational life coach (re my example, not because I give advice) or used as personal therapist, verbally and emotionally regurgitating all over me regularly. This occurred because I am a good listener, I don't tend to talk a lot myself thereby providing the perfect audience for people who do, and I am very accepting of who people are. Those kinds of relationships began to feel very one sided however, and I wasn't getting much out of them over time. They were not reciprocal, and they were exhausting. And frankly, they weren't much fun most of the time. I am a very nurturing person by nature, but no relationship grows when it is perpetually stuck in "nurture mode", if one person is doing more of the taking, and / or if your only role to another is any I mentioned above.</div>
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PS I also feel that you're dong a disservice to anyone with that propensity by being the person to whom they can continue to perpetuate that cycle. It's not healthy, for them, or the people they continually turn to to process, process and reprocess the SAME things over and over again. When a record gets stuck in a groove we go over, lift up the needle, move it forward, and place it back down in a smoother groove so it can play on................</div>
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<a alt="gottawonder" data-user-id="1096" href="http://www.popclogs.com/user/1096/gottawonder/" style="background: transparent; border: 0px; color: #2484c6; font-size: 12.96px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-decoration-line: none; vertical-align: baseline;" title="gottawonder">@gottawonder</a> so I bizarrely find myself in the place of writing an essay on gratitude for a writing contest and thinking I might directly want to quote this: "One thing that REALLY helped, and I am surprised at how much it helped, was the daily practice of gratitude. I don't know how you can pitch this to the negative people in your life, but taking time each day to be grateful does something to your brain. You reframe everything. You recognize that you ARE fortunate, that there are good things in your life, and that somehow starts to rewire how you view things." is that OK? Obvs I can't quote you as a person and would not use your username but that verbatim is fitting right in with my idea :D let me know<br /><br /><a alt="seasidebee" data-user-id="591" href="http://www.popclogs.com/user/591/seasidebee/" style="background: transparent; border: 0px; color: #2484c6; font-size: 12.96px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-decoration-line: none; vertical-align: baseline;" title="seasidebee">@seasidebee</a> I'm with you: "I am a good listener, I don't tend to talk a lot myself thereby providing the perfect audience for people who do, and I am very accepting of who people are." this is exactly why this happens to me as well. And I don't know about you, but it is for whatever reason not an emotional drain for me to bear that burden, most of the time. Often I find it interesting from a phenomenology perspective, grist for the creative muse or whatnot. There was only 2 times I very ruthlessly cut off relationships with ppl like this and it's because they were repaying my good nature with maliciousness. So yeah generally I can tolerate it.<br /><br />where I'm going with this question though is, what are ppl looking for with this? Is there an end in mind? Since it's a behaviour I don't quite understand but see often enough of I was looking for user perspectives, if you will. It would be helpful for me to discover what it is that people are seeking with this and the hope is that by discovering that, that can be facilitated so as to transform a toxic dynamic in them, or that failing, as you say, 'cull'.<br /><br />I do think it's valuable re setting the rules of engagement though. Like this person professes to wanting to heal her life or whatnot but seems to very easily forget and go back to that same old thing. But having ideas like<br /><br />1) set terms of engagement IE you are only allowed a 30 minute whinge cycle per visit and you agree that you are after healing your life<br />2) practice gratitude<br />3) stay busy with other stuff<br /><br />just for an example</div>
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THERES 27 minutes left of the website and my child isn't allowing me to give my attention to the internet ;) crap. This is good info Im sure</div>
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Alicia Chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06768830482405879216noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4411373400259878092.post-59993630391179333782019-01-26T00:18:00.001-08:002019-03-12T20:03:59.062-07:00Thursday<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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- found another absurd reality TV show https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=--e4EBCaYjY<br />
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- finished the newsletter! Yay! Just one small piece left<br />
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- good progress on $ thing (Though still not sure what's the pt)<br />
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- ate lots of veg and stomach felt better<br />
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- enthralling show to accompany $ ventures<br />
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<br />
Bootcamp<br />
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Friday<br />
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- <strike>finish $ analysis</strike> - did all of WF all of 2015 and 2016<br />
- <strike>chore list</strike><br />
<strike><br /></strike>
Saturday<br />
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JOBS:<br />
- send newsletter<br />
- send potluck email<br />
- send emails to 2 residents coming up<br />
<strike>- add videos to newsletter</strike><br />
- <span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">Gratitudes writing BIG PROJECT</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- read book (finish?)</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- finish $ analysis: do sums for '15 and '16</strike></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- post 10 books</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- start a wood (finish?)</strike></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- follow up radio show Marshall</strike></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- look up blog talk radio, etc</strike></span></div>
Alicia Chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06768830482405879216noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4411373400259878092.post-878940267879496292019-01-24T00:11:00.001-08:002019-03-12T20:04:15.505-07:00WednesdayFAILS (crossposting to PC just for kicks)<br />
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- tried 4 or 5 different internet hacks and failed at all but one. It was very frustrating<br />
- finished old-ass box of receipts. Took hours and the record was not complete - clearly I did not get all the $ that was spent in 2015 - 16. Plus who needs to know what was spent in 2015 - 16?? So am wondering if there was any pt to that whatsoever and whether I shoulda just burned the box of old receipts since the main idea was to declutter a bit. Yes get a handle on the $ but not if the record was clearly incomplete. Well, anyhow, what could be more Failesque than a possibly fatuous and time-murdering task that was either pointless or requires another 5+ hours to properly complete. Well, at least it gave me a good excuse to binge watch Breaking Bad while doing something 'productive'<br />
- sent email to local radio show re a radio show; not heard back. I suspect I was unclear in my communications.<br />
- failed to complete newsletter but got close<br />
- various YouTube fails. Unbelievable how long it takes to upload videos<br />
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Bootcamp<br />
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tomorrow<br />
<br />
<strike>- mail book</strike><br />
<strike>- upload Job videos</strike><br />
<strike>- finish newsletter (should only be 2 hrs tops)</strike><br />
<strike>- chore list</strike><br />
- Gratitudes writing<br />
- read book (finish?)<br />
- finish $ analysis with what's on hand (or more???) - WF thru May (start June & beyond)<br />
- post 10 books<br />
- start a wood (finish?)<br />
-<strike> fix our youtube so can post tarot video</strike><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">weekly:</span><br />
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<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">52 weeks item: real old receipts + analyze expenses</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">chore lists complete </li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish 3 woods </li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">post 25 things online (ebay, amazon, etc)</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">4 hours training (PHP, Joomla, routers, networking, VPN's)</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>2 hours computer general reading 43/PC stuff</strike></li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish one book (or 1/2 a big one)</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">sub one wtg </li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">view next deadline Gratitude/N Algren</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>go to one event/party</strike> thing today counts</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>meet one new person (convo) </strike>girl at cafe yesterday</li>
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<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>clean/clear one area (take to Goodwill, massive clean, throw out trash - can be living room, office, back office, bedroom, etc</strike> front porch</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">send MA newsletter - good start with novel videos</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">Azule newsletter and grant stuff</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish one piece well of music</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">review emails and populate pub calendar and upcoming deadlines</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>host an event/party (even if just casual/few ppl) </strike>JBerh and C - line came over (separately) and family</li>
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Alicia Chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06768830482405879216noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4411373400259878092.post-56483978104648233432019-01-21T22:54:00.003-08:002019-01-23T23:57:02.798-08:00TuesdayFAILS:<br />
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mainly failed to complete things off my list. Partly because overambitious again, partly because some things just took longer, partly bc video slows me down<br />
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so, ongoing video Fail<br />
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also, annoying Amazon fail which will not let me post DVD's for some ass reason. Oh well<br />
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an interesting J Fail: applhying to do some modelling for local artists. Tomorrow we go. Should be interesting<br />
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weekend failing to see J. Was not home.<br />
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Tuesday Bootcamp<br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">-<strike> post MA videos to youtube (posted 1/2 then it crapped out; continue rest before we leave) </strike></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- gratitude piece JH + AA </strike>cull 1000+ words</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- <strike>find sthg for me to sub in lieu of Nelson Algren (not feeling it) t</strike>his one https://www.chickensoup.com/story-submissions/possible-book-topics</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- remind</strike> J will apply to VIP Kids </span><br />
<span style="color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 13.2px;">- <strike>contact WART re radio spot </strike></span></span><strike style="color: #222222; font-family: arial, tahoma, helvetica, freesans, sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"> https://www.wartfm.org/contact wrote</strike><br />
<span style="color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 13.2px;">if I don't hear back, do this https://www.facebook.com/wartfmradio and/or this </span></span><span style="color: #2f2e2e; font-family: , , , sans-serif; font-size: 25px; font-weight: 700; text-align: center;">wartfm@gmail.com.</span><br />
<span style="color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- book (get halfway thru RD Laing at cafe tomorrow)</strike></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 13.2px;">- <strike>music (Rach)</strike></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- Job newsletter</strike> after posting videos, just another hour or so</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 13.2px;">- upload videos Job</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- Job facebook posts (at least a week)</strike></span></span><br />
<strike>- chore list Tuesday</strike><br />
<strike>- TF ?</strike><br />
<strike>- old receipts</strike><br />
<strike>-</strike> mail book<br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">weekly:</span><br />
<div style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: small;">
<ul style="line-height: 1.4; margin: 0.5em 0px; padding: 0px 2.5em;">
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">52 weeks item: real old receipts + analyze expenses</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">chore lists complete </li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish 3 woods </li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">post 25 things online (ebay, amazon, etc)</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">4 hours training (PHP, Joomla, routers, networking, VPN's)</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">2 hours computer general reading 43/PC stuff</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish one book (or 1/2 a big one)</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">sub one wtg </li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">view next deadline Gratitude/N Algren</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>go to one event/party</strike> thing today counts</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">meet one new person (convo) Physics kid</li>
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Monthly goals -</div>
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<ul style="line-height: 1.4; margin: 0.5em 0px; padding: 0px 2.5em;">
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>clean/clear one area (take to Goodwill, massive clean, throw out trash - can be living room, office, back office, bedroom, etc</strike> front porch</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">send MA newsletter - good start with novel videos</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">Azule newsletter and grant stuff</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish one piece well of music</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">review emails and populate pub calendar and upcoming deadlines</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>host an event/party (even if just casual/few ppl) </strike>JBerh and C - line came over (separately) and family</li>
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Alicia Chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06768830482405879216noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4411373400259878092.post-82905733507706499612019-01-20T22:52:00.002-08:002019-01-21T22:48:14.327-08:00Monday and end of Jan<table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="float: left; margin-right: 1em; text-align: left;"><tbody>
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Fails:<br />
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- made decision to go early video on Sat in spite of having told them I was going in PM; it was a good call because the roads froze up<br />
- inviting nice people to my home always feels like a Fail because my house sometimes not so nice, LOL. It worked out; I even had snacks<br />
- taking family up to jobs WAS risky because windy roads and they get carsick and overall risk, but also a good call; they really liked it<br />
- failed at whatever my original intention was on TOS but blessedly the weird kerfuffle that resulted made me quite unwilling to continue participating which is a BLESSING because it was a horrific vice<br />
- too much Netflix made me slow so.... that habitual fail. Still, managed to finish my list<br />
- failed to have a Sunday meeting but there's always tomorrow<br />
- weird tech fail of spending hours looking for photos that were actually on a different computer (duh)<br />
- other weird tech fail re having multiple drafts of a Blogger page open and odd data loss (NBD but still sort of annoying)<br />
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Monday Bootcamp<br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- cancel scribd</strike></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- <strike>job download videos etc ipod camera</strike></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- <strike>job start newsletter (1 hrs)</strike> - write up re skillshare</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">-<strike> MA newsletter/organize audio/video files </strike>did all ones on this computer, later can look at HD</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">(write about surgery, novel, art in process, poss Casey)</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- <strike>post MA videos to youtube</strike></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- gratitude piece JH + AA</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- N Algren JH and AA??</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- family meeting </strike> good: J will apply to VIP Kids and I will pursue audio/radio options</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- post 5 books + 5 DVD's Amazon</strike></span><br />
<span style="color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 13.2px;">- <strike>1 wood start</strike></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 13.2px;">- book (get halfway thru RD Laing)</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 13.2px;">- music (Rach)</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 13.2px;">- look at WART or Blog Talk Radio, etc.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 13.2px;">- <strike>chore list Monday (choose focus for week) </strike>Kitchen, in preparation for....</span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">weekly:</span><br />
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<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">52 weeks item: real old receipts + analyze expenses</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">chore lists complete </li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish 3 woods </li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">post 25 things online (ebay, amazon, etc)</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">4 hours training (PHP, Joomla, routers, networking, VPN's)</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">2 hours computer general reading 43/PC stuff</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish one book (or 1/2 a big one)</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">sub one wtg </li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">view next deadline Gratitude/N Algren</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>go to one event/party</strike> thing today counts</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">meet one new person (convo) Physics kid</li>
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<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>clean/clear one area (take to Goodwill, massive clean, throw out trash - can be living room, office, back office, bedroom, etc</strike> front porch</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">send MA newsletter - good start with novel videos</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">Azule newsletter and grant stuff</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish one piece well of music</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">review emails and populate pub calendar and upcoming deadlines</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>host an event/party (even if just casual/few ppl) </strike>JBerh and C - line came over (separately) and family</li>
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Alicia Chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06768830482405879216noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4411373400259878092.post-77201635188555604572019-01-19T20:46:00.000-08:002019-01-19T20:46:20.611-08:00Archive 'Be An Utter Failure' GoalThis was one of my fave goals over the years and am still endeavouring to pursue it<br />
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THE DAILY FAILS<br /><br />1. the funny bit re the house next door<br /><br />2. the inherent FAIL which is participating on that other site I waste so much time on (henceforth, TOS) but how I persist in it for no foggiest idea why - did manage to moderate though<br /><br />3. still committing to daily process/list though effort is a FAIL when you, you know, go to bed at 7am and other cray stuff<br /><br />4. THE NOVEL. EPIC FAIL. Trying to write a novel in a week (!!!) 60k words, and possibly fucking up the formatting at the last minute so they did not receive the final 2k words and the inherent hubris in submitting for a contest a first draft of a novel that was possibly incomplete. STill, we wrote the bugger, submitted it on deadline, and that's all that matters.<br /><br />5. the way the g - d word processor kept crashing and probably contributed to the submitting Fail<br /><br />6. just baited a literal sociopath on another site (TOS). Probalby not the best idea but could not be helped. So if I dissappear one day... you'll all know why</div>
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i utterly FAILED to go to bed early<br /><br />at first I thought by 10<br /><br />that was unreasonable so, midnite<br /><br />well, since i was still fucking around after 1, then I lost my window and it approaches 3, and... here we are<br /><br />at least I DID get some stuff done I didn't think i would, so at least that's something</div>
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I too failed to go to bed early. I also failed to rise early! Thus, so much for healthy, wealthy and wise!</div>
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I defo am a $ fail in life<br /><br />specifically, failed to keep proper records re time spent at jobs so possibly underbilling<br /><br />having to submit hours generally is unpleasant but especially if I've not kept proper records<br /><br />so smaller paycheck so having to confront less $ to pay bills<br /><br />and in general snowballs to all other ways I am $ fail<br /><br /><br />the $ fail is a big Achilles tendon for me. It is the 'no fun fail' aspect of this goal, having to confront all the ways I am $ fail, and the way it is hard of me to conceive of NOT being that since that modality/pursuit doesn't resonate with my life at all. I mean I can't even add, ffs.<br /><br />just.. no.<br /><br />but there it is, like the AA folks say, "I am Nikogda, and I am a failure at $ and thus possibly a failure at life"</div>
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1) tossed some stuff J wanted without telling him, heh heh. It was literally trash, though. Also reorganized an area he works in. The potential for 'fail' was getting some 'tude for it or at least a HMPH but none was forthcoming<br /><br />2) contacted via phone/text person involved in yesterday's Fail 3 and it was weird an awkward and she blew up my phone with all sorts of weird texts but my instincts were right. Not sure how much closer to resolution that it and am still happy to take the Fail for this whole relationship and also that reaching out in my way was also a Fail but at least i tried<br /><br />3) contacted a 'light worker' type person whom we met in 2012 and whose flyer i found in an old notebook a few weeks ago. Prospecting her for J who's still 'single & looking' (and she seems his type) by inquiring re the service she provides/how much, etc. Only real risk of 'fail' is that she moved way ages ago, or whatnot. Not to mention other inherent risks - like that she hounds me to purchase some aura cleansing service or something. This sounds SO TRIVIAL but I tell ya, without this goal i would not have done it.<br /><br />4) had set a goal to NOT be distracted by social media or videos at all for the whole day and it did fail around 7 or 8pm after I'd done what I considered a full day's work - but in spite of the FAIL so glad I managed to go thru till then without breaking the 'fast'. Might try it tomorrow or whatnot<br /><br />5) moved a fridge by myself (didn't want to bother anyone) and now my knee hurts so yeah... fail, lol</div>
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this goal is really working!</h2>
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1) was asked to download images off boss lady's sister's phone. I didn't know how I was going to go about doing that and at one pt I dropped my purse and was afraid I'd damaged the camera. This was getting me all worked up until I realized that if I broke her camera I would have something truly Epic to put down here and that made all the bother and uncertainty go away! in the end it was fine I was able to get the pics and not break the camera but that was just so funny to me<br /><br />2) had lots of interactions yesterday and most were OK but a few I defo feel I missed the mark and it made me very uneasy. Always thinking it's like the Armageddon if I don't do something perfect or missed the mark in any way, LOL! This is the hardest thing for me to live down for some reason, when I feel I missed the mark in a social situation and I impugn all sorts of catastrophic consequences to it. Some ppl are of course just hard to deal with but still you always think in hindsight 'you could done it better'.<br /><br />I still feel wiggy about this circumstance so nothing else to do but add it to the 'fail' category.<br /><br />3) there's another weird relationship that went down the tubes because of a weird situation where some money is owed (NOT by us) and J is making a hard line of it and generally I do too but under this circumstance I'm willing to let it slide and am trying to negotiate it so that J doesn't make it a bigger deal than it need be. Not sure it's possible at this point and so this will probably have to go into the FAIL category when I fail to get her on the phone, mend fences/get some compensation back, and J sends some escalating email.<br /><br />more agreable 'fails':<br /><br />1) walked down to the pub where our friend was playing last nite. Just up and went, not really telling anybody, at 10pm because I wanted to see them. C - line's BF is the main act and she was there and some other ppl and I heard for a while then went home. I knew J wasn't going to want to go and it was going to be a big fucking obnoxious deal and it's not like I wanted to bliss out at some pub for hours, I just wanted a chance to see my friends and do soemthing vaguely New Years Eve-ish. Plus I had a midnite deadline. So I took the small risk and it was great<br /><br />2) submitted a fiction story to another contest :) it was a total abortion but I had committed to doing it, and by golly, I done did it.<br /><br />3) an interesting coda to my previous 'fail" (emailing the writer):<br /><br />received this from his office manager:<br /><br />"Dear Dr. Nikodga, (I shit you not, she called me Dr, LOLZ!!)<br /><br />I am Professor Blinky's Office Manager. He is in the Sahara at a remote research station now, and then in Italy until March 28th. Could you resend your email to him in early April?" and it went on another line or not<br /><br />the upshot is whatever I sent sounded so legit that the woman thought I was a legit PhD :D :D :D even though I referenced a lot that I was at best going to SEEK a degree in the near future and didn't have access to JStor, etc.<br /><br />so anyway that gave me a tiny chuckle<br /><br />i prob will write him in April, I mean, why not?<br /><br />I LURV this goal</div>
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I was going to say something like 'After the first failure there is no other,' but that's neither true nor acceptable under this goal.</div>
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congrats on your degree! ;D</div>
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"... no failure I know..."<br /><br />re degree I know right.. lol</div>
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Oh Dr. Nikogda, I am so happy to see you excited about potentially failing <img class="ico" src="http://www.popclogs.com/images/s-smile.png" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-size: initial; border: none; display: inline-block; height: 16px; line-height: 16px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; width: 16px;" /></div>
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thanks very much <img class="ico" src="http://www.popclogs.com/images/s-smile.png" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-size: initial; border: none; display: inline-block; height: 16px; line-height: 16px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; width: 16px;" /> I hope to be on tenure track to failure soon</div>
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You are such an inspiring failure! I love your attitude and your goal!</div>
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thanks so much rosewilder!! Thanks to you guys I will unertake even more inspired and epic acts of failure - if I can come up with thems</div>
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went out of my way to visit work ppl and it was a good call (so, not a fail per se but yes a risk)<br /><br />explored an unused shack near place of work (we'd gotten permission from the owner) and it was COOOOL!! An abandoned woodworking studio, including the sorts of power tools I remember from sculpture class where the teacher would describe, at the beginning of the semester all the 67 ways each of those tools could kill you or maim you for life. Borrowed a chisel.<br /><br />went on random PM walk (dark) and went in to a field<br /><br />the 'just say hi' thing came up again as I went by the pub and saw a car belonging to ppl i knew and opted not to go in but it was not a big deal. I decided 'who the fuck cares. It's late, I don't want to get drawn into some thing, and I've done way more interesting things of late'<br /><br />one thing that might be a 'fail' was one resident kept emailing me about sending him video, photo files of when he was there and it was sort of a bit above and beyond my job description so I countered with "here you go, I can do that for you but how about I send you some flyers for Job place and you distribute them for us?" and have not heard back. OOPS.<br /><br />a weird hospital bill fail but not sure whose fault it is; I guess have to wait till Monday now<br /><br />have been able to contextualise previous party fails. I was blaming a lot or too much on J's shenanigans, but I was complicit too. I'd discussed in Dec entry re the planet of paranoia and fear I have to carry around and that always makes me orchestrate circumstances like what happened. Or I dont' really have it in me to push for going no matter how much I would want to because of expectation that it will suck regardless. So even though i do not and will not let J off the hook for his role in it, it behooves me to pay attention to mine beause i'm the only thing I can change (and even that much is up for debate) - but yes, it did prove a useful fail because going forward I can see it being better</div>
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FORGOT biggest fail of all - lost all the greeting cards I was going to send!!!!!! Ugh, blimey. Have to find new ones now. Uber dissappointed but never fear, greeting cards will arrive even if mid Jan.</div>
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New Year's cards are better anyway <img class="ico" src="http://www.popclogs.com/images/s-smile.png" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-size: initial; border: none; display: inline-block; height: 16px; line-height: 16px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; width: 16px;" /></div>
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oh, found cards now!! will send out tout suite</div>
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emailing a published, Best Seller neuroscientist professor an email</h2>
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I felt I was way falling down on the 'be a failure' goal - jabbing at randos on facebook was just not doing it for me<br /><br />so I decided to write a legit published author, a Big Deal in the field of neuroscience/psychology, an email :)<br /><br />it was hard to do because of all the things that can happen (being ignored is a big one I suppose) but hell, there it is<br /><br />now I can go to bed knowing I've done my best by my committment to this goal</div>
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those are always fun<br /><br />1) participating in a site, posting a lot on it, and crickets. Persisting anyways instead of sulking, taking my toys away and going home. The only real tragedy is what a time fuckery it is, that's really the only thing legit re me wanting to exit. But deciding it is sine qua non of failing to invest a lot of time and energy on some bollocks that nobody (you nor them) gets fuck all from. And it does allow me to get some ideas in order<br /><br />2) participating in a silly facebook group and actually Permitted myself to disagree with someone!! Usually I don't because it's easier to let things slide and because I react unpredictably when challenged/called on/trolled what have you and I'm just not willing often to put up with the energy drain. Sort of cowardly I guess. But I decided I don't need to take every last thing so seriously and personally and that it's OK to disagree or whatnot so went for it. So far heard one or 2 shady things but nothing too awful. But instead of either trying to mow them down or just walk away i posted the basis of my disagreement in a sort of funny way. Haven't heard back<br /><br />at this stage of my life i dont consider myself the sort of person who takes evrything uber personally - at least certain things I just don't. But other things where it feels like someone is trying to dominate me in some way or put me down feels like a challenge and taken out of all proportion. But yes it's good to confront the ways I do still take so much so dang personally and waste my life in that.</div>
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Hope you're not thinking of not posting here anymore. I like seeing you here. You're one of the people that keeps me coming back. I encounter crickets a lot here, but I don't take it personally. I just figure, that like me, people don't have a lot of time to spend here.</div>
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oh yeah to be clear i was talking about another site, a more general knowledge site</div>
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Ha ha ha ha!!!!! Re the ingognito tab. LOLS.<br /><br />Thanks so for the lovely compliment. Backatcha!<br /><br />I have a small but mighty core of you here with whom I regularly interact and that interaction buoys me. So, when there's crickets, I know that y'all are just busy IRL, or lurking and not feeling posty. Or maybe I am just projecting and talking about mself. LOL Either way it's all good. Plus, you all just let me be me, quirks and all.<br /><br />I like the smallness of it here too, and the incongruous but comforting mix of privacy and intimacy (ie, I don't have to out who I really am, like you do on Fuckbook) but I don't see how that makes for a good "business model" going forward, for the site creators. There was talk of the site being expanded or improved, none of which I have seen, and I have wondered if it was because the administrators won't expand it for so few users. I'd be sad to see it go the way of the original and then the revamped 43T, so I hope if it comes to that we have a viable option to move to, as we did from 43T to here! And that I know in time! Sometimes I am not here for days or weeks on end and I miss a lot...........even when I am here I miss a lot.<br /><br />Anywho...........tra la la, tra la lee, rum tum tum tiddle um.</div>
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i have in the past worried a lot re the site's viability because at some pt.... someone's got to pay for it... there's no ads, no user base, etc. I have even considered (and I hate to even say this or put it out there) that it is the few places I'd consider subscribing $5 a month if that's what it took to keep the lights on but that prob wouldn't be enough and who knows anyhow</div>
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1. daily schedule still a failure but vastly improved<br />2. went up to photo a really crazy house - have been wanting to for a while and finally did it and it was fine<br />3. actually applied for 2 or 3 BS writing jobs<br />4. went by that Baptist Church and actually talked to some ppl! Ended up inexplicably in a homeless shelter/soup kitchen situation, everyone was really nice, but they did not have the keys to the sanctuary. They also probably thought I was mad. And an interesting convo with one of the women about the meaning of Xmas.<br /><br />a few little things I'd wanted to do but demurred and after earlier adventures it just didn't seem worth the bother.<br /><br />defo encouraging</div>
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I’ve been contemplating off and on but never seriously applying for some bs writing jobs too. You may have just inspired me to fail.</div>
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part of the reason of this goal is I find there is a huge chasm between what I fancy myself doing/being and what I actually do.<br /><br />playing out in my head elaborate scenarios of "I will do this thing" but when I am within striking distance crapping out.<br /><br />this is so chronic that I'm not even sure how to go about things, really<br /><br />i would like to close that gap between what I actually fantasize my life being v. what it actually is on the day to day and that includes at both ends: surrendering the more outrageous fantasies and acting out more on the achievable<br /><br />the only way I see to do that is to just pursue more things, even silly things, that may have some risk to them (even if the risk is just having someone look at you cross-eyed)<br /><br />i've gotten better at it though. Today<br />1) walked thru some rando's back woods and avoided getting mauled by dogs<br />2) walked up to a random B& B garden and took Instagram photos<br />3) yesterday walked up to an abandoned house and peeked thru the windows<br /><br />but also failed to, yesterday<br />1) ask for a ride from someone getting in their car when it started raining on me<br />2) ask for some church ppl at their office to show me the chapel<br /><br />another avenue of failing is of course failing to concrete goals, but that doesn't mean you should give up on them IE today failed to pursue my daily schedule after noontime because distractions<br /><br />but i did pursue them up until then so, good effort.<br /><br />and just because I failed at schedule today doesn't mean it's all worthless<br /><br />will try and probably fail at schedule tomorrow again, but will go write it now</div>
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not my fault<br /><br />J's fault because idiot shenanigans/ideations<br /><br />was supposed to go to 2 went to none<br /><br />am actually kind of sore about that<br /><br />well, nobody said that failing was easy ;)</div>
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MAJOR fuck up<br /><br />not all my fault<br /><br />it's late so no wish to go into it much but it involves probably alienating a future client and boss lady by (with J's prompting) inviting boss lady to a party these ppl were offering (the thing on the 21st I've been talking about)<br /><br />when J first suggested it all my alarm bells went off, but I figured 'what the hay, often enough an idea of his I think is fucktarded ends up being brilliant, and I'm trying to be a fuck up anyway so let's go with it'<br /><br />and yes it major blew up in my face :D :D :D<br /><br />had to go thru All the Feelz and then try to put out the fires;<br />1) tell boss lady she could not come<br />2) tell possible client (L) something or other about it and hoping she doesn't cancel because of it all (which will in some way imperil my position and the place generally)<br /><br />J says I was wrong to even ask L; that we shoulda just shown up with them and it is possible that that was the correct thing. On the other hand I was probably fundamentally right in that it is not seemly to randomly invite people to things.<br /><br />all I really know is that I don't really care for these ppl in any kind of way, every time we go I'm either drunk or bored, and when L's name showed up on the roster as someone who would show up in Feb I just sort of shuddered.<br /><br />so now I don't have to go (WIN) and I got the weird feeling re possible future fuck up with this person (because I would have HAD to interact with her eventually) out of the way. (WIN)<br /><br />so, WIN - WIN.<br /><br />This failure thing is super epic</div>
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this is a cool thing</h2>
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via <a alt="simplicity" data-user-id="789" href="http://www.popclogs.com/user/789/simplicity/" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-size: initial; border: 0px; color: #2484c6; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-decoration-line: none; vertical-align: baseline;" title="simplicity">@simplicity</a><br /><br /><a alt="100 days of rejection therapy" href="https://www.rejectiontherapy.com/100-days-of-rejection-therapy" rel="nofollow" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-size: initial; border: 0px; color: #2484c6; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-decoration-line: none; vertical-align: baseline;" target="_blank" title="100 days of rejection therapy">100 days of rejection therapy</a><br /><br />probably not a great goal for me because a lot of these are outside my purview but interesting to see nonetheless<br /><br />(i actually can totally see myself asking a stranger to borrow $100, lol, just for a laugh)</div>
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I have anxiety reading that list of rejections. I could not.</div>
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yeah some of those made me squirm a bit<br /><br />the burger refill was funny though<br /><br />and printer setup at starbucks is hilarious</div>
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the good<br /><br />1) went to job thing, did my thing, it went OK<br />2) last nite stepped into open mic venue because of job thing in part and navigated all sorts of inner bullshit that woulda made this simple thing hard in the past (didn't even play, just went in for like 6 minutes to say Hi to SW and video him a bit)<br />3) got the thing we wanted<br />4) boss lady's sister is in from France and she speaks no English so 'conversed' with her in French which means to me saying some 1/2 assed shit and understanding 80% of what she says - still, Brownie pts for making the effort<br />5) helped boss lady fix a printer problem though I had no great notion what I was doing<br />6) reached out to churlish recalcitrant co worker, heard nothing in response<br />7) ongoing Schubert (<a alt="this" href="https://youtu.be/DLLWfcuizN0" rel="nofollow" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-size: initial; border: 0px; color: #2484c6; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-decoration-line: none; vertical-align: baseline;" target="_blank" title="this">this</a> - chipping away at it<br /><br />the ho hum<br /><br />1) went by local pub saw someone I knew there from window, was on a walk it was late and dark and did NOT go in to say HI. Don't know why - it's not a Federal offense to go in and say HI to someone you know well - he was with 1 bloke I know and some other strange person. It wasn't even about stepping in to stay it was just to 'say hi', instead of walking by like some weird recluse. I think they say me, too. It's simply something I am not known for doing or that I don't do very often and by the time it occurred to me (nothing wrong with going in to say 'whats up') the moment had long passed.<br /><br />this is important because the purpose of 'be a failure' goal is to push the envelope and leave the comfort zone even if/when it means making an arse out of yourself or in any other way confronting whatever bizarre thing in you thinks that something leaves a danger of FAIL or EVIL. Interacting with those you know is a classic one for me. So yea, bummed about this<br /><br />2) procrastinated lots on project (what's new there) so no real chance to push that envelope of confronting my personal Peter Principle<br /><br />in process<br /><br />1) house thing. If I am annoyed enough re fail might attempt this<br />2) friendly escalation with co worker<br />3) finish G - D thing<br />4) AM breakfast tomorrow? (doubt it lots)</div>
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1. sent email announcement too quickly and had major typo in there. A whole paragraph referencing a past event.<br /><br />so now... to resend or not to resend?<br /><br />not bothered about it which is interesting. This is a big fear I've had and oddly enough i have done it before re sending out links that were broken but that was different. This here was pure negligence whereas the other was just the system interacting weirdly<br /><br />2. made communications over the phone difficult due to nerves and not having proper address. Bothered me for a minute but then I remembered I had sthg to put here now :)<br /><br />the good end of things is yesterday's gambits bore fruit - I received positive feedback from 1 and 2 (a good long 'let's catch up' email) and I guess since 3 called this morning (hence muddling up address bit) I would say it all worked out well<br /><br /><br />now adding to list of failures<br /><br />1. J's weird lawsuit idea story<br />2. learn a programming language (I think PHP because of what i'm doing)<br />3. learn how to navigate a router and network properly<br />4. speak in French with the French-speaking folks I know<br />5. find someone who knows Russian and speak to them (though my Russian is way worse than my French)</div>
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I should make a list of things I want to attempt</h2>
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1. do a legit open mic, the david bowie song (or any other)<br />2. approach local cafe re doing readings<br />3. sub more stuff for pubs<br />4. do more stuff with the biz website<br />5. apply for more grants<br />6. talk to random strangers about any old bollocks<br />7. jump off the high waterfall nearby (prob not till summer)<br />8. do busking without even checking to see if its allowed<br />9. do more stuff on facebook to make it more interesting<br />10. go to galleries to pitch them on our art even if i know they'd rather me undergo some hopeless Byzantine 'application' process<br />11. really do the selling online thing i had planned earlier<br />12. send the newsletter without so much torture/foresight<br />13. get the bird house I want<br /><br />can't think of more but that should be a good start</div>
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try more new and interesting stuff and massively fail at it<br /><br />sort of like the Peter Principle<br /><br />sort of like in weight lifting when they literally tell you 'do these number of reps till failure" IE when you drop the weight on your foot<br /><br />BTW the ppl in the postcard (Madison County NC) had a great moonshine thing going until they got busted by the cops = failure<br /><br />i wish to document all my glorious failures (or things I attempt that i expect to fail)<br /><br />start us off with 2:<br />1) post photos from a recent event with CB (not sure she wants them on FB, I guess I will find out :) ) - i have zero reason to believe she would object because she always posts stuff on her wall but i always stop myself from doing the most trivial stuff in case someone does object.<br />2) wrote another friend (I think? will find out) re a new year event she hosts every year that she did not invite us to last year and I was fishing for an invite (it wasn't like an intimate gathering, just sort of a free for all; if it had been personal with family or real friends I would not have bothered)<br />3) contacting that person re that thing we wanted& we're not sure she's still in that line of work anymore</div>
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<span style="color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 13.2px;">As the fate of Popclogs winds down, am still posting there some to bitter end - some of the stuff I will salvage, some I will just let it go</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 13.2px;">What I want to save are</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 13.2px;">- gratitudes</span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">BOOTCAMP</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">today:</span><br />
<span style="color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 13.2px;">- <strike>shops</strike></span></span><br />
<b style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, tahoma, helvetica, freesans, sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">-<strike> call Frontier site DID BILLS INSTEAD</strike></b><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- JOBS: - </span><strike style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, tahoma, helvetica, freesans, sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">update fb etc re new Omari stuff (emails too) + bit re raffle (get with W)</strike><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"> -<strike> </strike>enter new email addresses</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"> -</span><b style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, tahoma, helvetica, freesans, sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"> email Duarte</b><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"> (or even call?)</span><br />
-<strike> progress sales order (what do I need? spreadsheet? shelf? etc. Not sure what) </strike><br />
<strike>- edit/send Sorry.... piece</strike><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- start a woods (even if just 2 marks)</strike></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- <strike>music</strike></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- reading</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- items on chore list</strike></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- new 2019 receipts spreadsheet</strike></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- do receipts</strike></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- sales strategy/plan/spreadsheets</strike></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike><br /></strike></span>
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>tomorrow: </strike>weekend (because prob too much for just tomorrow what with all the stuff)</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">-<strike> JOBS: go video</strike></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- finish wood (3)</strike></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- TF ?s</strike></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- reorganize books (a shelf + which listed where)</strike></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- find sale pics iPhone iPad</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- list 5 books</strike></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- bedroom/clothes + chore list</strike></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- <strike>visit J visited,</strike> but he was not there</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- salvage Gratitudes (just 2 left)</strike></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- salvage Fails</strike></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- see bro and them comin g from Cinci to visit</strike></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- piano</strike></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- finish sorting mail in box</strike></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">for next week:</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- cancel scribd</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- job download videos etc</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- job start newsletter</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- MA newsletter</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- gratitude piece JH + AA</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- N Algren JH and AA??</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike><br /></strike></span>
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike><br /></strike></span>
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">weekly:</span><br />
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<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>52 weeks item: online sales order/system (only posted some so far)</strike></li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">chore lists complete (not happened; too careless)</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>finish 3 woods </strike></li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>post 5 things online (ebay, amazon, etc)</strike></li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">4 hours training (PHP, Joomla, routers, networking, VPN's)</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>2 hours computer general reading </strike>43/PC stuff</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish one book (or 1/2 a big one)</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>sub one wtg</strike> </li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>view next deadline</strike> Gratitude/N Algren</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>go to one event/party</strike> defo MLK thing</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>meet one new person (convo) </strike>ppl at place</li>
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Monthly goals -</div>
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<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>clean/clear one area (take to Goodwill, massive clean, throw out trash - can be living room, office, back office, bedroom, etc</strike> front porch</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">send MA newsletter - good start with novel videos</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">Azule newsletter and grant stuff</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish one piece well of music</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">review emails and populate pub calendar and upcoming deadlines</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>host an event/party (even if just casual/few ppl) </strike>JBerh and C - line came over (separately)</li>
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Alicia Chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06768830482405879216noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4411373400259878092.post-86622724236350648902019-01-17T20:46:00.002-08:002019-01-17T22:23:27.415-08:00sales<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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my task for today was to streamline online sales<br />
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all goes thru<br />
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Amazon<br />
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Ebay<br />
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Etsy (in future because fees)<br />
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<b>Amazon</b><br />
books<br />
CD's<br />
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<b>Ebay</b><br />
random crap<br />
poss tarot readings<br />
art (?? not convinced re this)<br />
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<b>Etsy</b><br />
art<br />
tarot<br />
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<b>Amazon:</b><br />
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<b>Goal: sell as many books as possible</b><br />
<b>use funds to pay off CC</b><br />
<b>after that, use funds to save $</b><br />
<b>1.<strike> </strike></b><strike>Google spreadsheet to track sales</strike><br />
2. Send M a list of stuff sold, added up, by end of month <strike>(create calendar reminder)</strike><br />
3. place all books/CD's listed in strategic location (rearranging some bookshelves)<br />
4. amount listed: I'd started out saying '5 a week' but it was so easy to do it that now am thinking 5 a day, but I'm not consistent in my daily tasks, so<br />
5. test CD's/ DVD's before listing<br />
6. do the tax thingie<br />
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<b>Ebay:</b><br />
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<b>Goal: liquidate junk, old tech, doodads, etc</b><br />
<b>some funds for my spending $, some funds for project above (diff accounts)</b><br />
<b>after that, eliminate what is unsold</b><br />
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<b>1. </b><strike>put all stuff in one place</strike> already done, mostly; a lot of it is elsewhere in the house so for now just concentrating on what's already organized in back room<br />
2. <strike>photo </strike>same as above<br />
3. find/organize photos of stuff that was taken already last time I was doing this- tried this; found nothing so<br />
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<ol>
<li>find/upload pics off iPhone </li>
<li>ditto iPad</li>
<li>put all in folder</li>
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4. create a document that lists them (can be ongoing process)<br />
5. list 5 a week (defo only 5 a week because this is more bothersome than listing on Amazon)<br />
6. relist all items 3 times and what does not sell, dump<br />
7. after all in that room accounted for, hunt rest of house and start over<br />
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BONUS: at one pt create a tarot listing, see if anything happens with that<br />
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<b>Etsy:</b><br />
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<b>Goal: online venue for art</b><br />
<b>make extra $ for all above goals</b><br />
<b>TBD; either after cc is paid off or more $ in some way because fees; would like $ to be made re above before doing this</b><br />
<b>also after back to selling properly again</b><br />
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<b>1. </b>check if free listings still exist<br />
2. photo all art<br />
3. write all art on document (this & above also useful in general)<br />
4. create tarot listing; 3 or more<br />
5. painting project???Alicia Chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06768830482405879216noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4411373400259878092.post-67139817928671479742019-01-16T07:38:00.000-08:002019-01-16T21:13:21.431-08:00Wednesday stuff<table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="float: left; margin-right: 1em; text-align: left;"><tbody>
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So, popclogs Hara Kiri is official.<br />
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Will keep this up for a while on here, I like the sections, like BLogger, and kind of refuse to learn a brand new platform right now<br />
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<b>GRATITUDES</b>:<br />
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1) becoming interested in popclogs's fate has made me interested in SOMETHING, ffs. Sometimes as I said earlier it is hard for me to maintain inner and/or outer motivation. I was feeling a bit like there was a deficit of something to claim my attention but this has done it.<br />
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2) cycled back to human hours :D Up by 6am or so today v. the crummy bed-by-4am-up-at-noon bollocks I was stuck on for so long. a bit jetlagged to begin with but worth it<br />
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3) my good friend <a href="https://www.facebook.com/flacopantera">from ages ago</a> decided to contact me!! WE chatted for a while re. old times and he told me funny stories re stuff we all did that I had long forgotten. So that was fun & completely random<br />
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4) being in<a href="https://www.exploreblackmountain.com/"> Black Mtn </a>and at <a href="https://www.facebook.com/thedripolatorcoffeehouse/">cafe</a>. I really like this cray place for some reason, esp. in the AM (and muffin :D :D :D)<br />
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5) a chance to just be off TOS site - so grateful for the weird shit that happened even if it was cray bc it forced me off.<br />
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<b>FAIL</b>:<br />
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1) becoming interested in taking a role in popclogs transition. Don't know why.. nobody's asked me and most likely I'm not indicated, etc. Certainly no real guarantee of compensation/etc. It's just something that interests me due to my other random web dev interests and also just the site in general. So sending random emails, etc. Writing ideas. In general being available.<br />
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2) UPDATE re other odd TOS situation: low key so far, hear nothing. For the best.<br />
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3) larger failure re global fail with J and inability to have concreted a good outcome for him or us. The nice idea of collab/pooling resource was total crap, just as i feared, for the reasons I feared, too. On my end, Fail of all the times that one could have been more inclusive, generous, chill (For lack of a better word) and instead kept all real possibilities at arm's length. I guess this is regret. Especially considering that we have no clue if he's OK or not (haven't heard in a while).<br />
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Additionally larger Fails like with CB, etc. Never called, fixed that, etc. Prob not my job and will strive to feel less responsible. Still would be good if it could be managed. Seems oddly tied to above pt.<br />
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Then thinking back to larger older fails even, like with LT. I'm pretty sure that once the sordid crap was scraped away that coulda been a very useful, fruitful, etc collaboration/relationship of a sort, but somehow was blocked by my issues (and the other parties were blocked by theirs). I wonder if any above 3 scenarios can be fixed. Would be nice.<br />
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4) issue with internet bill just.... obnoxious. Thought I'd fixed it but GUESS NOT. So tired of those fucks<br />
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5) calling RE and requesting viewing of a house in spite of low likelihood of purchase. Sounding quasi legit over phone :D<br />
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6) pertinent to 3, i DID with New Years' thing demo how it is relatively easy, or easier than I thought, to fix/mend a thing just by reaching out/trying/risk etc so good to keep in mind next time I feel all bogged down by this stuff (in the end as long as nobody's dead, and some effort at personal evolution has been met, it's technically not too late)'<br />
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7) day delay sending out jobs' newsletter but nobody said anything (need to work on this fo sho)<br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">BOOTCAMP - theme was set it all on fire</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">my ideas re that from what I recall was my main objectives are</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">1. enthusiasm for life, which sums up to </span><b style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">not </b><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">assuming everything's about to go to the devil at any moment (part of purpose of the Fail goal)</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">2. don't quite remember but it was something like will to power or committment or somesuch</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">3. burn thru the clutter - of the mind and the physical space</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "helvetica" , "arial"; font-size: 14px;">- all the stuff that's still extraneous and clutter</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "helvetica" , "arial"; font-size: 14px;">- approach - avoidance re certain relationships, etc</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "helvetica" , "arial"; font-size: 14px;">- the occasional or frequent dread and "everything's going to hell all the time" thing</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "helvetica" , "arial"; font-size: 14px;">- $ chaos</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "helvetica" , "arial"; font-size: 14px;">the useful ideas to me are</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "helvetica" , "arial"; font-size: 14px;">1. enthusiasm v apathy</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "helvetica" , "arial"; font-size: 14px;">2. commitment v checking out</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "helvetica" , "arial"; font-size: 14px;">3. Will to Power v Ressentiment</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "helvetica" , "arial"; font-size: 14px;">4. transforming v clutter (both for material and spiritual things)</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "helvetica" , "arial"; font-size: 14px;">5. some candle work</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "helvetica" , "arial"; font-size: 14px;">6. aerobic exercise commitment (if allowed)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "helvetica" , "arial";"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><br style="background-color: white; color: #222222;" /></span></span><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">today:</span><br />
<span style="color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 13.2px;">- <strike>shops</strike></span></span><br />
<b style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- call Frontier site DID BILLS INSTEAD</b><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- JOBS: - </span><strike style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">update fb etc re new Omari stuff (emails too) + bit re raffle (get with W)</strike><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"> -<strike> enter new email addresses</strike></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"> -</span><b style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"> email Duarte</b><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"> (or even call?)</span><br />
<span style="color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- TF ?s</strike></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- write wyverndust</strike></span></span><br />
<strike>- bucketlist interaction</strike><br />
-<strike> progress sales order (what do I need? spreadsheet? shelf? etc. Not sure what) </strike>good convo re once a month notification, also mailed a book<br />
- edit/send Sorry.... piece<br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;"><strike>- start a woods (even if just 2 marks)</strike></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- music</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- reading</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">- items on chore list</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , "tahoma" , "helvetica" , "freesans" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px;">weekly:</span><br />
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<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">52 weeks item: online sales order/system (only posted some so far)</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">chore lists complete (not happened; too careless)</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish 3 woods </li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>post 5 things online (ebay, amazon, etc)</strike></li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">4 hours training (PHP, Joomla, routers, networking, VPN's)</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>2 hours computer general reading </strike>43/PC stuff</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish one book (or 1/2 a big one)</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">sub one wtg </li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>view next deadline</strike> Gratitude/N Algren</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>go to one event/party</strike> defo MLK thing</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">meet one new person (convo)</li>
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<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>clean/clear one area (take to Goodwill, massive clean, throw out trash - can be living room, office, back office, bedroom, etc</strike> front porch</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">send MA newsletter - good start with novel videos</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">Azule newsletter and grant stuff</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">finish one piece well of music</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;">review emails and populate pub calendar and upcoming deadlines</li>
<li style="margin: 0px 0px 0.25em 15px; padding: 0px;"><strike>host an event/party (even if just casual/few ppl) </strike>JBerh and C - line came over (separately)</li>
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Alicia Chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06768830482405879216noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4411373400259878092.post-64747453540344065592019-01-16T07:09:00.000-08:002019-03-10T16:39:25.527-07:0052 things in 52 weeks (off popclogs site)<br />
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i have zero faith i can pull this off for the simple reason that i feel i can't rely on external reality remaining the same for me to allow for such a list. IE as far as I know we'll have to move again in 2 months, 4, etc. Also fact J is planning a 2nd surgery this year sometime, and just other stuff that always seems to throw monkeys in wrenches or however you say that<br />
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but I decided to go ahead and do this anyway as a mental exercise of 'what would happen if I COULD make these things come true?' and i realized that the bad crap that's bogging us down re our physical space would be resolved by late July. That would be frigging awesome. So it was good to at least see it spelled out like that.<br />
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the other problem, allowing for the suspension of disbelief enough that we CAN stay put enough to accomplish these things, is I have is to prioritize which should go in one week. All things seem either URGENT NOW or meh.... whenever, so hard to put a timer on it<br />
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already finished one today so yay! ahead of the game<br />
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<strike style="background: transparent; border: 0px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">1. clean, unclutter, reorganize front porch so it looks somewhat less ghetto</strike><br />
<strike style="background: transparent; border: 0px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">2. really organize and sort thru paperwork, find it a new home and put the important ones in a rational, searchable place (medic and inheritance ones)</strike><br />
<strike>3. get real system for selling the stuff online going (including where to store)</strike><br />
<strike>4. finish really old box of receipts (or did I already do that???? if so, freebie :D)</strike><br />
<strike>5. reinvigorate various art promo newsletters etc campaigns for our wood art (including plan for making it sustainable) - what's needed here is a tutorial on best way to mailchimp</strike><br />
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(feb 3) - NOTE: contingent on if J decides to Part 2 re hip surgery at this or another time<br />
6. eliminate kitchen pests part 1 (mice) FEB 3<br />
<strike>7. go thru clothes conveyances in bedroom, clean out, eliminate stuff, etc FEB 10</strike><br />
8. eliminate kitchen pests BUY THE SHIT!!! FEB17<br />
<strike>9. serious clean/declutter my desk area (including better usage for storage and eliminate or fix nonworking printer) </strike> FEB 24<br />
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(march 3) NOTE: online sales going throughout<br />
10. serious clean/declutter kitchen desk area (possibly eliminate? Have only one desk area WOULD be desirable)<br />
11. come up with credible list of new art selling prospects (venues, galleries, fairs, etc)<br />
12. EVALUATION: how things have gone, how things look going fwd (including how life has gone or liable to go) by know I will know if in fact the rest of year is doable<br />
13. actually contact the motherfuckers re item 11<br />
14. scour art media and credible list of who to contact (press)<br />
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(apr 7) - NOTE: Poss begin art market at this time and other sale ventures<br />
15. contact above folks (emails, press releases, etc) - also with the one bloke<br />
16. finally print promo materials Vistaprint or somesuch<br />
17. clean art shed Part 1<br />
18. plan sthg credible for J b-day<br />
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(may 5) NOTE: poss have one or a couple yard sales<br />
19. some sort of J birthday greeting<br />
20. follow up as needed items 13 and 15<br />
21. credible J birthday experience<br />
22. clean art shed Part 2<br />
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(june 2) NOTE: supposedly have been having $ to pay off cc by now<br />
23. semi aggressive sale push for remaining stuff<br />
24. cull stuff from in house (toss, give away, organise, etc PART 1 (bedrooms, living room)<br />
25. cull stuff from in house (toss, give away, organise, etc PART 2 (kitchen, JH area)<br />
26. cull stuff from in house (toss, give away, organise, etc PART 3 porch, outbuilding)<br />
27. go thru boxes of papers in screened area PART 1<br />
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(july 7)<br />
28. go thru boxes of papers in screened area PART 2<br />
29. get rid of ALL THE CRAP that was not eliminated online or otherwise<br />
30. revisit long-dead Patreon thing (hopefully grounds have been made already for something like a relaunch)<br />
31. revisit and rephoto 93 paintings thing; see if any need touching up, fixing, etc<br />
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(aug 4) NOTE: by now supposed to be saving $ in other account<br />
32. some sort of nephew birthday greeting<br />
33. begin remarketing/reintroducing 93 paintings thing<br />
34. send postcard to last few patrons of 93 paintings (hilariously late)<br />
35. some sort of bro birthday greeting<br />
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(sept 1)<br />
36. find or plan xmas/bday gifts<br />
37. whatever wasn't finished in boxes of paper, or fix art shed, or culling, or any other in-house declutter processes (or touch up)<br />
38. ibid. Part 2<br />
39. begin a computery study PART 1<br />
40. follow up various art comm things (34, 20)<br />
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(oct 6)<br />
41. computery study PART 2<br />
42. some sort of mum birthday greeting<br />
43. computery study PART 3<br />
44. computery study PART 4<br />
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(nov 3)<br />
45. real estate study PART 1 (weird idea)<br />
46. some sort of niece birthday greeting<br />
47. real estate study PART 2<br />
48. plan sthg credible for my b-day<br />
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(dec 1)<br />
49. finish whatever gifts<br />
50. send xmas cards!!!!!<br />
51. do sthg credible re my b-day<br />
52. big evaluation re year<br />
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Alicia Chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06768830482405879216noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4411373400259878092.post-31600904863327225362019-01-14T17:39:00.004-08:002019-01-14T17:39:54.846-08:00Fire Posts from Jan Bootcamp<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;"><i>since PC is going down I will move over the stuff I actually liked on there </i></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;"><i>This was Fire posts</i></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">you know I should really find this triggering because 4 or 5 years ago we actually had that house fire 9 days before New Years which did essentially set the year on fire for us, lol</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">the reason I don't is in the end nothing bad happened to any of us and the fact is that house and life situation was and had been a millstone round our neck (it was just way too cluttered and chaotic) and the fire facilitated burning through a lot of that. It was a fire in the upstairs unit so we didn't even suffer any notable damage to our important belongings; just a lot of smoke and water damage. We were 'homeless' for a few weeks which just meant living with mum and then moved on from there. Had a storage unit for 2+ years then found a solid place that we are somehow still at. Who knows for how long; hopefully for a while or at least till we can make a graceful transition</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">anyway the moral of the story is, sometimes a real fire (IE outside catastrophe) can lead to good things</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">it will be interesting to see how i can use this imagery to my benefit currently. </span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">I need a fire under my arse in regards to energy level, will to do things, decisino making, and what I said last bootcamps re closing the gap between my fancies and what I actually DO do</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">SET FIRE TO:</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">- all the stuff that's still extraneous and clutter</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">- approach - avoidance re certain relationships, etc</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">- the occasional or frequent dread and "everything's going to hell all the time" thing</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">- $ chaos</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">IF THERE WAS ONE THING</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">I guess it would be that gooey viscous membrane of inaction, apathy, uninvolvement, pessimism, dread, whatever you want to call it, that stands between me and living a life in a lived way and sort of stains everything I undertake. Something like that. I feel I have invested a lot of time and energy trying to get rid of that and now in some ways I DO feel closer but still not really there</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">i think it is there to keep me from having certain feelings about things and myself so the only solution is to just tolerate the feelings and have it all burn off me that way. Can't think of anything more</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">so, pursue mroe things that actively make me feel like garbage. Hence, the 'fail' goal in many ways</span><br />
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<i>The pic is from a different time when things seemed different, more 'fiery', even though it ended up all being bullshit - but also the sun is a giant fireball so why not</i><br />
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still trying to come up with a conceptual framework for this 'fire' business<br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">maybe I go have a smoke and that inspires me :-D :-D :-D</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><strike style="background: rgb(255, 255, 255); border: 0px; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"></strike><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">--</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">OK I'm back</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">mainly for me the idea is 'what is fire' in a symbological/philosophical/practical sense?</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><b style="background: rgb(255, 255, 255); border: 0px; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">what is 'fire'</b><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">1. enthusiasm </span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">2. committing </span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">3. I want to say 'passion' but that word kind of irks me - to me either it's romance novels or </span><a alt="this" href="https://www.imdb.com/title/tt0335345/" rel="nofollow" style="background: rgb(255, 255, 255); border: 0px; color: #2484c6; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-decoration-line: none; vertical-align: baseline;" target="_blank" title="this">this</a><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">, both which make me kind of want to throw up in my mouth a bit. So maybe forget 'passion' and stick with BRIO which is what they say in music when they want you to play a certain way, 'con brio'</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">4. emotions </span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">5. focus</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">6. faith</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">7. will to power (Wille zur Macht, for the initiated)</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">8. transforming the old, useless, broken thru destruction/repurposing</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">9. rising again after being beaten down, improved</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">10. group contagion, stampede, mob mentality</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">11. assertiveness; striking down oppressors</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><b style="background: rgb(255, 255, 255); border: 0px; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">and here's 'anti fire'</b><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">1. apathy</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">2. checking out</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">3. lethargy</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">4. cerebralizing</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">5. vagueness</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">6. irony</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">7. Ressentiment</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">8. wallowing in clutter, nostalgia, the past</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">9. staying down after a beating</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">10. isolation, critical distance, remaining unmoved by the lives of others</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">11. tolerating others' misdeeds so as to 'not create waves'</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">OK that was thoroughly useless. Sort of interesting, though. I look at the fire list and sort of scoff at myself 'yeah right'. But some things are good. Items 1, 7, 8, 9, and 11 have much to recommend them. </span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">But items 4, 6, and 10 on anti-fire list do too. Also item 11 on anti fire list is sometimes useful/appropriate (espcially when you're the one who stuffed it up). And sometimes you can't help being at 3 becuase health or whatnot. 1, 7, and 9 are really the villains of this anti fire list. </span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">And all my practical life goals revolve around 8 in regards to my personal space, and around 1 and 2 in regards to my spiritual space.</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><b style="background: rgb(255, 255, 255); border: 0px; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">other ideas:</b><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">1. specifically burning something albeit symbolically (IE some old writings) might be good. Not easy to manage since no fire pit and someone told me the other day it's illegal to burn paper, cardboard, etc (oops)</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">summer '17 I burned a ton of old journals from HS on thru college (some of them were actually water damaged) and on the one hand it is possible for me to construct the belief that it did something for me (opened me up musically more, oddly) but on the other hand i actually regretted it. I didn't expect that. This was a record as to my state of mind at that time and would have been helpful in a possible future. Now it's all GONE. People on here congratulated me for doing it and of course I can't take it back so I have to live with it but I realise it's not that simple to just burn thru stuff</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">also in May i murdered my other PC account that had TONS of content. Same thing. Didn't really save any of it. Some regret there as well, mainly because it prob depleted the site of content. BUt also the historical record</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">so I really am not a stranger to 'burning things away' but am wondering if there's a use in doing it now in spite of 'fire' theme</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">2. some spiritual meditation discipline with candles - this seems OK and doable enough</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">3. exercise or exertion in some way - always a welcome thing but not always practical. Maybe mini trampoline if my knee allows it</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">4. a bonfire once - very impractical. As said, we don't have a pit. It would have to work out that I go to a thing where that's happening. Possibly this weekend, though</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><b style="background: rgb(255, 255, 255); border: 0px; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">In conclusion</b><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">the useful ideas to me are</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">1. enthusiasm v apathy</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">2. commitment v checking out</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">3. Will to Power v Ressentiment</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">4. transforming v clutter (both for material and spiritual things)</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">5. some candle work</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">6. aerobic exercise commitment (if allowed)</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial; font-size: 14px;">so that will be my framework</span><br />
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1. enthusiasm v apathy -<br />part of this is 'courage' stuff of last month, as well as 'failure' goal. I notice that big impediment to enthusiasm is constant fear of bad ends, and fear of failure, and fear/expectation of disappointment<br /><br />I think it's too much to ask of myself to actually harbour honest unwavering Enthusiasm towards life so I will ask for:<br />a) suspending disbelief that everything i like and will undertake is destined to go down the shitter<br />b) more commitment to Failure goal (I actually DO feel enthusiastic about this, oddly enough)<br />c) just having more fun in general by doing random fun things IE social, etc, especially after suffering a setback or being stuck in frustration/dissappointment (whether bc something sucky happened or I procrastinated and thus feel down). Flip that script and go have fun instead and thus inhabit more a state of Enthusiasm than Funk.<br /><br />2. commitment v checking out - this is where you commit to specific goals/modalities:<br /><br />a) writing career for J and I: IE I am forcing him to write a 60,000 novel by Jan 11th because of a deadline. Literally threatening to withhold nourishment unless he does it. If I didn't believe he could do it I wouldn't. But he MUST.<br />As well am committing to my own writing things, sub. stuff when a deadline occurs, etc. Begun working on a 2004 to present memoir and also Uber Diaries<br />Part of committment here is to <b style="background: transparent; border: 0px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">read more</b>. I am as an adult a rubbish reader because it's more fun to Cupcake Wars and social media. But it is important<br />b) fix $ disaster: This needs some MAJOR FIRE to come through. There's the whole not overspending and actively beating bushes to make more $. And all attendant noxious bullshit involved in those. Specific goal is to pay off a $900 clandestine credit card. Another specific goal is to begin a clandestine savings account. THis is a year-long goal BTW<br />c) set a fire sword to clutter: Can dovetail with 2 because I'm not above extracting every last penny out of whatever random household crap I have before passing it on (it's how we survived 2010, yo) but at some pt it becomes a bit of a cost-benefit analysis IE if something else is more remunerative then one can take all to Goodwill. Another year-long goal that intersects with above<br />d) music: my only real goals are for personal practice and learning specific pieces. No real committment to performance or $ save for possibly busking and the one open mic I owe David Bowie (long story; will not go into). But music as daily life<br />e) job: doing the best I can in timely manner and producing results for those ppl<br />f) computer/IT: have wanted to get good at something in this realm for ages. Want to commit to learning more re networking/internet generally to be able to do more interesting stuff, and to learn a language. Poss PHP because some direct application to things I've had to be doing. Also clean up tech/learn more Windows maintenance tasks, etc<br />g) creative production: includes JH+AA art, other art I may undertake<br />(h) creative promotion/sales: things to do with grant seeking, Poatreon (fi we even do this), going to sell, prospecting with shops and galleries, 'networking', newsletter, 'social media', etc. This always seems the hardest/most hopeless, because So Much Hate.) Putting this in parenthesis because if I can find a way to make some other person do this or if we can make do without it then it can GO FUCK ITSELF. But I can also see how with the right gaming mentality it could be fun. So who knows<br />i) a productivity process of accountability: to know you actually accomplished things<br />j) social/relationships: and all that entails<br /><br />3. Will to Power v Ressentiment - prob need to read up more on what these specific things mean. The little I saw resonated though<br /><br />4. transforming v clutter (both for material and spiritual things) -<br />a) selling whatever can, online or yard sales, part of this<br />b) burning things if appropriate (though as stated elsewhere prob not practical)<br />c) taking to Goodwill<br />d) weekly/daily committment to Chores<br />e) filing/consolidating/discarding papers<br />f) Kon Mari type things<br />g) making ugly things not ugly IE icky chair in porch that i like bc comfortable but looks like hell so do something with that<br />h) any spiritual processes for releasing old fears or resentments, as applicable<br />i) confronting ppl/asserting v. holding it in (procrastinating oddly fits in here somehow)<br /><br />5. some candle work - thinking of doing LHay again, or at least a morning prayer.<br /><br />6. aerobic exercise commitment (if allowed)</div>
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