Tuesday, December 20, 2016

birthday list

gratitude

- so far looks like made it to 39 or whatnot
- fun to go to Good STuff again yesterday, AND Zuma... havent been in a long time
- reminds me how its fun to be back in Mad Co again
- got our plate for car
- succeeded in making good enough $$
- new years yard sale idea scrapped (thank fuck)
- not cold in spite of
- probably will purchase oil/gas for furnace sooon
- more later probably

list


spaceship
phone
purse
box of cards

1 - (d tell)
2 - chall
3 - togar rugs
4 - coffee shop Hville
5 - storage
6 - Suzette's
7 - TJ's
8 - home

Friday, December 9, 2016

do this, grant opp DUE FEB 8

http://usdac.us/usdac-lab-microgrants/

MORE LATER

also these https://www.freedomwithwriting.com/freedom/uncategorized/44-blogs-that-pay-50-for-guest-posts/

ALSO THIS FEB 4 https://overland.org.au/2016/12/ahoy-there-new-writers-we-want-your-fiction/

Dec 9

Grateful for

- spending time with kitties again
- replacing random netflix stuff with productive youtube videos that have something to impart
- having art accepted at 2 lit mags (of course i don't really know what the pt is, or what to do after that, it seems like a momentum that should be kept up, but don't know how. Also do not really get paid for it, or what rights i remain. IE one of those 'was it more trouble than ti was worth?" at least nice that other ppl besides your mum like your art, lol)
- good drive into town, even when i was driving
- free & good dinnner
- being in black mtn again for a while; enjoyable here


To Do

- daily stuff
- pay light on Fri
- hygge page
- post ads early AM, everywhere
- xmas logo
- ma blog
- paint by #s request
- remaining gifts (prob online)
- the credit thing cash back
- later review other lists on here and elsewhere

Tuesday, December 6, 2016

sale ads things

- list on cl  :
  • fridge
  • fridge 2
  • table 1
  • table 2
  • table 3
  • clothes
  • sticks
  • tablets
  • nightstands
  • dishes
  • mags
  • Camera
- list on fb sale groups:  
  • fridge
  • fridge 2
  • table 1
  • table 2
  • table 3
  • clothes
  • sticks
  • tablet 
  • nightstands
  • dishes
  • mags
- list on iwanna:  (USER: spindoctorjimbo PASS: poo)
  • fridge
  • fridge 2
  • table 1 tile
  • table 2
  • table 3
  • clothes
  • sticks
  • tablet 
  • nightstands
  • dishes
  • mags
Ebay



- TF posts
  • wood cleaning
  • cat pee
  • food

Grates & Tasks

random Asian chick - Nashville Parthenon

Gratitudes


- uber thing finally pulled through
- had enough funds to cover all bills (which was an extravagant desire back when affixed photo was taken, mid November). Back then didnt know how it was going to be possible, but it was
- general grooviness of new wheels
- made huge chili & whatnot so will not need to really cook for a while
- great progress yesterday with DL tasks
- baa was here which is always great fun
- fun & interesting dinnner event 2 nites ago
- more reasonably tidy and clean kitchen!
- did put some books away
- we have actual dish/satellite and TV! Big telly came with the house. But it came with satellite box, apparently, and the best part of that actually is satellite radio which is super fun. But it's fun to know i can watch some bollocks when so inclined. And I believe we are not paying for it (but i guess we find out lol)
- VERY grateful to have a heating methodology that will keep it at least HUMAN in here, and is not costing a fortune

To Do


THE ONE THING: following computer list: On Computer (done by 4:30pm)
- DL jobs for remaining 4 days
- DIHs for remaining
- uber thingie
- NNL for today
- post CL list sale things PREPPED PHOTOS (just all of them, just fucking do it, forget about the right time for it, etc)
- prep for TF postings photos/list
- bills finish (if $ posted) not today


In house ( rest of evening, or as getting up breaks)
- dishwasher things/gen kitchen
- clothes away in bedrooom
- unload more boxes
- take stuff out to yard
- find glasses leg to fix ones with prespcription/fix glassses
- make spray/spray shoes (ALL shoes)
- Pia thing (need glue or whatnot)


Additional computer (if time)
- post TF
- manage audio files
- sub process review list
- sub process harvest more
- have we a cash back cc?
- whatever remains of xmas gifts

Saturday, December 3, 2016

Dec 2

Yesterday was through some weird miracle EXACTLY what I dont' want my days to be like.

Instead of wasting breath on that, I want to share what I DO want my days to exactly be like:

- get up early by 7am at the least, generally shooting for 6am
- have a moment of exercise or whatnot, prayer, LHay
- make food involving greens, proteins, etc
- eat whole foods/raw/paleo/what have you all day
- sit to do sthg productive by 9am at the least, having had a day-before list
- stop eating & coffee at 5pm
- FINISH ALL THE THINGS by 6pm
- spend time doing things that make beaucoup $$ and/or are enriching
- fulfill obligations, deadlines, committments
- some sort of fun break
- enriching reading, etc till 9pm
- get off computer
- bed by 10 or 11p
- IF for some reason being forced to moonlight it, or stay up past midnite for a deadline, have it be for something that is earning at least $1000

Gratitude


- finished a project that was becoming impossible for whatever reason to complete
- new clarity re. what i want to spend time on in regards to time/compensation formula, IE when prospecting for new jobs
- some good audios
- it rained, which was needed
- for the moneys earned recently
- for not being attached to bad stuff anymore so much
- cleaned kitchen yesterday which i didn't think I'd get to
- found some $ which i thought was missing
- Unpleasant Person not on facebook sale groups

To Do

The One Thing: Clean back room in preparation

Other priority: Kitchen, bills

- make banana bread
- list on fb sale groups:

  • fridge
  • table 1
  • table 2
  • clothes
  • sticks
  • tablets
  • nightstands
  • dishes
  • mags
- light bill? looked, couldnt
- clean back bedroom
- reorder fridge
- put clothes away
- ma blog
- TF posts

  • prep photos
  • make list?
  • POST
- pay bills
- find quilt blocks to email E. re poss project
- sub process recover
  • update spreadsheet
  • advise re. upcoming deadlines
  • find new opps
  • write art emailed lady


Saturday, November 26, 2016

thanksgiving grats and processsesss

 - saw family again, was great!
- EVERYONe climbing on the fun tree
- gift exchange
- made some money on the yard sale
- eliminated some clutter
- getting along swell with people
will add more later






 To Do -

- TF posts: download photos, post
    - one
    - two
    - three
- 12 drawings (before end of year)
    - 4 b4 end of weekend
    - 2 horizontal
    - 2 vertical
    - 4 animals 3
    - 2 appalachian 2
- hygge thing
- chicken things (at least the one!!!!)
- recoup process
- post fridge ad
- post clothes ad
- post table ads

Sunday, November 13, 2016

sub opps for the future

http://coldmountainreview.org/

the r.t. smith prize for narrative poetry

Named for the master storyteller and founding editor of Cold Mountain Review, this $500 prize honors a narrative poem on an ecological and/or eco-justice theme (broadly defined). All submissions will be considered for publication in the spring issue of CMR.   Deadline March 15, 2017. Look for details here and on our Submittable site soon.

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https://nonbinaryreview.submittable.com/submit/59422/dearly-beloved-an-in-memoriam-anthology a few following options, pays $10 or $15 per piece

Dearly Beloved Jan 31 2017 (david bowie)

2016 has been a year of the significant loss of cultural icons, from music and recording artists to literary titans and sports heroes. Social media has made grief and loss a shared experience for the people influenced by these celebrities. And while the internet guarantees that there will never be agreement in the legacy left behind, it has also created a new norm in how we grieve, publicly and privately.  Artists, musicians, writers, directors, sports heroes, politicians, and actors reveal us to ourselves through their work.

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NBR #13: Snopes.com - Urban Legends
Ends on May 1, 2017
 https://nonbinaryreview.submittable.com/submit/69819/nbr-13-snopes-com-urban-legends

NonBinary Review is a quarterly digital literary journal that joins poetry, fiction, essays, and art around each issue's theme. We invite authors to explore each theme in any way that speaks to them: re-write a familiar story from a new point of view, mash genres together, give us a personal essay about some aspect of our theme that has haunted you all your life. We also invite art that will accompany the literature and be featured on our cover. All submissions must have a clear and obvious relationship to a particular entry on Snopes.com. Submissions only related by a vague, general, thematic similarity are unlikely to be accepted.


https://tnq.ca/submissions/
So you want to submit your writing for publication in TNQ? Here’s what you should know:
The Fun Stuff
We pay writers $250 for a short story or non-fiction entry, and $40 per poem or postscript story. In exchange, we get first Canadian publishing rights. You keep the copyright. And the bragging rights.
https://slicemagazine.org/submit/
SLICE magazine welcomes submissions for short fiction, nonfiction, and poetry. We’re looking for anyone with a fresh voice and a compelling story to share—basically any work that really knocks our socks off. We’re not drawn to experimental or heavy-handed genre fiction. The best way to get a sense of Slice’s content is to read the magazine. You can subscribe here. At the core, Slice aims to bridge the gap between emerging and established authors by offering a space where both are published side-by-side. In each issue, a specific cultural theme becomes the catalyst for articles, interviews, stories, and poetry from renowned writers and lesser known voices alike. We offer all contributors of Slice a monetary award for their work ($250 for stories and essays and $75 for poems).
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Source: ed2010

Extra gratitude

More Got a logging app to work on a new device, looks like it's going to be a good one Saw cool and interesting things in Nashville, including being at a coffee shop at 2am The very existence of a 24 hour cafe! Doing something New & Different though at this stage of my life I sorta kinda rarely want that That the loud ppl left That I found a Barnes and noble where I saw a book that helps me deal with stuff well called PRESENCE   Coming to see the ways in which I ludicrously really do ask for too much, even when I do little (as in always whining to myself "I don't ask for Much but it's such bullshit, am always asking waaaaay too much outrageously much, from houses and money and others) am hopeful that these epiphanies can help me develop and evolve in more useful ways  
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Finding out that weird thing about that person and when I began to get upset and judgey I instead went outside to get fresh air, and it really worked Feeling mostly physically well Looked at a specific opportunity and even if it doesn't pan out - most likely - I know I did my homework  A moment of actual inspiration looking at a home  Partnership Baths 3 days in a row Definitely the new home, still Having gone on groovy hike with friend and promise of more Walk today, it's always great to walk Remembering Labyrinth as great allegory, especially the bit about getting into the labyrinth  The bold move going to the art building

Thursday, November 10, 2016

Extra gratitude

Been feeling pretty down lately, for pretty obvious reasons. So I wanted to knock this out real quick while in the bath

Grateful for living in a beautiful place

Grateful for word completion of the cell phone

Grateful for the bath at the hotel since I don't have one at home, we have a shower, just not a bath

Grateful for the physical ability to move and do manual labour

Grateful for being so far along in moving processes, still not done but very close

Grateful that the blasted election is over (now if we could all just move on)

Grateful for not having the shitty ideas of the past

Grateful for having enough food, probably too much

Grateful for, actually, weirdly grateful for feeling bad or down or lethargic or possibly even depressed, because in the past this has often meant a real positive dynamic life change, beyond just the moving which just happened but embracing true possibility

Wednesday, November 2, 2016

REFLECTIONS: Garbagey garbage describes my health this Fall.  Just garbagey garbage. Bleh.  I'm sick AGAIN.  Started with a sore throat last Friday and today I woke up with bilateral conjunctivitis- for those who don't know what that is- it's gooky, crusty, red eye funk.  Iiiieeewww.  Last week was an insanely busy week where I didn't get enough sleep and I ran myself into the ground. Moral of the story?  Something is going to give- and if you don't take good care of yourself?  It's probably going to be your health.  So if I want to keep up this pace I need to be more disciplined about my sleeping, eating and self-care.  But I know all this already.  I just need to do it.  Discipline.  Why is it so elusive? 

So what's the positive in the eye crust and dirty tissue piles?  I've slowed down.  And slowing down means breathing and seeing things around you that you may have missed if you were going too fast .... the leaves are turning colors, tons of yellow and orange, and my summer plants are still in bloom, and my daughter is saying new words and my son's imagination is going wild right now with all of these amazing stories and ideas!  And slowing down does mean I can focus on more of the granular work... so on to that list.... things I can do while I'm sick that won't be over exerting and will allow me to still slllllooooowwww dowwwwnnnnn....




-follow up with the people for the 13th
-do the bills
-send out a promo email with contest info
-post to Facebook as well
-print out all lyrics and order them
-highlight and cut the lyrics as needed
-record the versions we are doing from youtube into garage band and make into mp3's 
-create the iTunes playlists
-burn playlists to DISC for car
-create karaoke playlists
-burn to DISC
-make youtube playlist for when blue tooth fails me
-start working on outline for ReGroup meeting
-print pie chart to fill in
-print values list 
-make menu for 13th party
-figure out goodie bags for 17th?


Things I will do differently this week:  

This week- or what's left of it- will be focused on self-care, staying in a positive, loving frame of mind, focusing on what things I can get done, passive activities, administrative tasks- it'll make me so relieved to have that above list OFF my plate.

Can I TRY to get to bed before 10?  That'd be amazing if I could consistently do this for the rest of the week!

Can I TRY to avoid garbage food?  OF course.  That's easy.  

GRATITUDES:
-I am so grateful for the joy I get looking into my kids' faces
-I am so grateful for netflix and hulu and all things to help keep my kids occupied while I try to get better.
-I am so grateful for my warm shelter
-I am so grateful for all of the conveniences I have in my life
-I am so grateful for the wonderful friends I am surrounded by 

WHAT I'M DOING TODAY TO WIN AT LIFE: 
It's funny that I have that list of "non-negotiables" but I have yet to have 1 full day where I do ALL of those things. I need to finish listening to miracle morning I think... apparently there are some tips for getting you life all in gear before 8 a.m.  Sounds good to me!

Daily Non-Negotiables 
-take supplements
-stretch and meditate 
-30 minute 21 Day Fix workout 
-use meal plan tracker
-shower/look beautiful/wear one piece of jewelry

New/Carry-Over To Do Today

-mail
-bills
-organize desk
-hang up picture in back room
-print out lyrics
-start clearing out the gym again
-hang up shelf in office 
-clean the picture frames and put some pics in and possibly hang up
-make one or 2 more promo videos? if time allows?


GOALS FOR THE REST OF 2016:

-Run 5K:   I actually did it! It wasn't fast, nor was it timed, but I did it!! 
-Size 4 or 125: Not on target for this by try try again! 
-Put on another phenomenal charity event: Have lots of work to do still! 
-Make a vision board: Need to get ink for my printer got it! Now need to do it! 
-Figure out a work situation that works for me AND pays! Meh... 
-Throw my kids an art birthday party: Need to make a decision about this...  
-Host a killer Thanksgiving: Stated watching on streaming food network, thanksgiving recipes- jotted them down in the notes section of my phone.  
-Wake up between 4:30-6:00 a.m. every week day-  I'm waking up more days before 6:00 than I had in the past, so that's good! 

Thursday, October 27, 2016

thurs

Grateful that

- made a decision re health that i will do at earliest (in)convenience
- progress that has been made re move
- things submitted
- dreamt about the Bad Man again and grateful i don't have/need that nonsense in my life anymore
- the logistical nightmares (including a constantly failing septic) that we will leave behind when we move in less than a week
- sense of having made progresss in life re writing pursuits, etc
- whatever of health i actualLY DO possess (not so sure anymore)

things

- further teacher draft (if possible; if it doesn't happen, oh well, am still doing the cats/tornado thing) oct 30
- begin Glamoiur draft (once again, if possible, have not 'felt' this theme, really) nov 1
 - cancel wp
- dl
- donations
- draft ma blog

moving list

get boxes from pod/storage
build boxes as appropriate
take trash to truck
take food things down to wash

order of things

  1. off walls & move dwst
  2. alcove area 

  3. - pack all up
    - undo wire shelves
    - toss the unneeded
    - move/rearrange standalone stuff & clear out of area
  1.  by JH area pack all up

  2. - put art supplies away
    - stuff behind wall
    -put all in milk crate
  3. art studio go pack up & bring to garage
  4. move filled boxes dwst as appropriate/possible
  5. clothes in bags etc
  6. dry good pantry
  7. dry goods in garage (box & out of there)
  8. AA art project: box few ones that didn't 
  9. books (c. 20 boxes)
  10. box up AA desk area
  11. box up jh desk area
  12. clean out fridge

  13. - by me
    - by jh
    - by back
  14. furniture etc of ours
  15. - ladders
    - coffeetable
    - 3 little shelves
    - pill stand
    - weights, exercise, etc
    - aa desk
    - jh desk
    - wire shelving
    - standalone shelves (aa, alcove, jh)
    - 2 wood stoools
    - 3 chairs
    - 1 folding chair
    - 2 office chairs
    - jh night stand 3 legged thing
    - 2 our nighstands
    - giraffe
    - 2 fans
    13. technology and boxes 
    14. wash last clothes
    15. last stuff boxes

Tuesday, October 25, 2016

Tuesday 10.25

been gone! for one whole day couldn't log on here and then got sick then busy etc etc

we also had a blackout where the lights were off for close to 24 hours cumulatively, which was intretesting

and of course general busyness


GRATEFUL THAT


- in spite of my beliefs i was not badly sick and if i did have cold/flu it was the shortest cold/flu in the history of life, lasting less than 24 hours
- having the sweet kitty around for as long as we have him
- new town :D
- i think i have been feeling better past 2 days off malaise that has afflicted me in summer
- a new income opp/gift
- having talked to the lady who bought art from us in the past and how she's ready to see some more
- having got paid to do more colouring pages
- seeing J again and the house, that was lovely, i hope we have further opp to
- pretty fall this time of year
- walks, when i can
- that I go to say 'goodbye' to things that needed to be said goodbye to, in this house, things i've been dragging around for YEARS
- that new neighbour is happy re our going there
- TO BE IN OWN HOUSE AGAIN! What a big deal
- health of family, etc
- mother liked the gift
- feeling mroe focues and with it than last week

TO DO


the main thing today is pack but i need to plan it our or else it will flounder

so, general list

sub AA haloween thing (afte last drraft)
clean up a JH Dkos thing
one TF sub
clean email 1 hour
change dental appt
check balance
draft teacher essay AA very small


moving list

get boxes from pod
build boxes as appropriate
take trash to truck
take food things down to wash

order of things

  1. off walls & move dwst
  2. alcove area 

  3. - pack all up
    - undo wire shelves
    - toss the unneeded
    - move/rearrange standalone stuff
  1.  by JH area pack all up

  2. - put art supplies away
    - stuff behind wall
    -put all in milk crate
  3. art studio go pack up & bring to garage
  4. move filled boxes dwst as appropriate/possible
  5. clothes in bags etc
  6. dry good pantry
  7. dry goods in garage (box & out of there)
  8. AA art project: box few ones that didn't 
  9. books (c. 20 boxes)
  10. box up AA desk area
  11. box up jh desk area
  12. clean out fridge

  13. - by me
    - by jh
    - by back
  14. furniture etc of ours
  15. - ladders
    - coffeetable
    - 3 little shelves
    - pill stand
    - weights, exercise, etc
    - aa desk
    - jh desk
    - wire shelving
    - standalone shelves (aa, alcove, jh)
    - 2 wood stoools
    - 3 chairs
    - 1 folding chair
    - 2 office chairs
    - jh night stand 3 legged thing
    - 2 our nighstands
    - giraffe
    - 2 fans
    13. technology and boxes 
    14. wash last clothes
    15. last stuff boxes



Monday, October 24, 2016

REFLECTIONS: 10 day stretch between this and last post!  Didn't fee like 10 days! 2 more kid ailments made time fly.  Enough with fevers and garbage... bleh!  Looking forward to Spring when no one catches anymore colds!  My goals, and "me" have been a pretty low priority.  I started a bit last week returning to prioritizing what things make me tick and make me feel good.

I burned my hand this morning.  Poured boiling hot water on it.  I'm in a lot of pain and my first thought was, how is this going to get in the way of my week?  How is this going to keep me from achieving my goals??? How is this going to hold me back??  I hate pain from burns and this one is pretty bad... it's the entire top surface of my left fingers... it's throbbing.  I think if I can stay focused, and not fall into the excuse making mentality I always seem to fall into, I will get through this.  

So I finished one of my 2016 goals this past weekend!  I ran the 5K!  It went well!  It was a fun run so it wasn't times but I still got it done!! :) 

Things I will do differently this week:  I don't really need to change anything below.  I'm still working towards these things. 

This week, I'm just focusing on being present and making the right choices for myself in each moment.  I don't need to write out a long list of do's and don'ts or have some list of things to live by.... I know what those are.  I just need to take each choice in the moment, as it comes and do the right thing. 

GRATITUDES:
-I am so grateful for my strong and healthy body- I am free of chronic ailments and serious disease
-I am so very grateful for the home I have- so many people don't even have something as simple as a home- shelter, a place to sleep, away from the elements
-I am so very grateful to be able to watch the sunrise while I reflect about life this morning instead of having to run off to an 8-6 job that rules my life
-I am so very grateful for my dedication and determination when it comes to accomplishing my goals!
-I am so very grateful that I have some incredibly motivating and cool people in my life! 

WHAT I'M DOING TODAY TO WIN AT LIFE: 

Daily Non-Negotiables 
-take supplements
-stretch and meditate 
-30 minute 21 Day Fix workout 
-use meal plan tracker
-shower/look beautiful/wear one piece of jewelry

New/Carry-Over To Do Today

-mail
-bills
-organize desk
-hang up picture in back room
-print out lyrics
-split out harmonies for Thursday
-vocal rehearsal
-do something creative
-start clearing out the gym again
-hang up shelf in office 
-clean the picture frames and put some pics in and possibly hang up
-start floating out ideas for promoting benefit show- 6 emails between now and the show
-make one or 2 more promo videos? if time allows


GOALS FOR THE REST OF 2016:

-Run 5K:   I actually did it! It wasn't fast, nor was it timed, but I did it!! 
-Size 4 or 125: Not on target for this by try try again! 
-Put on another phenomenal charity event: Have lots of work to do still! 
-Make a vision board: Need to get ink for my printer got it! Now need to do it! 
-Figure out a work situation that works for me AND pays! Meh... 
-Throw my kids an art birthday party: Need to make a decision about this...  
-Host a killer Thanksgiving: Stated watching on streaming food network, thanksgiving recipes- jotted them down in the notes section of my phone.  
-Wake up between 4:30-6:00 a.m. every week day-  I'm waking up more days before 6:00 than I had in the past, so that's good! 

Wednesday, October 19, 2016

TUEsday (for oct 19th)

for some reason this had stayed in draft mode from last week

pretty useless day yesterday, not to put too fine a point on it. I slept a lot for some reason but i don't question that because I've not been feeling 100% for a while now, all summer, probably. Not even worth being annoyed at failing at tasks, goals, etc so spectacularly again, really. It is what it is. The way things are now everything is a hoped for and there's no worth putting emotional energy in its achievement because clearly the energy/drive/force required to make things happen is ABSENT, whether that's bc of my permanent personal failings, or outside circumstances, it doesn't matter. Maybe one day it will be better, maybe someday I'll find what I'm missing, even if it's just drugs haha. But for now I am surrendering attachment to what i can or cannot achieve because at the end of the day it clearly doesn't make anything better at all and does not address the fact that i am seriously missing something. It would make more sense to find out what i am missing so i can function at a more optimal level than to expect that i can do more than i can.

anyhooo, same old stuff:

potato juice
food
paypal button projectDL today
10 dwgs: comit to ONLY 3

If time: 
test paypal buttons
paypal for fb
4 octo (push to groups)
DL for week
- formatting
- opps
- links
clean up shelf area by JH
collect more art sub places (in post)
pc update
DIH for week
other art
see this - https://buffer.com/journey

grateful for
felt better this morning 
potato juice made me feel good

Monday, October 17, 2016

MOnday

1. The main thing to be grateful about is, my stepdad's health crisis was averted!! Thru some miracle his artery was messed up and he had found a way to, unbeknownst to him, have a physical the day before he would've probalby had a terrible heart attack or heart damage. There was no blood going to the heart muscle.
so yea, somehow he made an opportune dr's appointment and the rest is history.
very glad about that
2. nice moonlight last nite
3. felt good yesterday and this morning
4. even though it's probably a terible thing for the viability of human life, i am grateful that it's still unseasonably warm bc i pretty much dislike being cold
5. still getting up in AM early even if now am doing that weird thing where i go back to bed around 8 and don't get up agin till 10am (why? simply bc i don't go to bed early enough, of course)
6. i submitted a bunch of stuff over the weekend after all even though at one pt was feeling very NOT on top of it
7. got another drawing commission :D Thanks Lashae :D :D
8. going to a meetup weds which is always fun and new, as well as finalize moving process
9. new $$ opp for Le Jimbo
10. coming to terms with past mistakes in healthy way

To DO



call bloke no need to anymore
DL today
10 dwgs ONLY 3

If time: 
4 octo (push to groups)
DL for week
- formatting
- opps
- links
clean up shelf area by JH
collect more art sub places (in post)
pc update

Saturday, October 15, 2016

Art subs

spent this weekend readying and submitting art to various magazines. Non paying but just wanted the experience

one left for tomorrow: stonecoast review

good articles on how to have useful art statements: http://bmoreart.com/2009/04/best-professional-practices-for-artists-2.html

http://www.gyst-ink.com/artist-statement-guidelines/

also, apparently this is a good submission tracker, so far using SUBMITTABLE and excel sheet but this might be good: http://spacejock.com/Sonar3.html

- emailed woman, write her back

- sugard water https://sugaredwatermagazine.wordpress.com/submission-guidelines/ ONLY ONE MORE DAY till april

in general - https://www.submishmash.com/tagged/visual-art

also - https://www.freedomwithwriting.com/freedom/wp-content/uploads/2016/10/The-Freelance-Writers-Success-Formula-%E2%80%93%E2%80%93-Final.pdf

Silk Road art submissions https://silkroadreview.submittable.com/submit/44524/artwork

Please send up to 5 images of your original artwork in one document as a .jpeg, .png, or .pdf. We are not accepting audio or video at this time. 

Track 4 'women of colour' If you would like to donate to TRACK//FOUR, please submit here. All funds will be used to fund the website and the Submittable. Funds will also be used to fund the 2017 TRACK//FOUR Prizes, which will open on October 1 and close on December 1.  Please submit all work in one document. If you are submitting in multiple categories, please send work in different submissions - i.e., one submission for prose, one submission for poetry, etc.    https://trackfour.submittable.com/submit


Friday, October 14, 2016

Long Time No Write!

REFLECTIONS: It's been weeks since my last blog post and I realized I never published my last one!  I notice such a difference in my life when I take time for reflection and gratitude.

I feel such a drive to keep reinventing myself and revamping my life.  Sometimes I think that's a poor quality- just settle on something already.  Stop changing things around! But actually- I think it's a really great quality.  I won't give up on the life I want until it is exactly how I hoped it would be.

And what am I hoping for?  What's missing?  A little more daily joy.  Doing things that make me joyous.  Filling my cup.  And that's my focus for the rest of 2016.  Maybe even figuring out what exactly does fill my cup!

The election, the state of our country... I'm just dying inside.  It's so hard to focus when I'm so distracted by this.  I feel like I need to do something but I don't know what I could be doing... other than speaking up and trying to get people to be less racist, and gross... beyond that... I don't know.  

Things I will do differently this week:  I don't really need to change anything below.  I'm still working towards these things. 

Create and follow a schedule- (update: printed calendars and started updating) 
Be prepared for the day, before my family wakes up (update: hasn't happened yet) 
Take all of my supplements (update: keep forgetting)
Focus on 4 meals, 100 grams of protein and lots of nutrition veggies (have a commitment buddy!) 
Exercise daily (update: been doing great with daily exercise) 
Do fun (hopefully free) activities with my daughter while my son is at school(have one planned) 
Get out and do 2 things for myself that are fulfilling both spiritually and emotionally - things that bring JOY
 (I need to make this a daily thing) 

GRATITUDES:
-I am so grateful for the community of amazing women I am surrounded by.  They are so supportive and cool.
-I am so grateful that I can design my life exactly how I want to live it
-I am so grateful that I can always seem to muster up a flurry of hope even when I can't quite find the motivation
-I am so grateful for my cute husband
-I am so grateful that my kids LOVE each other SO MUCH
-I am so grateful that my friends are encouraging me to get out an play music more!

WHAT I'M DOING TODAY TO WIN AT LIFE: I'm not doing much right now to "win" at life.  I've been kind of just doing the minimum every day to get by.  It's such a low place to be.  I don't feel bad or depressed... I'm just no vibrating very high.  

Daily Non-Negotiables 
-take supplements
-stretch and meditate 
-30 minute 21 Day Fix workout  or 5K prep
-use meal plan tracker
-is this 5K prep day?
-shower/look beautiful/wear one piece of jewelry

New/Carry-Over To Do Today
I've done a ton on my last here.  Need to rewrite and add the new stuff in tomorrow's post.

-organize the desk
-organize my work stuff
-organize my yoga stuff
-check in on CRCD balance and pay off
-review finances 
-mail out S4S benefit cards
-make a weekly schedule again
-do monthly calendars for October, November, December  
-do something creative
-deep clean bedrooms, vacuum behind beds, under the furniture and clean the baseboard heater
-get laundry away
-clean and put back Teeny Tiny's carpet
-change sheets on the beds
-finish cleaning the bathroom
-start decorating the downstair playroom
-start clearing out the gym again
-hang up shelf in office 
*Bonus- clean the picture frames and put some pics in and possibly hang up


GOALS FOR THE REST OF 2016:

-Run 5K: Comments: OMG- this is next week... I better at least try to run.  
-Size 4 or 125: I'm back on target for this. 
-Put on another phenomenal charity event: Coming along!
-Make a vision board: Need to get ink for my printer
-Figure out a work situation that works for me AND pays! I got a raise and I am still working on it  
-Throw my kids an art birthday party: Need to make a decision about this...  
-Host a killer Thanksgiving: Stated watching on streaming food network, thanksgiving recipes- jotted them down in the notes section of my phone.  
-Wake up between 4:30-6:00 a.m. every week day-  I wish I could make this a habit... 
REFLECTIONS: Back to school night last night.  Since we had a babysitter, we went out for drinks afterwards with other parents- making some social connections!  I'm exhausted today.  Woke up as late as I could WITH the kids... never a good start to the day.  Always much better when I'm up and awake and ready to go when they wake up.  Still that struggle of getting back on track with sleep.  I REALLY wanted to watch Mr. Robot last night when I got home... so... I stayed up too late.  Was that a need?  I don't know... maybe... It certainly doesn't help me with my cause, but is staying up and watching a show satisfying to me in a way that rivals accomplishing my goals?  I think it might be.  I derive satisfaction from escaping into fantasy and maybe on seem level I need that more than I need waking up early and being productive.  Although a case could be made that I wouldn't need to feel the need to escape into fantasy TV world if I felt more balanced and accomplished... chickens, eggs, whatevs.  The MOST important thing I think I need to remember is to be OK with whatever choice I make.  If I choose to stay up- relish in it, enjoy it, and above all, no guilt and rehashing of "shoulds".  It's just no way to live.  Because once you start rehashing in the "I should have" "so terrible that I didn't" it's really hard to get out of the negative space- and what kind of life is that, right? 


Things I will do differently this week: TODAY: just get the house, life, bills organized again today

Create and follow a schedule- (update: got as far as printing out calendars 
Be prepared for the day, before my family wakes up (update: hasn't happened yet) 
Take all of my supplements (update: forgot to yesterday)
Focus on 4 meals, 100 grams of protein and lots of nutrition veggies (update:really not happening) 
Exercise daily (update: also no success as of yet) 
Do fun (hopefully free) activities with my daughter while my son is at school(update:again... as above) 
Get out and do 2 things for myself that are fulfilling spiritually and emotionally(update: 2 fun things on the calendar from Friday and Saturday!  Want to get out for yoga at some point this weekend) 

GRATITUDES:
-I am so grateful for this place to reflect on life and gratuities 
-I am so grateful that I can design my life exactly how I want to live it
-I am so grateful that I can always seem to muster up a flurry of hope even when I can't quite find the motivation
-I am so grateful that I have good friends to hang out with 
-I am so grateful for a full social calendar
-I am so grateful for my talents- I just want to use them more. 

WHAT I'M DOING TODAY TO WIN AT LIFE: I'm staying organized and on schedule and on top of my game.

Daily Non-Negotiables 
-take supplements
-stretch and meditate 
-30 minute 21 Day Fix workout  or 5K prep
-use meal plan tracker
-is this 5K prep day?
-shower/look beautiful/wear one piece of jewelry

New/Carry-Over To Do Today
-organize the desk
-organize my work stuff
-organize my yoga stuff
-check in on CRCD balance and pay off
-review finances 
-mail out S4S benefit cards
-make a weekly schedule again
-do monthly calendars for October, November, December  
-do something creative
-deep clean bedrooms, vacuum behind beds, under the furniture and clean the baseboard heater
-get laundry away
-clean and put back Teeny Tiny's carpet
-change sheets on the beds
-finish cleaning the bathroom
-start decorating the downstair playroom
-start clearing out the gym again
-hang up shelf in office 
*Bonus- clean the picture frames and put some pics in and possibly hang up


GOALS FOR THE REST OF 2016:

-Run 5K: Comments: Need to make a running schedule 
-Size 4 or 125: I'm drifting further and further... joining a heath and fitness accountability group on 10/5
-Put on another phenomenal charity event: First meeting with my partner today 
-Make a vision board: Need to get ink for my printer
-Figure out a work situation that works for me AND pays! Still need to talk with boss.  
-Throw my kids an art birthday party: Working on this.  Found a mobile art truck.  Kind of expensive though. 
-Host a killer Thanksgiving: Stated watching on streaming food network, thanksgiving recipes- jotted them down in the notes section of my phone.  


-Wake up between 4:30-6:00 a.m. every week day- Got up at 6:00 today!  It's a start.  (1/30)