grats & stats

Grateful for

- nice weather outside

- photos that show you the reality of what you are, etc that way you have information and a choice, as opposed to living in denial & delusion and having no chance to edit your outside image. In re. to having had to see photos of myself from recent event.

made for Kickstarter project that i am considering touching up

I stopped trying re my looks (possibly the more accurate answer is 'i never started trying') because i never really believed there was anything there worth salvaging or bothering about, but recently it occurred to me that there's no reason to make a bad situation worse by looking like an unkempt bag lady on top of everything else, and that simple things like groomed hair and not slouching can do a lot for one's self worth and personal appearance.  Seeing the pics of myself & being able to be objective about flaws that are easy to fix is good. I was not aware of just how gruesome i looked and how important it is to actually brush your hair, if nothing else.

in general i choose to be grateful for the photos. It is just one more instant of criticism from the outside world. I am in general grateful for criticism insofar as how can you improve/evolve if you do pay attention to the feedback v. running away from it and getting mad

cool art hut! the ppl who lived here before made art, too

- I was starting to feel annoyed at all the stuff i had to do & life in general so i instead went out to set up my art studio in the art building ! it was miraculous how much just that act which required being outside and taking things out to the hut and setting up the painting things really helped my mood

- in general then would say am grateful that i ENJOY making art and that I have had opps not just to make it but to earn $$ from it on occassion, and also knowing/realizing how much of my life is happy to be dedicated to that, which is something that for some weird reason i forget a lot

To Do

Having to activate some sort of acceptance forgiveness deal for fucking this up yet again, this is the crap from 2 days ago still undone save for cross out

it didn't sound terribly forgiving when i said it above, though, that's bc i'm pretty sick and tired of being this way but i really have no choice, now do i, just got to be patient and figure it out

so putting it out thre again + a few other choice things to add to the fun

- finish the task of yesterday (2 videos, almost done with one) close to done with 2nd, or at least 1/2way.
- upload weekend photos to facebook & tag ppl this took fucking FOREVER for some reason. FOREVER. 
- DL biz as usual
- computer notate yesterday's notes
- email clean up 1 hour actually DID DO THIS but am going to do again
take photo of camera for sale
post camera for sale
charge camera

turns out that instead of the above i spent most of day
setting up art studio
4+ hours in the kitchen making food while roomates were gone