pretty useless day yesterday, not to put too fine a point on it. I slept a lot for some reason but i don't question that because I've not been feeling 100% for a while now, all summer, probably. Not even worth being annoyed at failing at tasks, goals, etc so spectacularly again, really. It is what it is. The way things are now everything is a hoped for and there's no worth putting emotional energy in its achievement because clearly the energy/drive/force required to make things happen is ABSENT, whether that's bc of my permanent personal failings, or outside circumstances, it doesn't matter. Maybe one day it will be better, maybe someday I'll find what I'm missing, even if it's just drugs haha. But for now I am surrendering attachment to what i can or cannot achieve because at the end of the day it clearly doesn't make anything better at all and does not address the fact that i am seriously missing something. It would make more sense to find out what i am missing so i can function at a more optimal level than to expect that i can do more than i can.
anyhooo, same old stuff:
food
10 dwgs: comit to ONLY 3
If time:
test paypal buttons
paypal for fb
4 octo (push to groups)
DL for week
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- links
clean up shelf area by JH
collect more art sub places (in post)
pc update
DIH for week
other art
see this - https://buffer.com/journey
grateful for
felt better this morning
potato juice made me feel good
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